“You’ve done good boys, now we go and make the last plans for the funerals” we all head into the main room, and I notice none of the women are around. I walk into Church and take my seat and wait for everyone to come in and sit the loss of two brothers felt even more prominent as I look at the two seats they always sat in.Chapter FiveEllaAs we all get to the beauty salon, I sit getting my nails painted, something I’ve never really done but when in Rome. I sit next to little Primrose, who seems to know exactly what she wants, making me smile a genuine smile for the first time in over what feels like forever “Do you like the color” she asks me and I smile“It’s beautiful sweetheart.”“Do you think Logan will like it?” I shake my head not really knowing the boy, just that he’s Niya and Colt’s son“I really don’t know him sweetie, but I’m sure he’d love it, it looks amazing on you,” she smiles, and I wish I could be so carefree. I hear the girls laughing about the guys, but I just sit there as the women paints my nails a nude color. I really didn’t think that having them done any other color would be appropriate seeing the funeral was in a few days. I was going to wear a vintage dress that was my Grammy’s, she’d had it since her parents had passed away. It was modest but hugged my large curves, well figure fitting they called it these days and with the black beading at the top making it look elegant but sophisticated. It came to just above my knee, and with the simple black heels, it completed the look. The girls all laughing and joking as they were getting their pedicures, but I couldn’t really get into the mood.After everyone was done, we made our way back to the clubhouse, there were twice as many men, most of them drinking and laughing like the girls were. I see a guy in a cast sitting on one of the sofas a drink in hand and a woman sitting on the arm of the chair, his face smiling but his body posture ridged (that must be Jake). We make our way through the crowd and find a seat, sitting at the table with the women and a few from other Chapters. Then suddenly everyone goes quiet, and I look around and see Colt talking to Saint and Zoey“Where the fuck were you two?” Colt asks them, and everyone turns to watch, Zoey looks so nervous and my heart rate goes up, the memories of Joe come flooding back“In the kitchen,” Zoey says, and I look around again“What the fuck is this” Colt says, looking at Saint’s arm now around Zoey and my heart starts to race even more feeling nervous for Zoey“I’m claimin’ Zoey as my women” Saint says and mummers fill the room, and I look around some people are shaking their heads, I look at the women I’m sitting with, and they're all smiling, this world of motorcycle clubs is so confusing“The fuck did you just say?” Colt says“Jesus,” Niya says getting up and walking over to them“You ok?” Maggie asks me as I watch Colt and Stryker take Saint outside, and Niya pull Zoey to her walking her over to us“It’s ok,” Niya tells her, Zoey looks at her sister, tears in her eyes“HOW CAN IT BE OK!” she yells, Niya just smiles as Zoey bursts into tears the sounds of the large crowd outside giving us clues to what's going on. Oohs and Ahhs can be heard over and over again, and I want to go out and see what’s going on, but I don’t, I just sit there with the girls giving Zoey my support. Something she needs and something no one ever gave me“It’s not that bad, their men they all have to prove they’ve got dicks, they won’t do anything permanent, and you and Saint can be together,” Niya tells her sister. It’s like time has stopped with the noises coming from outside the clock mocking us at the forty-five-minute mark, people start to come back inside. Colt and Stryker walk in and go to the bar, and I watch the door like the girls to see when Saint will come in, he walks through the door, leaning on his brother and Zoey runs to him, and I release the breath that I didn’t even realize that I was holding in.“God that was intense,” Tilly says, sitting next to me and I look at her, Saint pulls Zoey to him kissing her hard, and I notice Blaze staring at me making me look down. Saint goes over and sits down, and Zoey heads to the bar. I thought she was going over to yell at her brother in law, but he hands her a shot and the three of them down it in one. After all the excitement of the night has calmed down Zoey and Saint walk past going upstairs. The room goes back to people laughing and drinking, and I look over to where Blaze is standing at the pool tables. I watch as one of the club-whores walks up to him and he places his arm over her shoulders, and I stand up smiling at the other women