I relished his weight as he pressed me into the mattress; his cock still flexing deep inside me. The fear I felt just a short second ago dissipated with the haste with which he’d released me when I cried out. I know now that even as mad as he is with me, he won't really hurt me.
If only I could come clean and tell him the truth. I’ve been playing around with the idea a lot today. In the face of his anger, I’d love nothing more than to set the record straight and ask for his forgiveness, maybe beg him to take me back. But the monster would never let that happen, and I would only be bringing danger to him. Once she finds out where I’ve gone, it’s only a matter of time before she comes after me again.
She’s found me here once before; what’s to stop her this time? I’d turned off location on my phone and had changed it three times in the last year to get away from her, and whatever spyware she keeps adding to my devices. But it’s only a matter of time before the men she had following me caught up with me.
I hadn’t seen them in a day or so, which is far from the norm, and have a sneaking suspicion that they’d seen Calen follow me home and had, in turn, followed him when he left. They wouldn’t have expected me to go anywhere, I’m sure. Once he realizes that he’s being followed, it’s only a matter of time before he starts asking questions.
I think I might be running out of time. “Again!” That was the only warning I got before I felt him harden inside me again, and before I could say anything, he covered my lips with his and took me over and under once more. I’ll think about my mother tomorrow; just for tonight, let me enjoy being in my beloved’s arms.CalenI can’t keep doing this. Every time I come inside her, it’s like giving her another piece of myself, sharing a part of me that I swore I would never give to anyone ever again. It’s a dangerous game I’m playing, but between my own thoughts, my parents’ attitude, and the fact that she’s not leaving here with my son, I think I know where this has to go. Besides all of that, there’s one glaringly obvious reason why I keep fucking her. I never got over her.
I should feel like a simp, but somehow I don’t. Had I learned that she’d left me for some other man, the decision would’ve been easy, take my son and punt her ass somewhere. But she hadn’t done that, and now I find myself wanting to know her reasons even more than before. I looked over at where she was out cold in my bed beside me, and that feeling of warmth that I thought long dead hit me again.
I tried holding on to my reserve, to remind myself that no matter why she’d left, she’d cheated me out of knowing my son. But for some reason, it no longer packed as much heat as it did the day before. I’m slipping back into the same old rut it seems like, but I’ll be damned if I let her play me for a fool again.
I rolled out of bed, making sure not to wake her, and walked into the closet to find my robe that was hanging there. I stopped off at the nursery first to check on my boy before making my way down to the other end of the hallway. I decided not to go to the office in the other wing but dipped into the smaller, less formal one on this side of the house. I only needed a phone for what I was about to do.
My eyes fell on the clock; it was late at night. But my team knows they’re on call twenty-four seven so I wasn’t worried. Silas answered on the second ring sounding wide awake and ready. “Sir?”
“I need a full track and trace kit for my wife and son.” I caught my wording as soon as the words left my mouth but didn’t correct myself. I also need you to go to her apartment and set up hidden cameras inside and out. What did you do with Sorenson?”
“We told him to keep his mouth shut and let him go. He was worried about what he was going to tell his client, but in the end, I think he knows you’re more of a danger to him than he or she is, so he decided that he’d come up with something on his own. How soon do you want us to set everything up?”
“Now! Did you find anything yet?”
“Some, I was going to wait until we had more and call you in the morning.” I didn’t say anything, and he took that to mean I wanted him to go on.