Too Much Information (Awkward Love 3)

“Holy fuck,” he strangles the words out.

He pumps harder inside me, watching me suck his finger, until he groans. His hips buck against mine as he releases inside me, his cock throbbing against my tightness. I take his hand out of my mouth and wrap my arms around his neck, my mouth engulfing his. He’s breathing hard as he thrusts against me. He pulls out, rolling onto his side. He shakes his head and laughs.

“That was fucking incredible,” he murmurs. “You have no idea what you do to me.”

I smile and roll over, facing away from him. He wraps his arms around my waist, his warm body pressing against mine. I sigh as he kisses my back. I close my eyes and try to stay awake. Milton curls up next to me.

“Probably the only time I can ever joke about having two pussies to myself, huh?” Luke murmurs in my ear.

I giggle, and then drift off to sleep.Chapter Fifteen

Luke“Can I stay over with you tonight?” Allie asks.

I glance at Abbey in surprise, who shrugs and then smiles. Behind the smile, I can see the sadness there, hiding in her eyes. This must be hard for her, because as much as I feel sorry for Allie, Abbey has been through just as much, only she doesn’t get to show how much she’s hurting.

“So long as Luke is okay with it.”

“Sure,” I say with a grin. “I’ll set up the spare room.”

I pad down the hallway to the spare room, grabbing some bedding along the way. I’m feeling great, like everything is starting to feel like some sort of normal. I’ve been spending time with Allie nearly every day. It’s been great getting to know her. I feel like every time we’re together, she opens up a little more. She’s such a good kid. It’s hard to get my head around the fact that nearly three weeks ago, I had no idea she existed. My life has been turned upside down, but I wouldn’t change a second of it.It’s not just Allie where things are progressing. My relationship with Laura is finding its feet again too. She hasn’t met Allie yet and I haven’t pushed it, because it is something she needs to decide on her own. At least, that’s how I hope this will go down. I keep telling myself that by giving her space, she’ll eventually come around to the idea of Allie being in our lives, but a small part of me worries about it.

What if she doesn’t? I’m not sure what I’ll do if I have to choose.

I settle Allie in her bed, then walk back down to Abbey. She smiles at me as I sit down. She’s got something to say. I can tell by the way her eyes keep darting around the room.

“Whatever it is, just spit it out.”

“I have to go back on Monday.” She blurts the words out and then stares at me, her eyes wide. “Sorry, I didn’t know how to tell you, since you and Allie are getting on so well, but I can’t miss any more work, and I need to get back to my husband and child.”

I nod. My stomach fills with anxiety at the thought of her going back home. I really do enjoy having her around.

“So, where do we go from here?” I ask.

“Well, that depends. What do you want, Luke?”

I sit back and think about that for a moment. So many things feel out of my control at the moment. I’d be lying if I didn’t admit that I’m nervous how any relationship with Allie is going to affect my relationship with Laura. I don’t want to lose her, but Allie is my kid. I can’t ignore that. God, I don’t want to ignore that. I look at her and my heart aches over what I’ve already missed out on. I’m not prepared to miss out on any more of her life.

But what does that mean?

The last thing I want to do is uproot her from her life and move her over here. She barely knows me, and a life here would be so different than what she has back home. Home. That’s the thing. Home is over there, where she grew up, where all the memories of her mother are. And I’m over here. I sigh and shake my head.

I just wish I knew what the answer is.

“I’m going to go. Think about it, okay? This isn’t just my decision.”

After Abbey leaves, I get ready for bed. Just as I lie down, my phone vibrates. I pick it up, my heart racing when I see Laura’s name. The last few nights have been amazing, and I’m not just talking about sex. She’s been so happy and full of energy. It’s like me knowing her secret and being okay with it has changed everything for her.