He nods at it. “Take it—then I’m taking you to get on birth control,” he snarls.
Again, my lips twitch. After last night and the pain of his giant cock, this is almost payback. Almost!
“No. We don’t need to get me birth control. I have no intention of having sex with you ever again. Once was enough.” I snort and point at his penis. “Problem solved.” I flash him a big smile.
Okay, I’m making this way worse than it was. Yes, he has a ridiculous penis but I came harder than I ever imagined with his mouth and fingers. I shiver at what his tongue felt like licking my clit.
“You can’t be that ignorant. You have to know the first time hurts. I’m ripping open your hymen.” He looks at me like I might be dumb. And for some reason, I hate that. Holding my head high, I turn on the shower and step in not even caring if it’s ice cold. Thankfully it’s warm and then hot and I try to pretend he’s gone. Enjoying my new shower gel and shampoo, I take my time. I’m amazed that I’m not that sore. I mean, I’m sore but still, if he wanted to do that thing with his tongue on my clit, I wouldn’t say no. I don’t have a chance to think about it longer because Blade turns off the water and drags me out.
“Are you insane?” I push my wet hair back trying to wring it out. “I need a towel.” He blocks me and I want to stomp my foot.
He grabs the box, rips it open, and shoves the pill at me.
“Stop it.” I twist and realize he isn’t joking and will force that pill down my throat if I don’t take it.
“I don’t need the pill,” I yell at him as I slap his hand away. “I can’t get pregnant, you asshole. Although you can take me to a clinic so I can see if I’m crawling with the clap from your dirty dick.” He takes a step back, obviously not expecting that.
“What the fuck are you rambling about? You’re young and healthy. You can get pregnant.” He hands me the white pill.
I hand it back. “You take it. I cant. When I was twelve I got appendicitis. By the time my junkie mother took me to the hospital, it had burst. The bacteria got into my fallopian tubes.” I’m yelling, but he’s finally listening. “The doctor who did the surgery said I’m sterile. So you see, you need that pill more than me.” I brush past him, hot tears threatening to fall. I never think about this because it’s something that was taken from me, and much like my whole life, I hate feeling like a victim. But every once in a while…
Strong, warm hands pull me into his delicious-smelling T-shirt. Downy, spice, and a touch of smoke. It’s Blade and it’s starting to become familiar.
“I’m sorry. I am an asshole.” He strokes my hair.
I shake my head. “It’s not a big deal.” My traitorous voice cracks.
He sighs. “Such a badass.” That’s all he says and it’s perfect. He’s not trying to say it’s okay or that it sucks; he’s holding me tight and letting my truth come out. The tears that I’ve been holding for years, days, my whole life, finally spill over. And I cry, giant gasps of sadness. Sadness about my dad, mom, Benny, and the truth that I’m never going to be a mom.
He lifts me up and takes me to the mess of the bed. Blurry eyed I blink as he pulls his shirt off. His warm hands caress my cheeks. His lips kiss my tears that won’t stop. It’s like once the dam broke, I’m undone.
“Kiss me. Just be with me.” His warm tongue twists around mine. His hand cups my chin, his eyes roam my face. I grab at his shoulders as I seek his mouth, my core instantly becoming wet and slick. My body shivers as I quiver and pure need takes over.
I want him. I’m somewhat shocked at this. He licks my tears and I moan as his large hand moves to my breast, his lips following. As my nipples strain toward him, he grips my breast and massages it. His mouth is on mine as I open for his tongue. I pull at his hair and he bites my lip.
“I’m going to teach you everything I like.” His tongue licks my ear down to my neck as he sucks on me.
“Blade.” I drop my hands to the sheet as I push my head back giving him full access to my neck.
“Fuck, baby you like it, don’t you?”
There’s no need to answer because his thumb is dipping inside me and rubbing my clit. My eyes fly open as I look down at my legs spread open and his tattooed arm and fingers fucking me.