Break Me (Brayshaw High 5)

He stares.

Maybell said the same thing, but hearing it from Captain, the words somehow hit harder.

When I finally force a nod, he nods back and walks away.

My head falls to the iron backing of the bench and I look up at the sky, trailing over the small line of clouds and focus on the shades around them, but even breathing in color isn’t working right now, as it always does.

Raven must sense it because she scoots into the space beside me.

“You know Captain’s right. Royce is tough. Too tough. The rest, it gets buried.” She shifts toward me. “When I first got here, I fucked-up their world, turned it upside down, all while having no idea I was doing it.”

I smile at her stomach and her hands come down to cover where my eyes touched. “I have a feeling they would describe your arrival a lot different.”

“That’s because they’re not normal.” She laughs, but quickly refocuses. “I won’t get into details, he can tell you all about it another time, but basically everything went to shit and quick. Victoria wasn’t with us yet. Me and Cap were held up in a hotel trying to find a way out of the mess we were in, but there was no answer we could come up with, so it went on and on. Maddoc... he left.” Her eyes hit mine. “Don’t think less of him, the situation was fucked and you have no idea what he had to sit back and try to accept. He didn’t want to leave... he had to.”

I hardly hear what she’s saying, I’m too focused on what’s behind her words.

Raven and Captain, they were held up.

Victoria wasn’t in the picture, and Maddoc, he was gone...

Royce was alone, or that’s how he felt.

“Exactly.”

Our eyes meet, and a solemnness covers hers.

“This is when my brother was helping you?”

She nods.

Jesus.

He really felt... left behind, every bit the lost boy.

“These boys, they’re so much the same, but Royce...” She trails off.

“You love him.”

She nods. “I love all three, but I love them differently. My relationship with each one is spades away from the other, but at the end of the day I would die for them the same. And then they’d hate me for it.”

There’s that line again, but I believe it coming from her.

She looks to where Maddoc and Royce are now waiting for their order. “Royce, I’m not shitting you, is delicate, but he never lets anyone get close enough to know it. It’s masked under his anger and playfulness. He wants to love, but he’s not capable of loving lightly. It’s not in his nature. He’s explosive, and he knows it, but you know that, too.”

I take a deep breath and she turns to me.

“He will love fiercer than anyone ever could, deeper than most would think possible, but chances are, he’ll tear you apart in the process. Can you handle that?”

I swallow, shaking my head. “I’m so far from enough for him, and I don’t say that in self-pity. I say it because I understand the reality around me. I’m not afraid to say I want him, but I know I’m not a girl he would ever love. Not the kind of love he’s after.”

The all-consuming love he angrily shared he wants. The queen who fits his black fairy tale.

Raven drops her eyes to the grass, a slight smile on her lips as she scoots herself to the edge of the bench with a wince. She pushes to her feet, her gorgeous, light eyes meeting mine. “That right there, is exactly why he will.”

With her hands cupping her underside of her belly, she walks away.

With each step farther she grows, my breathing speeds up, the possibility of what she’s saying blooming in my chest, but it’s an acidy sting, not a ruffle of butterflies.

To love Royce Brayshaw would be so easy, and dare I say I’m almost there, but to be loved by Royce Brayshaw... that’s an entirely different story.

It’s not long later we’re packing up and heading for the parking lot.

Captain and Victoria step ahead, helping Zoey inside, and Royce chooses that moment to throw his arm around my shoulder.

I look up, finding his eyes already on me, and he halts us both in place.

My lips tingle in memory, and his tongue pokes out to wet his own.

“‘Member when I said you were in trouble?” he rumbles.

I nod.

“Good, ‘cause that shirt? Hiding my mark on your skin?” He raises a brow, bringing his lips to my ear. “I’m gonna tear it to shreds... while it’s still on your body.”

My core heats, my lips parting.

“And I’m gonna use my teeth to do it.” He slips closer. “Just wait. I’m—”

“Oh fuck... guys?” Raven’s voice cuts through the air.

Royce tears away.

Captain steps out of the front seat while Victoria rounds the side.