“Well, do you?”
“No,” she says, pushing away. “I don’t.” She crosses her arms and looks me up and down. “Wait, yes, I do. No. No, I don’t.”
I give her a cheeky grin and I’m pretty sure she wants to slap it off my face. And then maybe slap my ass.
“Is that your final answer?”
She bites her lip then lets out a breath. “Maybe.”
“Do you need me to remind you how good we are at sex?”
“I remember. That’s part of what’s making this so hard for me.”
“It’s hard for me too,” I tease, and Quinn’s gaze goes right to my cock. I move away from my Jeep and grab Quinn around the middle, picking her up and pinning her between the driver’s side door and my body. Her arms fasten around my neck and lust surges through me.
She tips her head up and kisses me first, arching her back and pushing her hips into mine. I take my mouth off hers and kiss her neck, trailing my way down over her collarbone. I slip my hand under her t-shirt.
“I wish you didn’t have to leave,” she moans.
“I can spare thirty minutes.”
“Okay.” She takes my hand to lead me back in. “Wait. This is my parents’ house.”
“Shit. Right. Do you think we can sneak in unnoticed?”
“Have you met the dogs?”
I run my hands down her arms and interlock my fingers with hers. “Are you above having sex in the barn?” Her blank stare tells me she is.
She lets out a ragged breath. “What are we doing, Archer?”
“Acting like horny teenagers. That’s how you described your sex drive, isn’t it?”
Pursing her lips, she rolls her eyes. “Yes, those were my words. Thank you for reminding me how ridiculous I’m being.”
“It’s not ridiculous, Quinn,” I say softly. “You can’t deny we’re good in bed together.”
“Being good in bed together is the whole problem,” she replies, making things tense again. “And we…we have bigger things to worry about.” She rests her head against my chest, and being able to hold her and comfort her is almost better than making love to her. Almost.
My heart lurches in my chest, and I hold Quinn tight against me. Of all the things we talked about earlier, all the life-altering changes coming our way, none of it made me as nervous as I feel now. I inhale, ready to just spit it all out and tell her I think we should really give us a shot.
And then the garage door opens, and Quinn and I jump apart. Quinn crosses her arms, angling her body away from mine.
Mrs. Dawson has all four dogs on leashes and struggles to hold them back when they try to go to Quinn. She hurries over, taking Rufus from her mom, saying something to her that I can’t hear over the panting of the dogs.
My heart is in my throat. I don’t want to leave without giving Quinn a kiss goodbye, but I don’t see what other choice I have. Mr. Dawson comes out of the house and takes Rufus from Quinn.
“Drive safe, Archer,” he says and heads down the driveway. Mrs. Dawson and the other three dogs follow, leaving Quinn and I alone. I wait until they’re down by the street to turn back to Quinn, cocky grin on my face.
“So, you want to have sex now?”
Quinn’s nostrils flare and she crosses her arms, eyes drilling into mine. Then she slowly looks me up and down.
“Meet me upstairs.”
She doesn’t have to tell me twice.
21
Quinn
The door shuts behind me and I turn around, prepared to tell Archer this is silly. But the second I see the look in his eyes, all the air is sucked out of my lungs.
“Quinn,” he pants, voice heavy with desire. A shiver runs down my spine and his hands land on either side of my waist. “Are you sure you want this?”
Parting my lips, I hook my arms around his neck. “Yes,” I breathe, telling the honest truth. I do want Archer, and I’m not just talking about sex.
I want him to be with me during this pregnancy.
I want him there when I give birth.
I want him to raise this child with me.
I want us. Together.
He wastes no time in kissing me, and I slide my hands down his chest, going right to his belt. His hands go around my back and unhooks my bra.
And then the door opens.
“Motherfucker,” I blurt as Archer and I untangle. The dogs run in ahead of my parents, with Rufus at the rear, limping.
“You should really consider going in and having a specialist look at it,” Archer says, eyes narrowing. He holds my wrist in his hands, thumb gently circling over my pulse-point. It’s too intimate. Too gentle. But for the life of me, I can’t pull away from Archer. “You’ll need a referral.”
“What’s going on?” Mom asks. She’s not accusatory, not at all. But knowing how close we were to getting caught makes me clam up.
“Quinn’s wrist is still hurting,” Archer says, looking into my eyes. “But it won’t forever. It’ll be okay.”
“Right,” I say, knowing he’s not talking about my wrist right now. “It will.”
“And call me if it hurts. At any time.”
I bite the inside of my cheek. “Okay.”
“Even if the pain isn’t that bad. You can always call.”
His hand slowly trails down my wrist. “Thank you, Archer.”
He nods, struggling to hold back his emotion. “You’re not alone in this,” he says softly, giving my fingers a squeeze. “I’ll see you later.”
He says goodbye to my parents, and with one lingering look back at me, he leaves.
“Archer is really concerned about your wrist,” Mom says, going into the pantry to get a jar of peanut butter. “You are going to take his advice and get it looked at, right?”
Still staring at the door, I move my head up and down. “Right.”
I close my eyes, hand on my stomach, and lean back. It’s only eleven o’clock on Tuesday and I’m not sure I can make it through the rest of the day. Yesterday was a challenge. The nausea’s getting worse every day, the exhaustion is real, and I feel like I’m lying every time I’m around Marissa for not telling her what’s going on.
Archer called me Sunday night to make sure I got home okay and to see how I was dealing. I’m not dealing, and I know the danger of it. But right now, I can’t.
I just can’t.
Having a baby comes with a slew of ramifications, ones I’m not ready to deal with yet. Thinking about them makes me feel even sicker than I do already, and not being with the man who fathered my child is icing on the cake. We’re not at odds with each other. It’s not like we were a couple and split up. We’re just two people who caved into lust. How does custody work in situations like this? And what about insurance? Is Archer going to want this kid to take his last name?
It’s too much to think about. So I just won’t. Not yet. I don’t have to, not right now, anyway. Deep down, I know I do. I have nine months to figure this stuff out. It seems like a long time, but really, it’s not.
Archer and I have texted constantly since then, and while he started the conversation yesterday asking me how I’m feeling, we’ve gone on to talk about other things. I just sent him a note about some office drama, and he sent me a funny meme about cats.
He’s easy to talk to, and I don’t feel lik
e I have to try to be anything but myself around him. But we’re not in a relationship. We hooked up and then he moved on with no interest in staying in touch with me. I’m pregnant with his baby, and he wants to do the right thing because that’s the kind of person Archer is.
I can’t keep the thoughts out of my mind every time he texts me, and as much as I’d like to blame this on pregnancy hormones, I know I can’t. Archer wouldn’t be talking to me if I weren’t pregnant, and I don’t want him to feel trapped into trying to feel something he doesn’t. I’d rather raise this baby on my own than have him or her grow up in a family and watch their parents fight and resent each other.
Besides, he’s four hours away.
Opening my eyes, I tear open a bag of Sour Patch Kids, which I started craving Sunday night. I grabbed several bags from a corner store late Sunday night, and have been eating them constantly ever since.
The nausea is pretty constant, yet I’m still craving sour candy. Pregnancy is so weird. And this is just the beginning.
Taking advice I read online, I’ve been trying to nibble on something throughout the day so my stomach doesn’t get empty. I seem to feel the sickest when I have an empty stomach. Other than the candy, the only other thing I can handle right now are saltine crackers, and I have a stash in my desk drawer.
I was able to get into the OB last night for a blood test, and they called this morning to confirm I am indeed pregnant. I have an ultrasound scheduled for Friday afternoon, which I’m pretending not to be nervous about, but I know it’ll change everything.
I saw not one, but two positive pregnancy tests. The nurse called just hours ago and told me I’m pregnant. I know I’m pregnant. I know my life is fucked in a way I never thought it would be.
But actually seeing the little blob of a baby on the ultrasound will change everything. I can’t refuse to deal and do my best to go about work like everything is normal after that.