He liked her a lot, and she was already conflicted about the store, and him, and he didn’t want to add more pressure. There was a lot going on in her life right now and she needed someone to make things easier for her, not harder.
They reached her corner and they stood now before Paradise Books’s front door. “Do you want me to see you up to the apartment?” he asked. “Make sure it’s all good?”
“You did that earlier. I’m sure the mouse or rat or whatever it was has gone to sleep. Besides, if you walked me up, I’d still have to come down to lock the door behind you, so I’m better off just saying goodbye here.”
“I don’t think you have anything to be afraid of.”
“I refuse to be afraid.”
If she was his, he’d kiss her now. If she was his, he’d kiss her all the time. “Smart girl.”
She gave him a crooked smile before unlocking the door and stepping inside. “Thank you for the company, and the advice, and the investigative work earlier.”
He smiled wryly. “My pleasure.”
“Good night, Atticus.”
“Good night, Rachel.”
He waited for the dead bolt to lock, and the lights to come on and then turn off, as she moved through the various floors. He waited until he saw light shine from the window at the very top before returning to his car.
Tonight he’d met a prospective client out on the client’s property in Paradise Valley before driving into town to meet Cormac Sheenan at Gray’s Saloon to discuss a new project Cormac had in mind. It didn’t take very long to drive the three blocks to the Graff, passing the Depot and crossing the railroad tracks. He was just entering the hotel when he spotted Troy Sheenan on his way out.
“Are you just now wrapping up that meeting with Cormac?” Troy asked.
“No, that ended a couple hours ago. I’ve been with Rachel. Showed her around and then grabbed a bite at the diner.”
“You’re spending a lot of time with her.”
“Is that a problem?”
“Just curious about your motives.”
Atticus stiffened, not liking the implication. “She’s an outsider here. She doesn’t know many people. We’re both outsiders—”
“Who both just happen to be interested in the same thing.”
“Exactly.” Atticus was silent a moment as he regarded his long-time friend and business associate. “You’re not worried my restaurant is going to cut into your business at the Graff, are you? Right now you’re the top dog here for fine dining.”
Troy shrugged dismissively. “Marietta can handle the competition, and a Galveston Steak House could even help fill the Graff’s rooms, but there are a lot of other locations in Marietta that would work for your restaurant. It doesn’t have to be the bookstore.”
“But the bookstore is exactly what I want. It has the ideal location on Main Street, positioned on the corner. The brick interior and exterior are in excellent shape. The two stories are perfect for the dining room, and then it has that deep back mechanical room which would make an ideal kitchen, as well as a basement which would give us space for an elevator, and proper bathrooms, allowing us to bring the building to code in terms of accessibility.”
“You could probably fight that one, based on the building’s age and historical value.”
“I wouldn’t, though. I might be cutthroat with my deals, but once a building is mine, I take care of it, and you know I’m an advocate for accessibility. Fortunately, my architect and design team have tackled that issue in other buildings I’ve acquired so I’m not worried about it.”
“But the building in question is not available.”
“It will be.”
Troy arched a brow.
“Rachel is a realist, not a romantic. She’s aware that bookstores, particularly stores that rely on used books, don’t generate enough revenue to pay for the overhead. She’s lucky that there isn’t a mortgage, but she will still have to pay utilities and taxes, and there isn’t going to be a lot left over. Just keeping that place warm in winter will drain her finances. She’s going to sell to me, one way or another. It’s just a question of when.”
“Unless she’s willing to do something different with the bookstore.” Troy smiled faintly. “Maybe she’ll open her own restaurant.”
“I don’t see that happening.”
“Why not?”
“She’s already out of her element.”
“And what if she sold to someone?”
“Someone like Taylor?” Atticus retorted, remembering the rather tense conversation following dinner at the Sheenans earlier in the week.
“Taylor is committed to Marietta’s library. She’s not looking to take on the bookstore, but she believes in the store and she’d hate to think you’re undermining Rachel in any way.”
Atticus suppressed his frustration. “I care about Rachel—”
“You don’t have to sell me.”
“Troy, I like her, and I’m not going to do anything that would hurt her.” He nodded to Troy and said good night and as he rode the elevator to the suite on the fourth floor, his words echoed in his head.
He really did care for her, and the last thing he wanted to do was hurt her, or keep her from succeeding with the bookstore. While he still wanted the building, he also wanted her happiness. Was there a way they could both get what they wanted?
Atticus was no longer so sure.
*
It was a magnificent sunrise, the sky behind the mountains turning pink and then glowing persimmon and gold.
She’d had good dreams, dreams that had left her waking up smiling. If only she remembered them. But at least she’d slept well, and there had been no more bumps in the night, and now she sat on the foot of her bed gazing out the oval window, with its view of majestic Copper Mountain, covered in white.
The little apartment this morning was chilly, but the view more than made up for the cold. She drew the quilt draped over her shoulders closer, huddling into the warmth with her mug of coffee clutched between her hands and as she sat there watching the sun slowly rise up behind the mountains, she felt a bubble of lightness within her, and the bubble seemed to get bigger, much like the sun appearing in the sky.
The lightness felt almost like excitement, or maybe happiness. She didn’t know what would happen today but she had a feeling it would be interesting, if she could let new things be interesting instead of frustrating or intimidating.
Atticus was right. She did put a lot of pressure on herself. Sometimes it was too much pressure. Maybe just for now she could give herself permission to enjoy change, and a break from the familiar, and not have to be perfect. Maybe she could enjoy a break from her routine, and not feel insecure because she was learning something new.
If she was this rigid and inflexible at thirty, imagine being fifty? Seventy? My goodness, the future looked bleak at the rate she was going. So, now, while she was on her vacation, she needed to relax, and embrace Marietta and Montana.
She thought of her walk around Marietta last night with Atticus looking at window displays, and then dessert at the diner after, and she felt a pang just remembering how he’d made her feel…
She’d dated Eric for a year and he’d never made her feel tingly or breathless. She’d never felt a tender pang, or gotten butterflies when he looked at her.
Atticus made her feel all that… and more.
She was entering uncharted territory. Dangerous territory.
It crossed her mind that she was beginning to care for him a little too much, and she ought to know better. She needed to guard her heart better, protect her emotions, be realistic, be proactive. In short, be smart, because that was what had gotten her this far in life.
Ready to get her day going, Rachel headed to the bathroom for a quick shower before dressing in jeans, a T-shirt, and a thick sweater for warmth. Feet in sturdy boots, she slipped her phone into her back pocket, and went to the kitchen to make
oatmeal. With her bowl of oatmeal, Rachel headed downstairs, and opened the shutters one by one, and turned on the lights.
Pale gold sunlight flooded the bookstore. Long rays of golden light streaked the hardwood floor. Air caught in her throat, and for a moment she felt an almost intolerable ache. She’d become so good at not feeling, that when she did, emotion made her miserable. But the bookstore was beautiful and the blue sky was beautiful, as were the snowcapped mountains just outside of town. It was as if Marietta had become magical and she didn’t know what to do with all the sensations and emotions.
Work, maybe. Finish her oatmeal and concentrate.
Rachel ended up behind the counter at the cash register, and sighed as she looked at the enormous vintage register. She pressed a few buttons, drew the lever on the side, and the bottom drawer came out. How on earth did Lesley use this for her business? The brass register was beautiful but not at all practical.
To be fair, everything about this store fell into that category.
Computer open, she tackled another box of books from the storage room. She opened the top book, The Flying Boys to the Rescue, and paused on the inscription.
1921
A Merry Christmas
To Victor
From Grandpa
and Aunt Cecilia
Rachel dutifully typed the info about the novel into the search engine. The book was listed at ten dollars on several sites. It wasn’t a valuable book, but it was part of a set. She looked through the box. There were no more books in the set in the box.
She couldn’t really afford to keep the book. Where would she put it? There were other copies available online. Swallowing hard, Rachel set The Flying Boys to the Rescue in the discard pile, an uncomfortable lump in her throat, as her eyes burned, dry and gritty.
She shouldn’t feel sad that she couldn’t keep the book. It wasn’t feasible to keep every book from the back room, but it felt as if she’d inherited not a store, but a collection of lives and loves, of memories and dreams. She felt responsible for a past that only lived on in these old books with their faded fabric cloth, and tattered paper covers.
She’d spent the past several days trying to determine a book’s value by looking up the age and condition in online databases, but the database didn’t truly convey a book’s value.