"Come here at once, and have some champagne," said Stella. "And stop creating all these hellish images. Don't you see, when you're earthbound you create your surroundings."
"Yes, you are making it so ugly here!" said Antha.
"There are no flames here," said Stella. "That's in your head. Come, let's dance to the drums, oh, I have grown so to love this music. I do like your drums, your crazy Mardi Gras drums!"
He thrashed with both his arms, his lungs burning, his chest about to burst. "I won't believe it. You're all his little joke, his trick, his connivance--"
"No, mon cher," said Julien, "we are the final answer and the meaning."
Mary Beth shook her head sadly, looking at him. "We always were."
"The hell you are!"
He was on his feet at last. He twisted loose from the nun, ducking her next slap, and gliding through her, and now he sped through Julien's thickening form, blind for a moment, but emerging free, ignoring the laughter, and the drums.
The nuns closed ranks but he went through. Nothing was going to stop him. He could see the way out, he could see the light pouring through the keyhole door. "I will not, I will not believe ... "
"Darling, think back to the first drowning," said Deborah, suddenly beside him, trying to capture his hand. "It was what we explained to you before when you were dead, that we needed you, and you did agree, but of course we knew you were just bargaining for your life, lying to us, you see, and we knew that if we didn't make you forget, you would never never fulfill--"
"Lies! Lasher's lies!" He pulled free of her.
Only a few more feet to the door, and he could make it. He pitched forward, stumbling again over the bodies that littered the floor, stepping on backs and shoulders and heads, smoke stinging his eyes. But he was getting closer to the light.
And there was a figure in the doorway, and he knew that helmet, that long mantle, he knew that garb. Yes, knew it, very familiar to him.
"I'm coming," he cried out.
But his lips had barely moved.
He was lying on his back.
His body was shot through and through with pain, and the frozen silence closed around him. And the sky high above was that dizzying blue.
He heard the voice of the man over him saying, "That's right, son, breathe!"
Yes, knew that helmet and that mantle, because it was a fire fighter's garb, and he was lying by the pool, sprawled on the icy cold flagstones, his chest burning, his arms and legs aching, and it was a fireman bending over him, clapping the plastic oxygen mask to his face and squeezing the bag beside him, a fireman with a face just like his dad's face, and the man said again: "That's it, son, breathe!"
The other firemen stood over him, great shadowy shapes against the moving clouds, all familiar by virtue of their helmets and their coats, as they cheered him on with voices so like his father's voice.
Each breath he took was a raw throb of pain, but he drew the air down into his lungs, and as they lifted him, he closed his eyes.
"I'm here, Michael," Aaron said. "I'm at your side."
The pain in his chest was enormous and pressing against his lungs, and his arms were numb. But the darkness was clean and quiet and the stretcher felt as if it were flying as they wheeled him along.
Argument, talk, the crackle of those walkie-talkie things. But none of it mattered. He opened his eyes and saw the sky flashing overhead. Ice dripping from the frozen withered bougainvillea, as they went past, all its blossoms dead. Out the gate, wheels bouncing on the uneven flagstones.
Somebody pressed the little mask hard over his face as they lifted him into the ambulance. "Cardiac emergency, coming in now, requesting ... " Blankets all around him.
Aaron's voice again, and then another:
"He's fibrillating again! Damn it! Go!"
The doors of the ambulance slammed, his body rocking to the side slightly as they pulled away from the curb.
The fist came down on his chest, once, twice, again. Oxygen pumping into him through the plastic mask, like a cold tongue.
The alarm was still going, or was it their siren singing like that, a faraway cry, like the cries of those desperate birds in the early morning, crows cawing in the big oaks, as if scratching at the rosy sky, at the dark deep moss-covered silence.
EPILOGUE
Fifty-three
SOME TIME BEFORE nightfall, he understood he was in the critical care unit, that his heart had stopped in the pool, and again on the way in, and a third time in the Emergency Room. They were regulating his pulse now with a powerful drug called lidocaine, which was why he was in a mental fog, unable to hang on to any complete thought.
Aaron was allowed in to see him for five minutes during every hour. At some point Aunt Vivian was there too. And then Ryan came.
Various faces appeared over his bed; different voices spoke to him. It was daylight again when the doctor explained that the weakness he felt was to be expected. The good news was that he had sustained relatively little damage to the heart muscle; in fact he was already recovering. They would keep him on the regulating drugs, and the blood thinners, and the drugs that dissolved the cholesterol. Rest and heal were the last words he heard as he went under again.
It must have been New Year's Eve that they finally explained things to him. By then the medication had been reduced and he was able to follow what they were saying.
There'd been no one on the premises when the fire engine arrived. Just the alarm screaming. Not only had the glass protectors gone off, but somebody had pushed the auxiliary buttons for fire, police, and medical emergency. Rushing through the gate and back the side path, the fire fighters had immediately spotted the broken glass outside the open French doors, the overturned furniture on the veranda, and the blood on the flagstones. Then they spotted the dark shape floating just beneath the surface of the swimming pool.
Aaron had arrived about the time they were bringing Michael around. So had the police. They had searched the house, but could find no one. There was unexplained blood in the house, and evidence of some sort of fire. Closets and drawers were open upstairs, and a half-packed suitcase was open on the bed. But there was no other evidence of a struggle.
It was Ryan who determined, later that same afternoon, that Rowan's Mercedes convertible was gone, and that her purse and any and all identification were also gone. No one could find her medical bag, though the cousins were sure they had seen such a thing.
In the absence of any coherent explanation of what had happened, the family was thrown into a panic. It was too soon to report Rowan as a missing person, nevertheless police began an unofficial search. Her car was found in the airport parking garage before midnight, and it was soon confirmed that she had purchased two tickets to New York earlier that afternoon, and that her plane had safely landed on schedule. A clerk remembered her, and that she'd been traveling with a tall man. The stewardesses remembered both parties, and that they were talking and drinking during the entire flight. There was no evidence of coercion or foul play. The family could do nothing but wait for Rowan to contact them, or for Michael to explain what had happened.
Three days later, on December 29, a wire had been received from Rowan from Switzerland, in which she explained that she would be in Europe for some time and instructions regarding her personal affairs would follow. The wire contained one of a series of code words known only to the designee of the legacy and the firm of Mayfair and Mayfair. And this confirmed to the satisfaction of everyone involved that the wire had indeed come from Rowan. Instructions were received the same day for a substantial transfer of funds to a bank in Zurich. Once again the correct code words were used. Mayfair and Mayfair had no grounds for questioning Rowan's instructions.
On January 6, when Michael was moved out of the critical care unit into a regular private room, Ryan came to visit, apparently extremely confused and uncomfortable about the messages he had to relay. He was as tactful as possible.
Rowan would be gone "indefinitely." Her
specific whereabouts were not known, but she had been in frequent touch with Mayfair and Mayfair through a law firm in Paris.
Complete ownership of the First Street house was to be given to Michael. No one in the family was to challenge his full and exclusive right to the property. It was to remain in his hands, and his hands only, until the day he died, at which time it would revert--according to law--to the legacy.