“Crosswords were mine,” he admits. “When the to-do list was checked off, that is.”
The bacon tastes as delicious as it smells. I tell him so and he compliments me on how the mushrooms are sliced just so.
“So, here we are,” he says. “A whole weekend with no work, and no babysitting. What to do, Laine?”
I shrug. “Whatever you want. I’m happy just being here with you.”
“And I’m happy being here with you,” he says. “But we should go out, do something, live a little.”
I’ve been living plenty, but I don’t tell him that. I get the feeling he’s really breathing for the first time in forever, and I get that, because I am too. Like a butterfly breaking out of a lonely cocoon. That’s what I feel like.
Like a butterfly.
Butterflies.
I have an idea. A great idea that gives me shivers.
“What?” he asks. “Where do you want to go?”
I shrug like it’s nothing. “Just somewhere. I need to look it up online.”
“We’ll go wherever you want,” he says. “My treat.”
But not today. Today will be my treat.
I keep quiet and eat my breakfast, and he does too. He looks at me curiously, as though he’s trying to read me, but I keep a poker face, determined not to ruin the surprise. I so want to surprise him.
I clear our plates as soon as we’re done.Chapter TwentyNickShe’s bursting to tell me where we’re headed, clutching her phone so tightly as she relays the directions from the navigation software. Her voice bubbles with excitement. A surprise, she insists.
I can’t remember a time someone gave me a surprise like this. Not even Louisa. Louisa was sweet and vivacious, but she wasn’t thoughtful. I enjoyed spoiling Louisa, just as I enjoy spoiling my little Laine, but the creature in the seat beside me is turning out to be a very different girl altogether.
“Don’t I get a clue?” I ask.
Her hair shimmers as she shakes her head. “No. You’ll like it, though. At least I hope you will.”
I’m already liking it. Being with her is enjoyment enough all on its own.
I keep my eyes on the road, none the wiser of our destination as I take the roads she points out.
“Not far,” she says. “Take a right, up here.”
And that’s when I see it. A brown tourist sign on the roadside. Butterfly Zoo.
“Crap.” She groans. “I didn’t know that would be there. I wanted it to be a surprise.”
But it is a surprise. It’s such a surprise I’m lost for words. I was just a boy when I last took my net and disappeared into the countryside to indulge my fascination with butterflies.
Now I only admire them dead. So many lifeless specimens, pinned and mounted in frames on my wall.
The excitement in my stomach is boyish and unfamiliar. An innocence long since forgotten. Buried, with the rest of my life.
“You do want to go, right?” she asks. “You do still like them?”
“I love them,” I tell her, and my heart pounds with the thrill as we pull into the car park.
I park up in a space and turn off the engine, then sit, staring in wonder at the bright painted wings over the entrance doors.
I want to tell her how strange I feel inside, how her thoughtfulness has moved me to nothing but stunted silence, but it’s all I can do to smile and take her hand in mine.
Her fingers squeeze. “They’ve got over two hundred species here. Some rare ones, too. I looked it up online.”
“This is really something, Laine,” I tell her.
“So, let’s go,” she says. “Show me some butterflies. I can’t wait to see.”
Neither can I.
We check in at the entrance, and as I pay the fee I ramble on to the attendant with an enthusiasm so alien. I hand Laine the complimentary spotter pamphlet with a smile.
I won’t need it. I know so many by heart.
The place isn’t busy, not on a cold December morning. The crowds are sparse, even though the glass ceilings bathe us in beautiful warm sunlight. We enter the main butterfly dome unhindered by queues.
A mass of exotic plants. Colour and life and beating wings. Thousands upon thousands of butterflies that overload my senses. I gawp, like an imbecile, so taken by the sight that my breath catches in my throat.
“This is amazing!” she says, and it’s all I can do to nod.
An emerald and black butterfly takes lazy flight in front of us, its wings big and shimmering with metallic beauty. Laine frantically thumbs through the spotter guide, but I still her with a squeeze of my hand on her shoulder.
“Papilio blumei,” I tell her. “Found only on the Indonesian island of Sulawesi. It’s a peacock, otherwise known as a green swallowtail.”
“It’s beautiful,” she says, and her eyes follow it all the way out of sight.
“I’ve got one on the wall.”