I didn’t know what to say.
“I know why you do it, Georgie. Use the physical pain to take away the emotional. But we can find another way. Another outlet.”
I sighed and closed my eyes. Yes. And I was already beginning to find it. This is what I wanted. Needed. It set me free, gave me the freedom to be who I was. Deck did that.
I knew he had to be still fighting himself for breaking his word to my brother, but I hoped in time that guilt would fade and he’d realize it was right. We’d always been meant for one another. Our paths had been running parallel for so long, trying to cross, yet the ghost of Connor and Robbie and even Kai kept us apart.
His hands gripped my waist—hard. Fingers digging into my skin and pulling me back toward him with a jerk as his cock rammed me. The water lapped at the harsh movement, splashing up the sides of us and onto the stair.
My knees hurt from the cement nodules in the step as they scraped the surface. He didn’t seem to care and his body leaned into me as his hand shoved me down lower so I had to arch my back.
“I’m going to fuck you so hard, you’re going to beg me to stop.”
Holy fuck. A wave of desire spread through me. “Okay.”
“No talking.” He gripped the back of my hair and pulled. “But screaming … that’s allowed.”
I could feel his cock in the crack of my ass and wanted to push back into him, but didn’t dare move. He let my hair go and slid his hand down my back until he came to my butt. Then his body moved back a bit and I sucked in air, not liking him moving away. I wanted to reach back, look at him, feel him, but knew he wasn’t in the mood for me not following instructions. So I impatiently waited, slick moisture building between my legs as his finger slid down my crack into the wetness then came back up and hovered over the pink, puckered flesh.
“Going to fuck this one day.” He circled and I moaned at the unusual feeling of a finger touching me there. I never thought I’d like it, but it turned me on even more as he started pushing. His voice growled, “Relax.”
I couldn’t. The feeling was odd and I instinctually resisted his intrusion. He moved away and I felt the water slosh at the sides of me. Oh, God, he was walking away. I knew I couldn’t say anything, so I wiggled my butt and lowered my head until my forehead skimmed the surface of the water.
“You going to give me all of you? Every part, Georgie?” His voice was harsh and stern. A chill went through me and I nodded.
He didn’t give me any warning as he put his finger at my tight, puckered ass again and pushed. I closed my eyes and battled the urge to clench, doing the opposite. His finger slid inside me and I sighed at the erotic feeling.
Then he started moving it in and out and my hips rocked back and forth with him. “That’s it,” he soothed, breathing against the side of my neck.
Without warning and in rhythm to his finger thrusting in my ass, he shoved his cock inside me and I screamed, titling my head back in shock at the sudden intrusion. He didn’t stop. One finger in my ass, his other hand on my hip; he kept moving, the water slapping between us and making a loud noise. His thrusts got harder, faster and my need grew with each push and pull.
“You belong to me. All of you.” Deck’s finger slipped from me and he grabbed my other hip and thrust with more force.
I arched my back into his assault. Wanting it harder. Needing this, the pain and pleasure swirling around me. I wanted to beg him to touch me. To grab his hand and make him touch me until I came.
“Shh,” Deck murmured as he slowed and the waves in the water matched the rhythm. He knew what I wanted, gliding his hand down over my hips then across my abdomen and sinking beneath the water.
“Ahhh,” I moaned, the second his fingers touched me and started circling. My body jerked back against him and he stopped moving.
“Stay still!”
I nodded. Shit, I’d do anything he wanted at that moment. He waited several seconds as if to make certain I was going to do what he said, and then his finger pressed down hard on my clit and a jolt went straight through me. He did this several times then started moving inside me again, his cock so deep it was near painful when he jerked his hips forward.
“No one takes you from me.”