Women were easy for him. He didn't have to work hard at all and that was okay, but it never lasted more than a night or two--not for him anyway. But this woman . . . She'd burn up in his arms, and it wouldn't be enough. He got that already just by looking at her. So did every other man who came near her. The difference was, most of them would step back and wait for a signal that was never going to come. That was definitely not the way to handle a woman like Catarina. A man had to take over and be decisive about it.
Catarina felt the weight of Ridley's gaze on her. She knew he was watching her without even looking up. Her body responded just as if he was standing in front of her. For one moment she felt restless, achy, in need even. That something wild crouched inside of her stretched. Her skin itched. She couldn't breathe and her skull felt too tight. For one terrible moment, her skin went hot and that terrible burn began between her legs. She could barely breathe with the need and hunger.
Horrified, she dragged off the apron and tossed it to David. "I need a break, just a short one."
Even here in her sanctuary, the one place she could go and be around others, her past tried hard to drag her down. She was aware of Ridley's attention settling on her instantly, alertly, but she didn't so much as glance at him. Her past was too close. Even from a thousand miles away, he was controlling her. She couldn't look at another man without something inside of her turning ugly.
The book aisles were narrow, the stacks rising from floor to ceiling. She wound her way through them to the back door and pushed it open. The night air hit her face, cool and refreshing, enfolding her in its blanket of darkness. She drew in several deep breaths and stepped outside. The cool air felt good on her skin. She dragged the hat from her hair and sank down onto the steps leading to the back door.
Strangely, she'd always had great night vision, and this last month she'd noticed it had gotten even better. She liked that she could see in the dark. She loved the night. There was an entirely different world going on at night and she was part of it. That made her part of something. And Rafe couldn't take that away from her.
"Kitten?"
She had to stifle a scream as she twisted, nearly throwing herself off the stairs. Ridley stood behind her, in the doorway, his tall body solid, both terrifying and safe. He stepped next to her and closed the door, sinking down onto the step beside her.
"Are you all right? You went very pale in there."
His voice could mesmerize. At least it was mesmerizing her. She nodded, because his eyes refused to leave her face, drifting over her intently.
He frowned suddenly "Are you afraid of me? All this time I just thought you were shy, but you're afraid of me." He made the last a statement.
She looked away from him. Thankfully whatever was inside of her, threatening to burst free, had subsided along with the terrible need to feel Ridley's hands and mouth on her body.
His fingers settled gently on her chin and he turned her face toward him. "I wouldn't hurt you. You don't know me, but I would never harm a woman. I'm not like that. I'm new in town and you're at the dojo and make fantastic coffee, that's all. I wanted a little company. Just to talk to, Cat. That's all. End of story."
It was impossible to look into his eyes and not believe him. Up close she could smell him, and he smelled nice. Very nice. Very masculine. His lashes were long and thick, framing his incredible golden eyes. His tattoos were just as intricate and intriguing as he was. They crawled up his arms, drawing attention to his amazing and very defined muscles.
He was still looking at her and hadn't blinked once. His fingers remained firm but gentle on her chin. She'd forgotten that she'd been so mesmerized by his eyes. Catarina forced air into her lungs and smiled. Before she could speak he shook his head.
"I saw the genuine thing, Cat. You smiled at Bernard. You gave him the real smile, the high voltage one that can knock a man off his feet at two hundred yards. I don't want a pretend smile. Give me the real thing or don't smile at me at all. I'm telling you again, I don't hurt women."
His voice was pure velvet. She shivered, his tone smoothing over her skin. "I'm sorry. I'm not afraid of you." A blatant lie. "I just don't talk much." That was lame. More than lame. She was a total idiot, but maybe that would save her.
Ridley's fingers slid from her chin. He didn't move, his thigh tight against hers on the narrow steps. "Unfortunately for you, Kitten, I am very adept at knowing a lie when I hear one. I've done my best to reassure you, but talk is cheap. I guess I'll just have to show you I'm a nice guy."
She was certain he was not. Oh, not like Rafe Cordeau. Not like that. But he was dangerous. She knew dangerous men, and this one sitting beside her was no domestic kitty cat. He was a tiger, all raw power and razor-sharp focus. But he wasn't bad dangerous. He was just plain scary dangerous. And a heartbreaker.
She sighed, hating that she actually felt the loss of his fingers on her skin--hating that every single cell in her body was aware of him. He was a good ten years older in years and experience. There were scars. There were the tats. There was the cool confidence and the lines in his face that only seemed to add to his masculine beauty.
She knew what he saw when he looked at her. She'd always looked young and she was barely twenty-one. He would consider her someone he had to look after, just as Malcom did. That was safe. She needed safe, especially around this man.
"Maybe I am a little afraid of you," she forced herself to admit. "I've seen you in the dojo and you're rather terrifying." That much was true, and if he really were as adept at reading lies then he'd have to hear the sincerity in her voice.
"That's a place of practice. This is a coffee-house. Unless you're going to stand up in front of that mic and read off some really bad poetry, I don't think you have a thing to worry about," he assured.
There was a drawling amusement in his voice, one that made her want to laugh with him, but it was as sexy as all get-out, and she couldn't make a noise. Not a single sound for a few seconds. She cleared her throat. "I'm not good at talking to people."
"You talk just fine to Malcom. In fact, you laugh when you're with him. It's the only time I've seen you actually laugh."
Her heart jumped. She tensed and knew he felt it. Still, as hard as she tried she couldn't relax. Had he been watching her? Why? What did that mean? She bit down on her lower lip, a little afraid that she was so paranoid even such a simple statement could make her want to run.
"Malcom isn't people."
"I know he's your friend," Ridley conceded. "He's very closed-mouth about you and protective."
She turned her eyes on him. Fixed. Focused. Alert. "Were you asking him questions about me?"
"Of course I was. You're beautiful. Mysterious. A turn-on in the dojo. When you move, honestly, Kitten, I've never seen anything like it. You're fast and fluid and hot as hell. You put James Marley down with one punch. One. You hit him exactly on his weak spot and dropped him like a ton of bricks. Your eyes are amazing, and so is your hair. You have the most beautiful face I've ever seen. Are you telling me Malcom doesn't get asked about you regularly? Women like you don't walk the streets alone at night. That's just asking for trouble."
Her breath slammed out of her lungs. "You followed me?" That couldn't be. She would have known.
"Every night that you lock up and walk back to the warehouse. Did you really think I'd let a woman walk alone that time of night? Any woman? But especially a woman like you? No fuckin' way."
Something in his eyes made her shiver. Hot. Angry. A flash, no more, and then quickly suppressed. He really didn't like her walking alone at night.
He had been at the coffee-house every night the past two weeks until three A.M. But she hadn't seen him or heard him or even felt him following her. And that was bad. She couldn't afford to miss a tail. She had a sixth sense about that kind of thing, and yet he had followed her every single night.
"I can take care of myself."
"Cat, even Malcom will tell you that you aren't being realistic. You're good, there's no question about it, but you're small. A man gets his hands on you and you're done. You're smart enough to know that. You can defend from a distance, but if he knows what he's doing he's going to get past that guard and tie you up. Why don't you drive your car? That would be much safer."
She wasn't about to tell him gas cost the earth. He didn't need to know her personal finances, but she wasn't wasting precious gas when she could walk to and from work. It just wasn't that far.