For a moment Diana's face was arrested midexpression, as if she had either suddenly realized or suddenly remembered something.
"Diana?" Julian said. "Are you okay?"
"Fine." She climbed down from the ladder and dusted off her clothes. "I need to make a call."
"Who are you calling?" Julian asked, but Diana only shook her head, her hair brushing her shoulders.
"I'll be back," she said, and slipped out the library door.
"But what does it mean?" Emma said to the room at large. "In the end, Blackthorn blood what?"
"And if it's a faerie rhyme, then shouldn't they know if there's more of it?" Dru spoke up from the corner where she was busy distracting Tavvy. "The Fair Folk, I mean. They're meant to be on our side for this."
"I have sent a message," Mark said guardedly. "But I will tell you, I only ever heard those two lines of it."
"The most significant thing it means is that somehow this situation--the murders, the bodies, the Followers--is tied to this family." Julian looked around. "Somehow, it's connected to us. To the Blackthorns."
"That would explain why all this is happening in Los Angeles," said Mark. "It is our home."
Emma saw Julian's expression flicker slightly, and knew what he was thinking: that Mark had spoken of Los Angeles as a place they all lived, not a place where everyone lived but him. That he had spoken of it as home.
There was a loud buzzing sound. The map of Los Angeles on the table had started to vibrate. What looked like a small red dot was moving across it. "Sterling's left his house," Cristina said, reaching for the map.
"Belinda Belle said he had two days," said Julian. "That could mean the hunt starts tomorrow, or it could mean tonight, depending on how they're counting. Anyway, we can't assume."
"Cristina and I will follow him," Emma said. She was desperate to get out of the house suddenly, desperate to clear her head, desperate even to get away from Julian.
Mark frowned. "We should go with you--"
"No!" Emma said, hopping down from the table. Everyone turned to look at her in surprise; she had spoken with more force than she meant to--the truth was, she wanted to talk to Cristina alone. "We're going to have to take it in shifts," she said. "We're going to have to tail Sterling twenty-four/seven until something happens, and if we all go every time, we'll just end up with everyone exhausted. Cristina and I will go for a while, and then we can switch off with Julian and Mark, or Diana."
"Or me and Ty," suggested Livvy sweetly.
Julian's eyes were troubled. "Emma, are you sure--"
"Emma is right," Cristina said, unexpectedly. "Taking shifts is the cautious thing to do."
Cautious. Emma couldn't remember that word being applied to her in recent history. Julian glanced away, hiding his expression. At last, he said, "Fine. You win. You two go. But if you need any backup, swear that you'll call right away."
His gaze locked with Emma's as he spoke. The others were talking, discussing how they should search the library, look back through books detailing different kinds of spells, how long it would take to finish the rest of the translation, whether Malcolm might come to help them, whether they should order vampire pizza.
"Come on, Emma," said Cristina, rising to her feet and folding the map into her jacket pocket. "We should get going. We need to change into gear and catch up to Sterling--he's heading toward the freeway."
Emma nodded and turned to follow Cristina. She could feel Julian's gaze on her, like a sharp point between her shoulder blades. Don't turn back to look at him, she told herself, but she couldn't help it; at the door, she turned, and the look on his face almost undid her.
He looked like she felt. Hollow and bled dry. It wasn't that she was walking away from the boy she loved with a thousand words unsaid between them, Emma thought, though it was true that she was doing that. It was that she was terrified that a rift had opened between her and the person who had been her best friend as long as she could remember. And from the look of it, Julian was afraid of the same thing.
"Sorry," Emma said, as the car righted itself. They'd been driving around for several hours as Sterling hurtled all over the city, and her hands were starting to ache from gripping the wheel.
Cristina sighed. "Are you going to tell me what's bothering you?"
Emma shifted. She was wearing her gear jacket, and it was hot in the car. She felt as if all her skin was itching. "I'm really, really sorry, Tina," she said. "I didn't think--I shouldn't have asked you to cover up for me when I went to the convergence. It wasn't fair."
Cristina was silent for a moment. "I would have done it," she said. "If you'd told me what it was about."
Emma's throat felt tight. "I'm not used to trusting people. But I should have trusted you. When you leave, I don't know what I'm going to do. I'm going to miss you so much."
Cristina smiled at her. "Come to the D.F.," she said. "See how we do things there. You can take your travel year in my city." She paused. "I forgive you, by the way."
A small weight lifted from Emma's chest. "I'd love to go to Mexico," she said. "And Julian would--"
She broke off. Of course most people with parabatai accompanied them on their travel year. But the thought of Julian hurt, a sharp quick pain like a needle stick.
"Are you going to tell me what's bothering you?" Cristina asked.
"No," Emma said.
"Fine. Then turn left onto Entrada," Cristina said.
"It's like having supernatural GPS," Emma observed. She could see Cristina scowling at the map across her knees in the passenger seat.
"We head toward Santa Monica," Cristina said, tracing a finger along the map. "Go down Seventh."
"Sterling's an idiot," Emma said. "He knows someone's trying to kill him. He shouldn't be wandering around the city."
"He probably thinks his own house isn't that safe," Cristina pointed out reasonably. "I mean, I ambushed him there."
"Right," Emma said. She couldn't stop worrying a rip in the knee of her gear. The memory of Julian on the beach, the things he had said to her, pressed against the backs of her eyes. She let the thoughts pass through her. When it came time, she'd have to let them all go and concentrate on the fight.
"And, of course, there are the enormous bunny rabbits," Cristina said.
"What?" Emma snapped back to the present.
"I've been talking at you for the last three minutes! Where is your mind, Emma?"
"I slept with Julian," Emma said.
Cristina shrieked. Then she clapped her hands over her mouth and stared at Emma as if Emma had just announced there was a grenade strapped to the roof of the car and about to explode.
"Did you hear what I said?" Emma asked.
"Yes," Cristina said, taking her hands away from her mouth. "You slept with Julian Blackthorn."
Emma's breath whooshed out of her in a rush. There was something about hearing it said back to her that made her feel as if she'd been gut punched.
"I thought you weren't going to tell me what was wrong!" Cristina said.
"I changed my mind."
"Why?" They were whipping around corners lined with palm trees, stucco houses set back from the streets. Emma knew she was driving too fast; she didn't care.
"I mean--I was in the ocean, and he pulled me out, and things got out of hand--"
"No," Cristina said. "Not why did you do it. Why did you change your mind about telling me?"
"Because I'm a horrible liar," Emma said. "You would have guessed."
"Maybe. Maybe not." Cristina took a deep breath. "I suppose I should ask the real question. Do you love him?"
Emma didn't say anything. She kept her eyes on the broken yellow line in the middle of the road. The sun was a fiery orange ball lowering in the west.
Cristina exhaled slowly. "You do love him."
"I didn't say that."
"It's all over your face," Cristina said. "I know what that looks like." She sounded sad.
"Don't pity me, Tina," Emma said. "Plea
se don't."
"I'm just frightened for you. The Law is very clear, and the punishments are so severe."
"Well, it doesn't matter," said Emma, her voice tinged with bitterness. "He doesn't love me. And being unrequitedly in love with your parabatai isn't illegal, so don't worry."