Some Kind of Perfect (Calloway Sisters 5)

“Yes,” she says strongly. “This is complicated. I see that as much as all of you. She’s my littlest sister, and of course if this fails, I’ll feel partially responsible. It’s my body that’ll reject the embryo, but I want to help.”

I turn to Rose. “Please don’t blame yourself if something goes wrong. Please.”

“I will,” Rose says icily. “And you have to accept that.”

Part two of why Daisy Meadows is terrified.

Silence blankets the room. I’m the one who ends up breaking it. “We can put it off until you and Connor have a girl…” It’s taken many, many months for them to change our minds about this timeline. Rose even tried to bribe me with chocolate cake. It was a valiant effort, but her genuine tears did the ultimate trick. I felt how badly she wanted to do this now and not wait.

Rose shoots Connor the worst kind of look, like he returned a hurdle to their track.

“Daisy.” Connor draws my attention to his calm exterior. “Rose and I aren’t going to try for another child until we do surrogacy.”

“Do you even want to attempt it?” I motion between Ryke and Connor. “You both seem so upset.” If you could see their faces, you’d know they’re the distraught ones.

Just to do something with my hands, I start twisting my hair in a high, messy bun on my head. Both men exude a type of masculinity that makes them feel larger than the room. Every time I hone in on this, I remember how much younger I am in comparison. To take my mind off the age differences, I focus on Ryke’s unkempt hair and unshaven face, polarizing Connor’s smoothness.

But their distraught features never change shape. They are upset. They don’t even say differently.

Ryke rubs his jaw and then drops his hand. “Because we fucking love each of you, and we know exactly how you’ll be if this fucking fails.”

Because we’re sisters. But that’s why Rose and why I want to do it in the first place. I couldn’t think of a better birth mom for our baby. I’d be the baby’s biological mom still, and I like that our child will know that her aunt carried her for nine months.

The downside is disappointment and heartache if everything goes wrong. I worry about Rose’s health, but she always combats with, “I’m thirty-three. I’m not dead yet.”

I think about everything and ask the men, “But you two—you’re both okay in the event that everything goes right, right?”

“Why wouldn’t we be?” Connor asks, though there’s no confusion in his face.

“This bonds all of us in a way. Rose and I want that, but do you two?”

Rose wears this expression like oh, the tables have turned. We’re definitely on the offensive now. Rose pushes it one step further.

Bluntly, she says, “Ryke’s baby is growing in my body, and you both have to watch. So if you’re not able to handle this, speak now.”

I wait for Connor’s I can handle anything arrogance, but he’s pokerfaced and silent.

Ryke shakes his head. “It’s not our fucking place to say whether we do or we don’t. Either way, it shouldn’t be a deciding factor.”

I rock back in shock. “So you do have issues with this?”

Rose is even surprised. “Connor?” I hear the vulnerability in her voice when she says his middle name right now instead of Richard.

“I can view nearly everything from a scientific standpoint, but emotions are variables and this has many more than I’m used to.”

I feel like they’re both speaking around something. “Can you just come out and say it?”

“Look,” Ryke says. “We’re good friends, but when I think about Connor, I’m not filled with warm fucking feelings.” They can grate on one another.

Connor, more clearly, tells us, “It’s about sex.”

“What?” Rose swings her head towards both men.

My eyes widen at this realization. Oh. It’s just been proven. Their friendship chips away at their maturity. Which is usually at one-hundred percent unflinching, unabashed, we can do anything kind of levels.

It’s plummeted to something strange. I want to make a joke about this theory being proven, but I’m a little speechless.

When Rose is pregnant with our baby (aka Ryke’s baby), she’ll still have sex with Connor. This whole thing is new territory, sure, but the only reason Connor and Ryke are taking short pauses at the idea is because of their complicated friendship. Otherwise, I think this would be smooth sailing.

To Rose, Connor says, “I can’t tell you my emotions about it because I’m not sure exactly what I feel.”

Ryke leans forward, closer to us, his forearms on his knees. “Connor and I talked it out, and we both don’t want it to sway the fucking decision one way or the other.”

“We agreed on something,” Connor says. “It’s rare, so let’s leave it at that.”

Rose is as rigid as can be. “You both made this weird.”

“It was fucking weird to begin with,” Ryke says.

“It’s funny if you think about it,” I chime in with a growing smile. It must be contagious because their lips slowly inch upwards. Now that we surfaced the buried concerns, we exchange more certainty than before.

“Let’s vote,” Rose says. “I’m for surrogacy as soon as possible.” Her piercing yellow-green eyes set on me.

I don’t hesitate. “For.”

We look between the men.

“For,” Connor says easily.

Ryke nods. “Fo—” BEEEEEEEP!!

The loudest honk outside jars all of us to our feet. Coconut barks outside, an alarmed, deep throaty noise that means bad things are happening.

Oh God.

The children are in the cul-de-sac.

Only a quick glance out of the window, I see the kids stare at something incoming. Sulli—she’s in the middle of the street unlike Jane and Moffy, who’ve ridden their bike to the grass.

My lungs ram in my throat, and in seconds, we all rush out the door.

March 2023

The Meadows Cottage

Philadelphia

RYKE MEADOWS

I run down our front yard, Daisy right behind me. “SULLI!” I shout, my veins beating out of my fucking neck. Sulli kneels on the pavement like she just tripped off her skateboard. Our white husky stands in front of her, growling at the massive tractor-trailer that drives down our fucking street. Headed for the end of the cul-de-sac. Straight towards my five-year-old daughter.

The horn blares.

Right before I reach the mailbox, Moffy drops his bike, preparing to run out into the street to grab her.

“STAY BACK!” I scream at him. He freezes in place just as my shoes meet asphalt. I pick Sulli up in my arms and sprint to the yard, Nutty trailing close behind. We fall onto the grass at the loud crunch, and our dog licks Sulli, like making certain she’s cognizant and not sitting in fear.

The driver just crushed the fucking skateboard beneath the tires.

You’ve got to be fucking kidding me. My nose flares. That could’ve been my fucking daughter. How did this tractor-trailer even get through the fucking gates?

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Jane holds onto the bike and stares wide-eyed at the scene. “Merde.” Shit.

I frown deeper.

It’s the first time I’ve ever heard her curse in French, and by Rose and Connor’s quick exchange, I’d fucking bet it’s theirs too.

“Sulli?” I climb to my feet and then help my daughter stand. She’s in a state of fucking shock. Nutty nudges Sulli until she responds with a pat to the dog’s head. Then Daisy wraps her long arms around Sullivan, and our daughter relaxes at her mom’s embrace and hugs back.

I grab Moffy’s baseball hat that fell off when he was about to sprint into the street. “You alright?” I put my hand on his shoulder. “Moffy?”

He looks as shaken as the other two, and I’m just as fucking concerned about him as everyone else. This is my brother’s oldest kid. Same jawline, currently the same haircut. He’s the one who had a seventh birthday and held Eliot by the candles. Asking him to blow them out. The one who served a slice of his own birthday cake to every kid before he cut his own. The one who could make the rowdiest children settle down and the quietest ones speak up.

He’s the fucking leader of this pack.

“No one ever comes down here,” Moffy says, dazed until he looks to me. “I wouldn’t have left her in the street. I wouldn’t have. I promise.”

“Hey.” I shake my head. “It’s not your fucking responsibility.” Stop carrying that weight.

He beats himself up over it. The driver climbs out of the tractor-trailer with a clipboard, and that’s when I really examine the trailer portion of the vehicle.

The blood just rushes out of my head.

“Uncle Ryke?” Moffy frowns.

Connor, who normally has to be involved in everything, never approaches the driver.

He knows it’s for me.

Rose knows it’s for me.

Daisy’s eyes start to flood with tears, and Nutty sticks closest to her.

“Mommy, what’s wrong?” Sullivan asks.

Daisy is too choked to answer. She gives Sulli a weak smile and then kisses her nose.