She frowns at that.
“I buried my dog here,” I tell her. She has me saying foolish things already, telling her secrets she has no right to know. She’s like that knock on the head I took from Orrin of Arrow. She steals the sense from me.
“Hanna is buried there.” She points. Her hand is very white and steady.
“Hanna?” I ask.
Thunder on her brow, green eyes flash.
“The old woman who tried to throttle me?” I ask. An image of a purple face floats before me, framed with grey wisps, my hands locked beneath her chin.
“She. Did. Not!” Katherine says, but each word is more quiet than the one before and the conviction runs from her. “She wouldn’t.”
But she knows she did.
“You killed Galen,” she says, still glaring.
“It’s true,” I say. “But he was a heartbeat away from stabbing his sword through my back.”
She can’t deny it. “Damn you,” she says.
“You’ve missed me then?” I say and I grin because I’m just pleased to see her, to breathe the same air.
“No.” But her lips twitch and I know she has thought of me. I know it and I’m ridiculously glad.
She tosses her head and turns, stepping slowly as if hunting her thoughts. I watch the line of her neck. She wears a riding dress of leather and suede, browns and muted greens. The sun finds a hundred reds in her coiled hair. “I hate you,” she says.
Better than indifference. I step after her, moving close.
“Lord but you stink,” she says.
“You said that the first time we met,” I say. “At least it’s an honest stink from the road. Horse and sweat. It smells better than court intrigue. At least to me.”
She smells of spring. I’m close now and she has stopped walking from me. I’m close and there’s a force between us, tingling on my skin, under my cheekbones, trembling in my fingers. It’s hard to breathe. I want her.
“You don’t want me, Jorg,” she says as if I had spoken it. “And I don’t want you. You’re just a boy and a vicious one at that.” The line of her mouth is firm, her lips pressed to a line but still full.
I can see the angles of her body and I want her more than I have wanted anything. And I am built of wants. I can’t speak. I find my hands moving toward her and force them still.
“Why would you be interested in the sister of a ‘Scorron whore’ in any case?” she asks, her frown returning.
That makes me smile and I can speak again. “What? I have to be reasonable now? Is that the price for growing up? It’s too high. If I can’t take against the woman who replaced my own mother…can’t make childish insults…it’s too high a price, I tell you.”
Again the twitch of her lips, the quick hint of a smile. “Is my sister a whore?”
“In truth, I have no evidence either way,” I say.
She smiles a tight smile and wipes her hands on her skirts, glancing at the trees as if looking for friends or for foes.
“You wouldn’t want me reasonable,” I say.
“I don’t want you at all,” she says.
“The world isn’t shaped by reasonable men,” I say. “The world is a thief, a cheat, a murderer. Set a thief to catch a thief they say.”
“I should hate you for Hanna,” she says.
“She was trying to kill me.” I walk to the grave Katherine pointed out. “Should I apologize to her? I can speak to the dead, you know.”
I stoop to pick a bluebell, a flower for Hanna’s grave, but the stem wilts in my hand, the blue darkening toward black.
“You should be dead,” she says. “I saw the wound.”
I pull up my shirt and show her. The dark line where Father’s knife drove in, the black roots spreading from it, threading my flesh, diving in toward the heart.
She crosses her own chest, a protection quickly sketched. “There’s evil in you, Jorg,” she says.
“Perhaps,” I say. “There’s evil in a lot of men. Women too. Maybe I just wear it more plainly.”
I wonder though. First Corion, then the necromancer’s heart. I could blame them for my excesses, but something tells me that my failings are my own.
She bites her lip, steps away, then straightens. “In any case, I have my heart set on a good man.”
For all my cleverness I hadn’t thought of this. I hadn’t thought of Katherine’s eyes on other men.
“Who?” is all I can find to say.
“Prince Orrin,” she says. “The Prince of Arrow.”
And I’m falling.
I hit the rocks with a curse and skinned a palm, saving my face. Makin pulled me to my feet sharp enough. “Kings fall in battle,” he said, “not tripping up on the way.”
It took me a moment to shake the memory off. Still, there’s little better than a hard reunion with the ground and blood on your hands to haul a man back into the here and now. The mountains, impending snow, and an enemy many thousands strong. Real problems, not rogue memories best forgotten.
“I’m fine.” I patted the sack on my hip. The box was still there. “Let’s break this Arrow.”
24
Wedding day
From the heights even Arrow’s many thousands looked small, arrayed across the slopes before the Haunt and along the ridges to the east. The sight might have given me heart had not my castle looked smaller still, swamped on three sides by men and more men, the winter sun picking glimmers from spear and helm.
Whether the Prince of Arrow’s plans were in line with my prediction of an overwhelming assault or with Makin and Coddin’s siege wasn’t yet clear. What was clear was that our second attack would cost us. On our line of approach the Prince’s troops spread out before the main body of his army in a scattered buffer zone, foot-soldiers under the best cover the slopes could offer, with additional defences hastily cobbled from overturned carts and heaped supplies. They kept under cover whilst the Watch picked whatever targets they could. Our arrows were killing or wounding men in their scores but all the time the archer columns ordered down from the eastern ridges drew closer. Perhaps a thousand of the Prince’s four thousand archers would be returning fire within five minutes.
“They’re not happy,” Makin said. He didn’t look too happy himself.
“No,” I said. The roar from the Prince’s army waxed and waned as the wind rose and fell. No true warrior holds any love for archers or archery. Death wings in unseen from a distance and there is little that skill or training can do to save you. I remembered four years back, Maical sliding from the grey as if he’d just forgotten how to ride. I didn’t relish the arrival of the Prince’s archers myself. My little tale of wickedness and gambles could be cut short easily enough by the sudden arrival of the right arrow in the wrong place.
“We should leave now,” Coddin said.
“They won’t follow us until the archers join them,” I said.
“And why do we want them to follow us? The rockslides, well that was impressive, I won’t deny that, but it can’t happen again,” Coddin said.