Roman (Raleigh Raptors 2)

“T,” Roman said from right beside me, and I jumped at his nearness. But I didn’t stop scrubbing. “Teagan.” He reached for my hands, soaking his underneath the water but not seeming to care. “Look at me.”

I tore my gaze away from the dishes, my muscles coiled from instinct, that habitual fear tingling in my blood.

“You don’t have to do that,” he said as he shut off the water.

“But if I don’t…” I said before I could think.

Roman tilted his head, concern churning in his eyes.

Oh, God.

My muscles trembled, the world tilted beneath my feet as I looked from him to the dishes and back again.

Roman is not Rick.

I silently repeated that three times before I set down the dish I’d been cleaning. The urge to clean it was still there—to finish the dishes, dry them, and put them in their proper place like an itch I couldn’t reach.

“I’m sorry,” I whispered.

“You don’t have to be,” Roman said as he reached for something behind me.

I flinched, the instinct overpowering every other thought in my head.

Roman lifted his hands and took a step back, a hand-towel dangling from his right.

Mortification colored my cheeks, and I shifted on my feet. “Shower.” That’s the only word I could squeeze out before I spun on my heels and practically sprinted to his bedroom.

Once inside his ensuite bathroom, my fingers hovered, hesitating over the lock.

“Teagan!” Rick shouted from behind the door.

“Hey, babe, I’m in the bath—"

“Why’d you lock the door?” He gave the handle a forceful jerk causing the metal to shriek.

I sat up in the tub, bubbles sloshing everywhere. “I didn’t know I did. I’m almost done—”

“Open the door, Teagan.” His voice left no room for questioning.

I hurried out of the tub and into a towel, water sliding down my legs as I rushed to unlock the door.

Rick stormed in, his eyes darting every which way before landing on mine.

“You know better than to lock me out.”

I swallowed hard. “I didn’t realize I did it,” I said, my voice cracking as I hugged the towel closer around me. “I thought you were out for the night and I must’ve just—”

His fingers gripped my chin, stopping my words. “This is my house,” he said. “Just like everything inside it is mine. Including you.”

Normally, his laying claim to me gave me a rush of primal warmth. Right now? Nothing but icy fear clung to my blood.

“Babe,” I said, the word coming out a little jumbled due to his grip. “It was an accident.”

His gaze narrowed for a few seconds before he released me. He glanced down, reaching for the towel.

I swallowed hard, my body not in the mood, but my mind shouting at me to keep quiet. Rejecting him would only make things worse.

His fingers flicked, and the towel fell to my ankles. He motioned toward the tub, still filled with water and bubbles. “Don’t let me stop you.”

I titled my head for a second but quickly got back in the tub. After a few moments, I finally asked, “Aren’t you getting in?”

Rick shook his head as he leaned against the counter on the other side of the bathroom. “Nope,” he said. “I’m just going to watch you.”

I blinked out of the memory and twisted the damn lock. Not out of any fear of Roman coming inside while I was showering—hell, the boy and I used to take baths together. But more out of a sense of power. Of control. Any form of it.

I climbed into Roman’s shower a few minutes later, sighing as the hot water hit my skin. My biceps stung as the beads hit them, and I glanced down. Fingerprint bruises encircled each arm—he’d grabbed me that hard.

Sucking in a sharp breath, I tried to empty my mind.

Every harsh word.

Every held breath as I felt his anger shift.

Every time I’d recoiled from his massive presence.

I clenched my eyes shut, trying to stop the memories hitting me like a tidal wave. Each one illuminating my cowardice more than the next. They’d all been buried beneath that haze of manipulation—something I hadn’t even realized he’d been doing, he was that good at it. And the breaking point? The moment those memories and events had become crystal clear for what they truly were?

Him going through my private belongings like he had the right to them.

Him grabbing me so hard I had bruises.

Him tossing me against that wall so hard my head spun.

Everything had become utterly, horrifically clear in those few moments—like someone had flipped on a light switch in an incredibly dark room. Illuminating all the gory bits the shadows had hid.

Wash your hair.

Condition your hair.

Then dry your fucking hair.

The simple steps were the only thing I’d allow myself to focus on at the moment, the only thing that could possibly keep me from crumbling. So, I reached for my shampoo…