Unconditional Love (Journey of Love 1)

Everything was spinning around in my head. I wanted nothing more than to make love to her and feel her completely, but I had to guard my heart.

Guarda mi corazón.

This was my barrier. No condom would make the emotions too raw. Too real. Every girl I’d been with since Nikki had always been just about the sex. Nothing more.

I looked down into her beautiful eyes and saw how confused and scared she was. This girl was doing things to me that had me so damn confused. I closed my eyes and felt her lay back down.

“I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have even asked such a thing…I just…” Her voice trailed off.

“Maybe we should just stop,” she said as she began to move away from me. I snapped my eyes open and whispered, “Don’t. Please don’t leave.”

She froze in place and slowly took in a deep breath. I took the condom and dropped it to the floor.

“I want to feel you completely, mi amor. I need to feel you. If you’re sure.” I couldn’t even believe what I was saying. My head was screaming for me to stop but my heart…my heart was screaming for her. “Lay back, Azurdee. Please.”

She slowly laid back and her beautiful brown hair spread across the pillow.

I placed my hand on her leg and she jumped slightly. I moved in between her and pushed her legs open as I reached over and in one swift move unclasped her bra in the front, allowing her breasts to spring free.

“Motherfucker. You’re perfect in every way,” I said as she smiled, a slight pink flush moving across her cheeks. She sat up a little and I removed her bra and tossed it on the floor. I leaned down and took one of her nipples into my mouth as she let out a soft low moan that moved through my body like a warm sensation.

“Oh God, Lark,” she said as her hands moved through my hair. When she grabbed a handful of my hair and pulled it I almost moved and slammed my dick in her.

Slow. Must go slow.

I gently bit down on her nipple as she softly said my name. I moved over to her other nipple and gave it equal time.

I looked up at her and she had her eyes closed and was moving her head back and forth, letting out sweet moan after sweet moan. I couldn’t wait a minute longer. I began kissing up her chest and along her neck. She opened her eyes and gave me that smile that had been haunting my dreams for months.

“Azurdee, I’m going to make love to you now,” I said as I stared into her eyes.

She smiled bigger and said, “Okay.”

I wanted to laugh at how innocent she was. I knew she was scared, but she tried so hard to seem like she wasn’t.

I brushed my lips against her lips and was shocked when she sucked in my lower lip and gently bit down on it. Shit. I couldn’t wait to fuck her and fuck her hard. I had a feeling she would like it rough.

I reached down and slipped two fingers inside of her and began moving my fingers in and out.

“Jesus…you’re so wet, Azurdee. Do you want me?”

Her eyes flashed with nothing but pure lust. “Yes. More than you know.”

I pulled my fingers out and put them in my mouth and sucked on them as Azurdee let out a gasp. “You taste like heaven.”

I placed my hand on the side of her face and gently kissed her as I slowly began to push myself into her a little bit at a time.

I felt her tense up so I pulled out some. “Mi amor, you need to relax.”

She nodded her head, and as I pushed in a little more, she let out a whimper so I stopped. “Don’t stop. Please don’t stop,” she whispered.

I ran my thumb across her cheek and pushed in a little more. Her eyes locked onto mine. “I’m almost all the way. Relax, Azurdee.”

I literally felt her whole body relax as I pushed in all the way. I dropped my head and let out a moan. I’d never felt something so amazing in my life. I wasn’t sure if it was just because I was having sex for the first time with no condom or if it was because I was making love to Azurdee.

I slowly began moving in and out of her body. I wasn’t going to last long but I needed to give her an orgasm, and I would hold off as long as I could to make her feel good.

“Lark…” she whispered, and my heart dropped at hearing her say Lark. I wanted to hear her say Michael so damn bad. I closed my eyes and continued to move in and out, pushing those feelings deep down inside. I pushed a little deeper and she let out a gasp and I snapped my eyes open. “Did I hurt you, mi amor?”

The moment I saw the tear slide down her face my whole world stopped. If I had hurt her I would never forgive myself.

She slowly shook her head and whispered, “No. I’ve never felt…something so amazing in my life. Please don’t stop.”

I used my thumb to wipe away her tear as I leaned down and kissed her. The way her fingers were moving up and down my back was causing my mind to go insane. No girl’s touch ever affected me like this. I don’t even remember it feeling like this with Nikki. It must be from not wearing a condom. It had to be.

Guarda mi corazón.

When she began moving her hips in perfect rhythm to mine I about lost it. We fit together perfectly.

She wrapped her legs around me and looked into my eyes. “Can you go faster?”

Oh holy shit. “You have to tell me if I hurt you though?”

She nodded her head and said, “I promise.”

I began moving faster as she reached out and grabbed onto the sheets. Fuck. Watching her was driving me insane. I’m not going to last much longer.

“Oh God. Lark…deeper…please…harder,” she said, in between pants.

I’ve died and gone to heaven.

“Mi amor, you are killing me,” I whispered as I pulled out some and pushed back into her harder and deeper. She looked into my eyes and cried out, “Oh God, Lark! I’m coming. Faster.”

I gave her just what she asked for but tried to keep it gentle also. I wanted her again and the last thing I was going to do is make her so sore she couldn’t have sex again tonight.

“Oh my God. Yes. Ahh…” I tried to hold off but the feel of her squeezing down on my dick had me letting go. I leaned down and pushed in harder as I placed my lips next to her ear and whispered, “I’m coming. Oh God, Azurdee, you feel so good.”

She squeezed her legs around me tighter as I felt myself pouring into her body. It was probably the most intense moment of my life…and it was scaring the fuck out of me.

When I finally stopped moving she wrapped her arms around me and held onto me, almost as if she was afraid I was getting ready to leave her.

I was frozen. Unable to move. The thought of just making love to Azurdee had my head spinning and my heart pounding so loud in my chest I was sure she could hear it. I pulled my body weight off of her and looked into her eyes. She smiled and I was immediately lost in her beautiful eyes.

I placed my hand on the side of her face as she leaned into it. Something inside me was forever changed by what just happened between us. I wasn’t sure what was happening or how I felt about it, but for the time being I was going to just lose myself in it.

“Lark, that was the most…” I held my breath as I watched the tear slide down her cheek.

“Did I hurt you, Azurdee?” I asked as my voice cracked.

She began shaking her head. “No! No, that was the most amazing moment of my life. It was everything I ever dreamed it would be.

”

And there went my heart again. It slammed so hard in my chest and my first instinct was to get up and leave. This was all too much. I was giving her too much of me.

She tilted her head and her smile faded slightly. “Do you…do you regret what just happened?”

I pulled my head back in shock. “Of course not. That was just as amazing for me as it was for you, Azurdee. I’m just glad I didn’t hurt you.”

I could feel my dick twitching inside her and she raised her eyebrow. “Um…when can…I mean…” she looked away and I could swear the beautiful rose color that was sweeping over her cheeks was making my dick hard again.

“Talk to me, Azurdee.”

She glanced back at me and bit down on her lower lip. “When can we do that again?”

I let out a chortle and whispered, “Mi amor.”

Every time Lark called me mi amor, his love, my heart beat ten times faster and the butterflies in my stomach went crazy.

When he finally pulled out of me, I instantly missed his warmth, but also felt a sense of relief. He placed his lips on my neck and whispered, “That was amazing.”

I closed my eyes and smiled. Oh. My. God. That couldn’t have been more perfect. It was everything I had dreamed of and more. Having it be Lark who shared in this moment with me made it all the sweeter.

I heard him in the bathroom that joined my room and the next room. He was filling up the bathtub. I stretched and could feel every muscle in my body, especially in my core. I opened my eyes and watched as Lark came walking back into the room with a towel wrapped around his waist.

“Are you taking a bath?” I asked, as I realized I was sprawled out naked on the bed. I grabbed the blanket and pulled it around me. The left corner of his mouth slowly started to move up into a smile and my desire for him bloomed again. What is wrong with me? Now that I’ve had sex, am I going to want it all the time?