Unconditional Love (Journey of Love 1)

“I promise. Lark…please, I need you inside of me.” He grabbed onto my hip as he pushed his fingers inside and primed my body to receive him.

My mind thought back to his words. I’m going to fuck you hard and fast.

I was scared and excited at the same time. Then his other hand grabbed my hip and I took a deep breath. “Promise me, Azurdee.”

“Yes! Yes! I promise.” I couldn’t believe how needy my voice sounded. He was like a drug I just couldn’t get enough of.

I felt him at my entrance and my whole body quivered. He slowly pushed inside of me as I sucked in a breath of air. This way was going to feel different. He pulled out slowly and then slammed back into me. “Ah!” I cried out as I felt him go deeper inside of me than before.

“Fuck,” Lark whispered. “Am I hurting you?”

I quickly shook my head and felt him grip my hips harder. “No. I’m fine, it was just so much deeper and…”

I hadn’t even finished talking when he pulled out and slammed back into me. Oh God. The feeling was both pleasure and pain. I needed more. I pushed my ass back into him and he leaned over my back and began kissing it. “I love the way your body reacts to mine. I love that you want this as much as I do.”

I looked over my shoulder at him and whispered, “Yes. Oh God, yes.”

And with that Lark began taking me to somewhere I’d never imagined. I was beyond aroused and with each hard stroke he began building my orgasm up more and more. When he reached his hand down and began touching my clit, that was all it took. I began calling out his name. I couldn’t believe how hard this orgasm was hitting me. I could feel myself pulsating around his dick.

“Jesus, Azurdee. I’m going to come.” Lark began calling out my name as he gave me every ounce of himself. My legs and arms were shaking and it was taking everything I had to hold myself up.

When he finally pulled out of me, I collapsed onto the bed. I’m not going to be able to walk.

Lark lay down next to me and pulled me to him. “Every time you move for the next few days you’re going to feel me with you still.”

I let out a small whimper as he turned my body to face him and captured my lips with his. I could very easily have him again with no complaints. I wanted to feel sore. I wanted to remember this night forever.

He slowly pulled his lips from mine and I wanted to cry out no. I instantly missed the connection. “Are you sore, mi amor?” Lark asked as he pushed a strand of hair away from my face. My heart melted every time he called me that. I slowly shook my head.

“Tell me what you’re thinking,” he whispered.

I swallowed hard and said, “How amazing you make me feel. How that was beyond my wildest dreams. And how long we have to wait to do it again.”

He smiled and there went my stomach, flipping and turning like I was a teenager in love.

His smile slowly faded a bit and he looked into my eyes. “Azurdee, you’re everything I’ve ever wanted, and everything I’ve ever feared.”

Everything I’ve ever wanted. Everything I’ve ever feared.

My heart dropped slightly as I thought about the night Scott had told me about Nikki, Lark’s girlfriend who passed away in college. I closed my eyes and fought to hold back my tears. Why would I be something he feared? Was he thinking of her? Did he compare me to her? A million thoughts started running through my head.

I felt his hot breath against my lips. I snapped my eyes open and looked into his eyes as he whispered, “I never want to hurt you, ever. Please know that.”

It was almost like he was expecting to hurt me, and that caused an uneasy feeling in my stomach. I tried to smile as I said, “I never want to hurt you either, Lark.”

Something in his eyes changed and he pulled away. He got off the bed and said, “I’m going to take a shower. I’ll run another hot bath for you to soak in.”

I sat up and wanted to argue with him and say I wanted to shower with him, but something had changed. He seemed distant all of a sudden. All I could do was whisper, “Okay.”

I watched as he walked into the bathroom. I was all of a sudden overcome with a sense of being completely alone. I had just given my virginity away to the one man I probably should have guarded it from the most.

The one who had the power to destroy my heart and soul.

After I started a bath for Azurdee, I tried to calm my beating heart. What in the hell just happened to me? Making love to Azurdee had changed everything. I was feeling things I hadn’t felt in years. Things I’d never felt before, even with Nikki.

I stood there staring down at the water in the tub. She was like a drug. I needed to feel her body up against mine. I needed to taste her lips against mine. I needed to make her understand how I felt about her. That scared the shit out of me. When I walked away from her just now I felt empty.

I slowly turned around and saw her standing there with a shirt on. Holy fuck. She’s the most beautiful woman I’ve ever seen. I wanted to take her again but I knew after what I just did she had to be sore.

“Um…it might be a little hot, but soak in it for awhile. It will help with the soreness.”

The look on her face was pure disappointment. She walked over to the tub and slipped the shirt off her shoulders and climbed in.

“Oh wow. That is hot!” she said with a nervous chuckle. I tried to smile, but it felt like the room was closing in on me. She slowly sank down and leaned her head back against the tub. “That feels amazing.”

She opened her eyes and looked up at me. “You sure you want to take a shower?” She winked and my heart dropped.

I just stood there. Frozen. I needed to get away.

“Yes. I’m going to head to my bathroom while you soak.” I quickly turned away and made my way out of the bathroom and to my room. I was staying in the bedroom that had a private bath.

“Lark?” Azurdee called out. I knew I was making a dick out of myself by walking away from her, but I needed space. I wasn’t sure what was happening to me and I needed to get away.

As soon as I got to my room I shut the door and ran my hands down my face. “What in the fuck is happening? Keep it together, Williams. You don’t lose control. Ever.”

I walked into the bathroom and turned on the shower. I walked in and let the scalding hot water run down my face and body. What was this girl doing to me? I needed to stay focused. I’ve always been focused. Always. I closed my eyes and thought back to the day I first met Skip.

I sat in the small office looking around at all the pictures. I wasn’t sure why I was called in; I did my job and I did it damn well. The door opened and I looked up. I stood up and was immediately told to sit down.

“Sit down, Lieutenant Williams. Don’t bother with all the formalities.”

I slowly sat back down and said, “Yes sir.”

He looked down at me and sa

id, “Call me Skip.”

I nodded my head.

He pulled out a file and read over it for a few minutes before looking up at Colonel Walker. “Colonel, may I speak to the lieutenant in private please?”

Colonel Walker nodded and looked at me and gave me a nod. He and I had become rather close. He’d told me on more than one occasion I was the best shot in the Marine Corps and I liked that he didn’t question anything I did.

The door shut and Skip tossed my file on the desk.

“I want to pull you out of MSOR and have you come work for me.”

I moved slightly in my chair and looked at him. “What exactly would I be doing, sir?”

The smile that spread across his face caused me to smile.

“I hear you like to live on the dangerous side. Tell me why?”

I shrugged my shoulders. “I don’t know what you mean, sir, by living on the dangerous side.”

He let out a sigh. “I’m going to cut to the chase, Williams. I’ve read your file. I probably know more about you than you do. Your girlfriend in college died and since then you live life like you could care less if you die or not. You fuck everything with a pussy if given the chance and have no desire to settle down. You’re good at what you do. Very good. I don’t think I’ve ever seen anyone with as accurate a shot as you in my life. You fly helicopters and planes, you know your way around when they drop your ass off in the middle of nowhere and you have a sixth sense about things. You speak Spanish, Italian, and German. You’re an overachiever who doesn’t give a fuck about anything but serving his country. I want to use that to my advantage. I want you to come work under me. CIA.”

I looked at him, confused. “How in the hell did you know about Nikki?”

He smiled and said, “I’ve talked to almost every person I could find who has had some sort of contact with you.”

“Why?”

“Because I want you to come work for me. Some things would change in your life though. I need your life to appear somewhat normal.”

I laughed and shook my head. “I’m sorry sir, but my life has been far from normal for some years now.”