Unconditional Love (Journey of Love 1)

I loved to two-step and it also meant Lark would have to hold me close to him. I nodded my head and smiled. Lark reached for my hand and led me out to the dance floor. When he pulled me into his warm body I melted. I loved being in his arms. I felt safe. I felt like I was whole when he held me.

We danced in silence through most of the song. Lark kept pulling me closer and closer to him. Like he couldn’t get me close enough and I felt the same way. I was ready to crawl into his body and lose myself to him.

He placed his finger on my chin and pulled my face up so that he was looking me in the eyes. I smiled and he returned the smile, but then it faded. “I’m sorry,” he said.

I tilted my head and asked, “For what?”

“For letting you dance with Jason. Did he say anything to upset you?”

I shook my head and looked away. He pulled my chin back and the look in his eyes changed. “You’re lying to me, Azurdee.”

I swallowed hard. “It’s nothing. Lark, I’m not feeling very well. Do you think we could leave?”

He nodded his head and grabbed my hand and led me to the door. The second we walked outside I took in a deep breath. I was beginning to feel like I couldn’t breathe in there.

I hate clubs. I never got into the whole bar and club scene. Even in college I couldn’t stand going to clubs.

Lark led me away from the entrance to the club as he pulled out his cell phone and hit a number.

“We’re ready to leave,” he said and then just hung up.

Not even a minute later the car from earlier pulled up and Lark was opening the car door for me. I slid inside and dropped my head back against the seat as thoughts began running through my mind.

This is my friend Azurdee.

Are you fucking him?

Is that all this was? Was that all I would ever be to Lark—his friend?

Lark took my hand in his and his thumb began moving back and forth across my hand, leaving a path of fire behind each movement. His touch did amazing things to my body and I was sure I would never get used to it.

“Are you ready to go back to the condo?” Lark asked. I lifted my head and looked at him and smiled.

“I’m sorry. I just got really tired and I’ve never been much of a club scene kind of girl.”

He smiled and said, “Don’t apologize. I’m ready to get you home and give you some of that dirty talk you like.”

I felt my lower stomach clench and my eyes widened with anticipation. Lark let out a chuckle as he looked into my eyes. His smile faded and he whispered, “Mi amor, you bring out so many emotions in me. You have me so confused.”

“Is that a bad thing or a good thing?” I whispered back.

He gently put his hand on the side of my face and pulled my lips to his as he kissed me so sweetly. He ran his tongue along my top lip and I opened my mouth to him. He let out a soft low moan as our kiss turned more passionate. Before I knew it, I was sitting in his lap and utterly lost in our kiss.

I heard the driver clear his throat and say, “Mr. Williams, we’re back at the condos.”

Lark pulled away and winked at me as I moved off his lap and adjusted my skirt. “Thank you so much,” Lark said as he handed the driver money, opened the door, and practically pulled me out of the car.

“Good evening, Mr. Williams,” the valet attendant said as he looked my body up and down and smiled at me.

I rolled my eyes and decided I was throwing this shirt away as I soon as I could.

We walked through the lobby and the young girl sitting behind the desk smiled and said, “Good evening, Mr. Williams, Ms. Emerson.”

I smiled and said, “Good evening.” As we kept walking, it dawned on me she knew my name.

“Wait. How did she know my name?” I asked as I looked back at the desk. Lark was now pulling me, causing me to walk faster. He let out a chuckle and said, “I told them you would be visiting me often and for them to make you a key card for the elevator. I don’t have guests very often, so she probably just remembered your name.”

I looked at him and the only thing I could say was, “Oh.”

We stepped into the elevator and as soon as the door closed and Lark hit the button for his floor, he pushed me against the wall.

“God I want to fuck you so bad I can hardly think straight,” he whispered as he moved his hand up my skirt and pushed his hand into my panties.

“Oh God,” I whimpered. The elevators opened and he quickly turned me and walked us out of the elevator. He backed me right up against a table that was in the corridor. He pushed the vase off of it and I jumped when it crashed to the floor.

He lifted my skirt and quickly stripped me of my panties as he whispered, “I’m going to take you here, Azurdee, and I want to hear how good it feels for you.”

My heart was slamming in my chest as he lifted me up and set my ass on the edge of the table. He quickly unbuttoned and unzipped his jeans.

My breathing became erratic as his erection sprung free.

He pulled me closer to him as he slammed his dick inside of me. I let out a small scream. It burned like a son of a bitch and Lark usually asked if I was okay but the way he relentlessly began moving in and out of me was like he couldn’t fuck me fast and hard enough. I threw my head back and said, “Oh God.”

“Does that feel good, baby?” Lark asked as he gripped my hips harder. “You like me fucking you hard and fast, sweetheart?”

“Oh God yes.”

Then he stopped moving and quickly pulled out of me. I snapped my head up and looked at him. His eyes were filled with a look I’d never seen before. “What’s wrong?” I asked as he took a few steps back and away from me. I had to shake my head to clear my vision. Were his eyes filling with…tears?

“Lark?”

“I um…I need a minute.” He pulled his pants up and then walked away from me. I quickly jumped off the table and just stood there. What just happened? Did I do or say something to him?

I heard his bedroom door shut and I instantly felt like I wanted to cry. He walked away from me. He just left me here alone not knowing what in the world I just did. I reached down for my panties and quickly put them back on. I picked up my purse I must have dropped to the floor when we walked in and walked into the living room and looked around. I turned and looked down the hallway.

Should I go to his bedroom and ask him what was wrong? I decided to head over to the library. I walked in and made my way over to the sofa. I sat down and stared out at the lights. It was an amazing view and one that should have me looking at it in amazement, but all I could do was wonder what in the hell I did wrong.

I feel so tired all of a sudden. I wanted to get up and leave but I couldn’t move.

I felt the tear move down my cheek as I reached up and wiped it away. There was a blanket lying on the ottoman. I reached for it and pulled it over me as I curled up on the cold leather sectional and cried myself to sleep.

The second I realized I had called Azurdee sweetheart, I panicked. Walking away from her like that was the biggest dick move I’d ever done in my life.

I sat there on my bed and just stared out over the night sky of Austin. I couldn’t believe I let all of the emotions build up like I did and then just let it go like that.

“Fuck,” I whispered. I was almost positive I had to have hurt her with the way I just started fucking the shit out of her.

With running into Sherry and then Jason at the club, I was so wound up it was unreal. If Azurdee ever found out about Sherry and what I did, I knew she would leave me.

I can’t lose her. I won’t lose her. Not now. Not when I finally feel like a part of me is coming back to life.

I wasn’t sure how long I sat there thinking before I glanced over at the clock. It was two in the morning.

Azurdee.

I jumped up and went to the first guest room. I opened the door and it was empty. I opened up the door to the game room only to find it empty. The other guest bedroom was empty as well. I walked

past the library and looked through the door that was open. The library was also empty. I headed into the living room only to find it empty and silent.

Where in the fuck was she? I began to have a feeling take over my body that hadn’t been there since the day Nikki died.

Fear.

She left. She left me. I sat there and placed my head into my hands and tried to calm my breathing down.

Well, what in the hell did you expect, you dick? You pulled out of her and walked away with out so much as an explanation.

I looked to my right and saw her purse sitting on the top of the sofa. I jumped up. She wouldn’t have left without her purse. I quickly made my way back to the only room that had a door open. The library. I walked in and immediately could hear the sound of her breathing. I quickly made my way around the sofa and saw her curled up under a blanket sleeping. I about dropped to my knees when I saw her. She had a tissue clutched in her hand and I knew she had been crying.

Oh God. I hurt her. The only person in this entire world I didn’t want to hurt and I’d hurt her.