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Since the release of her debut contemporary romance novel, Off Sides, in January 2013, SAWYER BENNETT has released multiple books, many of which have appeared on the New York Times, USA Today, and Wall Street Journal bestseller lists.

A reformed trial lawyer from North Carolina, Sawyer uses real-life experience to create relatable, sexy stories that appeal to a wide array of readers. From new adult to erotic contemporary romance, she writes something for just about everyone.

Sawyer likes her Bloody Marys strong, her martinis dirty, and her heroes a combination of the two. When not bringing fictional romance to life, Sawyer is a chauffeur, stylist, chef, maid, and personal assistant to a very active daughter, as well as a full-time servant to her adorably naughty dogs. She believes in the good of others and that a bad day can be cured with a great workout, cake, or even better, both.

Sawyer also writes general and women's fiction under the pen name S. Bennett and sweet romance under the name Juliette Poe.

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Read on for an excerpt from

Marek

A Cold Fury Hockey Novel

by Sawyer Bennett

Available from Loveswept

Chapter 1

Marek

You need to get your fucking head on straight and get your house in order.

Yeah, that's what Reed had told me on the phone yesterday, and my response?

"Get off my fucking back."

No way in hell I'll ever admit it to his face he's right, but it doesn't mean he's wrong. I know I've got to quit ignoring the truth of my life right now and figure out some way to accept that my life today is vastly different than I'd ever imagined it would be.

Goddamn Gracen. Keeping such a secret from me.

A daughter.

Lilly.

I'm scared as fuck.

I sit in the gloom of my garage, the ticking of my car engine slow and steady as opposed to the beat of my heart, which is erratic. I've been gone for three days at the beach with Holt, staying drunk most of the time and ignoring the mess of my life back here in Raleigh. I'd still be there too if Reed hadn't called me yesterday and torn me a new asshole over the way I'd been ignoring Gracen and Lilly.

Gracen is the easy excuse. I'm so angry at her that I can barely stand to be in the same room. Our conversations have been brief and stilted. I left her a credit card so she could buy whatever she needs, and outside of some basic instructions regarding the house alarm and how to work the TV, we haven't spoken much. Lilly doesn't bear my anger, but I know she's feeling it. She barely looks at me when we're in the same room, however brief it may be.

I'd even reasoned to myself that leaving for a few days would give Lilly some respite from the tension within the house. Of course, I know her mother has got to be stressed to the max, and that's probably affecting Lilly, but I choose not to let that be my problem.

I'd done what I set out to do. I stopped Gracen from making a fool out of herself by marrying Owen Waller, and now I'm saddled with an ex-girlfriend I'd left behind long ago and a new daughter I had not expected nor frankly wanted.

My life is fucked.

With a sigh I get out of my car and pocket my keys. My feet are heavy as I walk up the three short steps that will lead into the mudroom. My spine is locked tight in stressful anticipation of any confrontation I might have with Gracen, and acid churns in my gut over the thought of having to engage with a child who looks just like me yet whom I have nothing in common with.

Christ, I know nothing about kids.

I mean, nothing.

I open the door quietly and slip inside. The mudroom leads into a short hall. Turn right and I'm in the laundry room. Turn left and I'm in the kitchen that extends openly into the living area. The sound of the TV hits my ears first and I go even more on edge. That means one or both of the females now in my life are just a few short feet away, which means conversation is inevitable.

It's going on 9 P.M. and I have no clue if Lilly is even still awake. No idea what time toddlers go to bed. All I know is that the late nights I'd been coming home this past week were late enough that Lilly had been sleeping and thus I didn't have to deal with her.

Didn't mean I wasn't curious about her, because I am. It just means I don't know how to fucking deal with this.

My kitchen lights are off, but the glow of the TV in the living room illuminates the area enough so I can navigate around the counter. I hope to slip unnoticed past the couch, but Gracen's head pops up. I can see by the heaviness of her eyelids she'd been sleeping.

She stands up and rubs her face before looking at me. "We need to talk."

"I'm tired," I say, and start to head into the formal room, the other side of which is the master suite. I'd put Gracen and Lilly upstairs in the guest bedrooms.

"No, now," she says firmly as she walks around the couch toward me. She turns on a floor lamp and blinks from the light.

"Tomorrow," I mutter as I walk away.

"We're leaving tomorrow," Gracen says in an unyielding tone. "So if you want to hear what I have to say, you better stop and listen. Tomorrow will be too late."

That stops me dead in my tracks. I turn slowly to face her. "You're not leaving."

"Yeah, I am," she says angrily. "Lilly and I are virtual prisoners here. You demanded we come here, threatening to take her away if I didn't, and then you ignore us for a week. We don't know anyone here, and I don't even know whether to look for a job or not. But more importantly, and why I'm willing to risk your wrath if we leave, is because Lilly is confused as hell as to who you are and what your purpose in her life is."

That right there tempers the brewing storm of anger that had been starting to rise. "What have you told her about me?"

"Nothing," she says tiredly as she shoves her hands into the pockets of her jeans. Gracen always did fill out a pair of tight jeans nicely, and that hasn't changed over the years. She's still the most beautiful woman I've ever seen, and fuck me if I don't believe part of it is because she had my child.

Goddamn that's confusing.

"She only thinks you're a friend of her mommy's," she adds quietly, and that cuts me deep. Why I thought Gracen would fill her in on the fact Lilly has a daddy who was kept secret from her is beyond me, but I really expected her to just deal with the emotional fallout, I guess. I mean, I sure as shit don't know what to say to a toddler I barely know.

"She needs to know," I say, the emotion thick on my tongue.

"Agreed," Gracen murmurs. "But it has to be done right, and it has to be done together, and it can't be done when you aren't ever here. More than that, I

only want to tell her if you plan on being active in her life. She'll be crushed if you weren't interested in her, and I'm not about to risk breaking her heart like that. You're a dick, Marek. Have been since the moment you dumped me four years ago because you didn't want me dragging you down in your new, fancy professional athlete life. But you cannot be that way with your daughter. I won't let you, and I'll fight you every step of the way to protect her."

"Christ," I mutter as I drag a hand through my hair in frustration. "I need a beer. Want one?"

Gracen shakes her head but follows me into the kitchen. I flip on the overhead light and snag a beer from the fridge. I watch as she sits on one of the short stools on the far end of the L-shaped kitchen island. She looks exhausted and frazzled, like she could snap at any moment.

I'm such a sick bastard that part of me revels in that, because it's pretty much how I've felt ever since I found out I had a daughter I didn't know about.

Wait...strike that.

If I'm honest--and I'll only be honest with myself at the moment--I felt that way since learning that Gracen was going to get married. It hit me so hard I felt like I'd been hip checked and slammed into the ice face first. I'd managed to lead my life after Gracen, sometimes going weeks without thinking--too much--about her. Never thought about her when I was with other women, which is why I tried to be with a lot of women. Kept the memories away.

But there was no way I could let her marry Owen. He would have destroyed her spirit, and that would have been a travesty to the world. I may have left her behind, but I never failed to remember that in doing so, I probably would never find better again in my life. It was a choice I had to make at the time and had never once truly regretted. Might have bemoaned it, but I didn't let myself have regret.

When I left Gracen behind--who is three years younger than me--she finished college and got her nursing degree. I knew she'd never do it if she followed me for my career.

Now I know that she not only finished college after I left, but she did so while going through a pregnancy alone and raising a daughter all by herself. It's no wonder she latched on to Owen, who could have provided her with a very posh lifestyle.