Vandal (Ashes & Embers 2)

He pushes my hair out of my face and cups my cheek. “Look at me,” he whispers. Opening my eyes, I lock my gaze onto his. “Don’t close your eyes … Stay with me.” He slowly eases his cock into me, gentler and slower than I could have ever thought possible for him. My eyes flutter from the sheer ecstasy of feeling him deep inside of me and he rubs his thumb across my eyelid. “Eyes open, Tabicat.”

His kisses grow deeper, his tongue licking mine as he strokes in and out of me, slowly and carefully—every inch felt. I raise my leg and wind it around his waist, locking us together as he moves inside of me, making me drowsy with his gentle, deep rhythm.

He makes love to me for hours, shattering me bit by bit with this new gentle side of him. I have never felt so loved or so adored by a man just from the passion in his kiss or the softness of his touch. This is what I have always longed for and never had, not even with Nick. Vandal has completely touched my soul and captured my heart.

Nick. Please forgive me. I have broken my promise to you.

After he falls asleep, I quietly climb out of bed and use the bathroom, then go down the hall to the guest room. Grabbing the journal and pen, I sit on the bed and open it to the next page. I haven’t had a chance to write in it for a few days.

Vandal,

I don’t know where this path will lead us or what the future holds for us. But I know that today, in this moment, that I am yours and you are mine. You made a promise and you kept it, and I will be forever grateful to you.

I am your heart and you are my armor, always.

Love,

Tabi

I pick up Sterling and carry him to the bedroom, crawling into bed next to Vandal. Sterling curls up against me, purring like a little motor. I wish I could sleep, but I am tormented by promises made and broken, buried secrets, and twisted lies.

Vandal

“You’re quiet.” She’s barely said a word during the drive to the gig. I glance at her in the passenger seat and she looks sexy-as-hell in the outfit I got her of tight jeans, black boots, white sweater and black silk scarf with white roses embroidered on it. First I had a dress picked out but I knew I’d never keep my hands off her, or the attention of the other guys at the show, so jeans seemed safer. As usual she is completely oblivious as to how sexy and cute she looks.

Reaching across the console, I grab her hand and realize her wedding band and engagement ring aren’t on. She’s worn them every day since we met and even though it bugged the shit out of me, I obviously wasn’t douche enough to say something about it. Taking them off had to be her decision, not mine. I can’t help but wonder if she took them off because of a commitment to me, or if she is just being respectful to me by not looking married while we’re out in public. Not that it would be the first time I was seen with a married woman, but this is different. She’s different.

She smiles over at me in the dim light of the car. “I feel kinda nervous. Will it be a big crowd?”

“No, this is a small, private venue. I’m only playing, like three songs, so I won’t be on stage too long. Lukas is gonna stop by, too; he’ll hang out with you.”

“Ivy too?”

“No, they had a fight.”

“Oh no. They didn’t break up, did they?”

I shrug. “I don’t think so. I’m sure they’ll figure it out; they have some issues to work on. Lukas isn’t the type to give up.”

“Are you?” she asks, squeezing my hand.

“No. I’m not a quitter at anything.”

When we get to the Rabbit Hole, I grab my bass out of the back seat and a bouncer lets us in through the private side door to avoid the crowd.

“Hey, Van, been a long time. Good to see you,” the bouncer says, nodding his head in greeting at us. I don’t recognize the guy at all, but I fist bump him anyway and pretend I remember him as we head down the hall.

I stop in the hallway before we go any further and pull Tabi into me. “You should know I’ve fucked every girl in Sugar Kiss at some point.”

Her mouth falls open in total shock. “What? You could have warned me, and maybe worded that a little nicer.”

“It was just party stuff; I wasn’t involved with them. But we are all friends. I told Sydni that I was in a relationship last time I saw her. So if the girls are kinda flirty, just ignore it, okay? They’re used to me being a certain way, and it’s going to take a while for people to get used to me not being like that.”

“You could have told me this before. Won’t this be awkward?”

“No.”

“It is for me. They’re probably all gorgeous and sexy and perfect, right?”

Ugh. I probably shouldn’t have told her the truth. So much for me trying to be honest and open. She literally looks green with jealousy. Or nausea. Or both, most likely.

“Hey. You’re my Tabicat, right? Who’s got the collar on?”

Her eyes go soft and she smiles shyly. “Me,” she murmurs.

“That’s right. You’re mine. I’m yours. End of story.” I kiss her lips. “And you are gorgeous and sexy and perfect, and sweet. You have nothing to be jealous about. I don’t like jealousy.”

She quirks an accusing eyebrow at me. “Really? Since when?”

I grab her hand, ignoring her innuendo about my own jealousy issues. “Let’s go.”

The VIP room is pretty packed, but we make our way through the crowd to the far corner where the girls are hanging out. I’m stopped a few times along the way to say hey, but I hold on to Tabi’s hand and keep moving after a few seconds of talking. She seems even smaller to me in my own element, her tiny five-foot, one-hundred-and-ten body almost lost amongst all these people.

“And he made it!” Sydni yells when she sees me. She jumps up and gives me a hug, a drink in her hand.

“Hey, Syd.”

“Hey, buddy. And who do we have here?” She smiles at Tabitha. I know that Sydni is genuinely happy for me to have a chick and isn’t jealous. She might flirt with me, but I know our friendship comes first.

“This is Tabitha. Tabi, this is Sydni. She’s one of my oldest friends, and a fucking great bass player.”

“Nice to meet you,” Tabi says, blushing. She’s fucking adorable.

“I’m glad you came. I wouldn’t beli

eve Vandal had a girlfriend unless I saw her with my own damn eyes. You’re absolutely beautiful.” Sydni nudges me. “Awesome catch, Van. Hang on to her.”

I put my arm around Tabi and pull her closer. “I plan to.”

Sydni turns to the other girls and yells over at them. “Hey ladies, look who’s here! Our man Vandal with his girlfriend.”

There’s nothing like having eight eyes that you’ve fucked staring at you while you stand next to the woman you’re falling in love with. It’s not exactly a warm and fuzzy feeling, and for once, I’m not proud of some of the things I’ve done. Or whom I’ve done, in this case.

All the girls look a little shocked, two of them definitely look a little crazy jealous, but at least they are all friendly and polite to Tabitha, who looks like a baby deer in the headlights. I’m going to have to do something to make up this awkwardness to her, to show her I appreciate how strong she is. I sure as shit wouldn’t want to be in a room with a bunch of guys she’d slept with, and would be pretty murderous by the time the night was over if I was.

I pull Tabitha to a couch along the wall and we sit next to Rio, who’s got long, razor-edged purple and blue hair and turquoise eyes, and is probably the cutest and nicest of all these girls in the band. She used to follow me around like a lost puppy when we were going through our thing of screwing on the road.

“I’m Rio,” she says to Tabi.

“That’s a beautiful name. I love your hair!”

Rio beams. “Thanks!”

“Rio is the drummer,” I tell Tabitha, and she nods above the loud voices around us.

“Are you a musician, too?” Rio questions, and Tabitha looks away, biting her lip.

“No, not at all,” she finally answers.

“She’s a photographer,” I say for her.

“Hey, maybe you can take some pictures of me and the girls. We need some for our PR stuff, like the website, or online profiles, all that stuff. We were just talking about this, like a week ago.”

“I’d love that. Would that be okay?” she asks me, and yes, it turns me on that she asked me permission.

“Sure, doll. We can talk about that. I think it would be great.”