back with a smirk.
“Girls,” Ariana said, shaking her head.
Noelle sighed and picked up her bag, pushing herself from the
ground. “You should let her help you, glass-licker,” she said as everyone else scrambled to their feet, following her lead as always.
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more exhilarating, made me that much more desperate to go further each time. Before we were caught. Before we were exposed.
One afternoon, I rushed from lunch to meet up with Thomas at
Gwendolyn as planned, and was confused when I saw him walking
INTENSE
toward me on the quad. His face was wan and his expression distracted, his eyes darting from face to face. I figured he was looking for me and lifted my hand to get his attention, but he blew right by me.
“Thomas?”
He stopped and turned around. Every movement was sharp and
The next few days were a flurry of studying, soccer, and secret deliberate, his casual demeanor gone.
make-out sessions with Thomas. Every time I saw him he would
“What’s wrong?”
find some way to touch me or tickle me or kiss me. We made out
“I can’t talk right now,” he said.
behind the landscaper’s cottage after breakfast one morning. On
“But I thought we—”
my way back from practice on a sunny afternoon he pulled me into
“I can’t,” he repeated firmly. Then he glanced around and took
the baseball dugout where I let him slide his hands under my shirt a couple steps closer to me. He lowered his voice. “You haven’t seen and under my bra for the first time, shaking with nerves and para-my phone, have you?”
noia all the while.
“Your cell? No. Why?” I asked, baffled.
But mostly we met up in our own secret place, inside the entry-
“What the hell could I have done with it?” he blurted, turning
way to Gwendolyn Hall. There we were still on edge, but felt safer away. He covered his mouth with both hands set in a steeple and than anywhere else. I would sit on Thomas’s lap or he would lay me looked across the campus, racking his brain. “I have to find it,” he back on his jacket and we would touch and kiss and explore each said, starting off again.
other until the last possible second. Until we had to run off to class
“I’ll help you,” I said, scurrying after him.