I sent him a look that said if he stopped now, I would never forgive him. He smiled and adjusted me on the island. “Okay, eat food later. Got it.”
Then, he was there, his face buried between my thighs. I gasped and dropped my head back as I let out a long, deep moan. The pleasure instantly overwhelmed me as I felt my body start to wind up in the most delicious way.
“Merit, I’ve been dreaming of doing this to you,” Dirk said before he went back to work, sucking and licking my sensitive bud.
“Oh God. Oh God.” My orgasm built up quickly, and before I could even prepare myself, it exploded. I screamed out Dirk’s name and held on to the side of the island as I pushed my hips into his face. He licked and sucked and nibbled as he slipped his finger inside of me, and I came again, this time harder—if that was even possible.
“Dirk! It’s too much! Oh God. Yes! Stop! Oh God!” I cried out, not wanting it to end, but needing it to. I fell apart while the room exploded with bursts of light that left me feeling dizzy.
When I managed to get my wits about me, Dirk picked me up once more. “I’m not fucking you on the island. I want to make love to you. Where’s the bedroom?”
I smiled. The idea of him fucking me on the island sounded nice. Really nice. But so did a bed. The only two times we’d been together had been in awkward places, and I really wanted to know what being with Dirk in a bed felt like. “Down the hall, last door on the right.”
Dirk moved quickly, like our lives depended on getting to my bedroom. He gently laid me on the bed, and I watched as he undid his jeans, kicked off his boots, and in what seemed like one movement, rid himself of his clothes.
He stood before me naked and oh so beautiful. I had never in my life seen anything like him. His broad shoulders stood atop a massive chest that screamed this man was in the best shape of his life. Rippled abs led down to one hell of a hard-on. I chewed on my lip as I took in every inch of him.
He finally moved and crawled onto the bed, his hands moving up my legs as he placed kisses on my inner thighs. “You’re so damn beautiful, Bugs.”
I groaned and dropped my head onto the pillow as he laughed. “Please, if you insist on calling me that nickname, can we not use it before you make love to me?”
He lightly chuckled again and moved completely over my body. His smile faded as he settled between my legs and our eyes met. He brushed stray pieces of my hair away and gently kissed the tip of my nose, then all around my face. The feeling of his erection against my body caused my insides to melt. I slid my foot lazily up and down his leg and let him take his time. I felt so cherished with each kiss, and I didn’t want the moment to end.
“I’ve never been so nervous in my life to be with a woman,” he finally said, his forehead pressed to mine.
“Nervous?” I asked with a chuckle. “Why on Earth are you nervous?”
He lifted his head, pinning me with his gaze. “Because it’s you. I’ve missed you so much, more than I ever realized. You mean so much to me, Merit, and I…” He closed his eyes as he spoke the next words. “I don’t want to ever see pain in your eyes again. I don’t want to hurt you, and I’m terrified I’m going to.”
I brought my hands up to his face and spoke softly. “Look at me, Dirk.”
He opened his eyes and stared into mine.
“The only thing I’ve ever wanted from you was you. This. Us.” I slid one hand down to his chest, where his heart pounded against my palm. “Your love, your heart. That’s all I want. I’m not asking you for anything more than that.”
“It’s yours, Merit. All of me. Every single heartbeat belongs to you.”
I pulled in a breath, and before I was able to say anything else, he kissed me. His body shifted, and I opened to him. The moment he pushed inside of me, it felt like every single worry or fear I’d had over the last few months simply slipped away. All the stupid words we’d exchanged were gone and forgotten. The only thing that mattered was the two of us.
“You feel…oh God.” Dirk breathed against my neck as he moved in and out of me. It was a deliciously slow pace, and I knew we both needed more, but this felt so right.
His voice sounded so strained as he whispered, “Merit…I never…”