I am the child in the wheat.
The slap of boots on pavement, on polished concrete floors, on metal risers, from the airstrip to the command center, the sound of thousands of feet running like the scratch-scratch of the rats behind the walls of the old hotel.
I’m surrounded.
I’ll give her the only thing I can, I think, reaching for the green capsule in my pocket. The only thing I’ve got left.
My fingers dig into the jacket pocket.
The empty jacket pocket.
I pat my other pockets. No. Not my pockets. They’re Cassie’s pockets: I switched clothes with her in the supply shed before we entered the command center.
I don’t have the green capsule. Cassie does.
The slap of boots on pavement, on polished concrete floors, on metal risers. I push myself from the wall and crawl toward the door.
He isn’t far. Just across this room, through that door, a few feet down the hall. If I can get to him before they reach this level, I may still have a chance—they won’t, but I will.
Cassie will.
Door. I yank the handle down, swing it halfway open, then quickly slide into the space between to prop it open with my body. I can see him, the faceless murderer of seven billion who should have killed me when he had the chance—and he had several—but couldn’t. He couldn’t, because even he was confounded by love’s unpredictable trajectory.
Hall. He must still have the device. He carried it everywhere he went. Lightweight and no larger than a cell phone, it tracked every implanted recruit on the base. And with a swipe of the thumb, it can send a signal to the implants inside their necks, killing each one of them.
Vosch. Lying on my stomach, I reach for him, grab the back of his uniform, and roll him over. The bloody crater that was his face is turned to the sterile glow of the ceiling. I hear them on the stairs, boots on metal risers, growing louder. Where is it? Give it up, you son of a bitch.
Breast pocket. Right where he always kept it. The display screen swarms with green dots, a three-squad cluster’s worth heading straight toward me. I highlight all of them—every recruit on the base, over five thousand people, and the green button beneath my thumb flashes, and this is why I didn’t want to come back. I knew what would happen. I knew:
I’ll kill until I lose count. I’ll kill until counting doesn’t matter.
I’m staring at the screen lit up with five thousand tiny pulsing lights, each a hapless victim, each a human being.
Telling myself I don’t have a choice.
Telling myself I’m not his creation. I’m not what he has made me.
ZOMBIE
ON OUR SEVENTEENTH PASS around the perimeter—or maybe the eighteenth; I’ve lost count—the lights of the air base abruptly blaze back on, and across from me, Sergeant Sprinter barks into her headset, “Status?”
We’ve been circling for over an hour and our fuel must be low. We’ll have to set down soon; the only question is where, inside the base or out. Right now we’re approaching the river again. I expect the pilot to change course, bring us over some land, but she doesn’t.
Megan is nestled under my arm, her head tucked beneath my chin. Nugget presses against the other arm, watching the base below. His sister is down there somewhere. Possibly alive, probably dead. The restoration of the lights is a bad sign.
We bank over the river, keeping the base on our left, and I can see other choppers circling over it, too, waiting for the all clear to land. Their spotlights cut through the predawn mist, pillars of glistening white. We’re over the river now, swollen from an early spring thaw.
Above us, the sky lightens to gray and the stars begin to fade.
This is it. Green Day. The day the bombs fall. I look for the mothership but can’t spot it in the brightening sky.
Conversation with the ground over, the sergeant pulls off her headset. Her eyes on my face, her hand resting on the butt of her sidearm. Nugget stiffens beside me; he knows what’s coming before I do; his hands claw at his harness, though there’s nowhere to run and nowhere to hide.
The orders have changed. She draws her weapon and levels it at his head.
I throw myself in front of him. Finally the circle comes round. Time to pay the debt.
CASSIE