"You know Maddy looked bad," said the lady in gray.
"Well, she's dying, sweetheart, that's what happens. "
"I guess. " Another sigh.
The tinkle of ice in glasses.
They were all nursing neat little cocktails. Charlie guessed they'd been mixed by the younger woman who was outside smoking. He looked around the room for something that was glowing red. There was an oak rolltop desk in the corner that he'd like to get a look in, but that would have to wait until later. He ducked out of the doorway and into the kitchen, where two men in their late thirties, maybe early forties, were sitting at an oak table, playing Scrabble.
"Is Jenny coming back? It's her turn. "
"She might have gone up to see Mom with one of the ladies. The hospice nurse is letting them go up one at a time. "
"I just wish it was over. I can't stand this waiting. I have a family I need to get back to. I'm about to crawl out of my fucking skin. "
The older of the two reached across the table and set two tiny blue pills by his brother's tiles.
"These help. "
"What are they?"
"Time-released morphine. "
"Really?" The younger brother looked alarmed.
"You hardly even feel them, they just sort of take the edge off. Jenny's been taking them for two weeks. "
"That's why you guys are taking this so well and I'm a wreck? You guys are stoned on Mom's pain medication?"
"Yep. "
"I don't take drugs. Those are drugs. You don't take drugs. "
The older brother sat back in his chair. "Pain medication, Bill. What are you feeling?"
"No, I'm not taking Mom's pain meds. "
"Suit yourself. "
"What if she needs them?"
"There's enough morphine in that room to bring down a Kodiak bear, and if she needs more, then hospice will bring more. "
Charlie wanted to shake the younger brother and yell, Take the drugs, you idiot. Maybe it was the benefit of experience. Having now seen this situation happen again and again, families on deathwatch, out of their minds with grief and exhaustion, friends moving in and out of the house like ghosts, saying good-bye or just covering some sort of base so they could say they had been there, so perhaps they wouldn't have to die alone themselves. Why was none of this in the books of the dead? Why didn't the instructions tell him about all the pain and confusion he was going to see?
"I'm going to go find Jenny," said the older brother, "see if she wants to get something to eat. We can finish the game later if you want. "
"That's okay, I was losing anyway. " The younger brother gathered up the tiles and put the board away. "I'm going to go upstairs and see if I can catch a nap, tonight's my night watching Mom. "
The older brother walked out and Charlie watched the younger brother drop the blue pills into his shirt pocket and leave the kitchen, leaving the Death Dealer to ransack the pantry and the cabinets looking for the soul vessel. But he felt before he even started that it wouldn't be there. He was going to have to go upstairs.
He really, really hated being around sick people.
Madeline Alby was propped up and tucked into bed with a down comforter up around her neck. She was so slight that her body barely showed under the covers. Charlie guessed that she might weigh seventy or eighty pounds max. Her face was drawn and he could see the outlines of her eye sockets and her jawbone jutting through her skin, which had gone yellow. Charlie guessed liver cancer. One of her friends from downstairs was sitting at her bedside, the hospice-care worker, a big woman in scrubs, sat in a chair across the room, reading. A small dog, a Yorkshire terrier, Charlie thought, was snuggled up between Madeline's shoulder and her neck, sleeping.
When Charlie stepped into the room, Madeline said, "Hey there, kid. "
He froze in his steps. She was looking right at him - crystal-blue eyes, and a smile. Had the floor squeaked? Had he bumped something?