She put her hands on my chest and started pushing me out the door. “I have to go pee,” she said with a wink.
“Again? My god, girl. It’s all that water you were drinking tonight!” I pulled her to me and kissed her before she closed the door.
I headed toward the bed and took a good look around. She had her iPod sitting on her iHome, so I reached down and hit play. Tim McGraw’s “One of Those Nights” started playing. I’d heard this song this morning, and it had made me think of Heather. I smiled to myself, thinking how perfect this song was.
I walked over to the dresser and saw a picture of us fishing somewhere. Heather was holding a giant-ass bass, and she had the biggest smile on her face. I took off my boots and then pulled my T-shirt out of my pants. I opened a drawer, and it was filled with my clothes. I smiled as I took out my favorite T-shirt from high school.
Why can’t I remember? I just want to remember what it was like to be with her.
“I love that T-shirt,” Heather said from behind me.
I turned around and sucked in a breath of air. My eyes traveled up and down her body. With a wicked smile on her face, she was leaning up against the doorjamb, wearing only a pink lace bra and matching panties.
Holy shit…I can’t even think straight. “Heather…I, um…I can’t even fucking think straight while looking at you in just your, um…your…um…” I just kept staring at her. She’s perfect. There isn’t a single thing I would change about her.
She let out a laugh as she started to walk toward me. By the time she reached me, George Strait’s “Give It All We Got Tonight” started playing. She placed her hands on my chest and looked up at me. She slowly moved her hand down. She took the T-shirt I was holding out of my hand, and she tossed it to the floor.
“I, um…that was my favorite shirt in high school,” I whispered as I placed my hands on her hips. Oh god…her skin is so soft. I’m not gonna last five minutes.
She licked her lips. “I know. ” She slowly started to lift my T-shirt up.
I reached down and helped her get it off. The way she was looking at my body was like she’d never seen it before. I couldn’t be any more turned-on if I wanted to be.
“Dance with me?” she asked.
I pulled her closer to me as she placed her head against my chest. She fits so perfectly in my arms.
“I’m so scared, Josh,” she whispered.
What? Why in the world is she scared?
She pulled away and looked into my eyes. The tears rolling down her face about gutted me.
“Oh, baby…please don’t be scared. I promise…it’s going to be perfect. ”
I wiped away her tears as she gave me a weak smile. For a brief moment, it almost seemed like she wasn’t scared of making love with me. She seemed to be scared of something else, something she was holding back from me.
I walked her toward the bed as she started to unbutton my jeans. I leaned down and took her lips with mine. The sweet, soft moan she let out rolled through my body with such a warm feeling. I reached behind her and used my hand to unclasp her bra. I slowly slipped it off her, and then I just stared at her beautiful skin.
So fucking beautiful. I love this girl. I feel it one hundred percent in my heart. I love her more than anything.
I looked into her beautiful blue eyes and smiled as she smiled back at me. I kissed her so softly. When I pulled away, I noticed her biting her lower lip. I reached up with my thumb and pulled it out of her teeth as I shook my head.
“I want to do that. ” I noticed her whole body tremble. “Lie down, princess,” I whispered against her lips.
Chapter Twenty-Four
The moment he told me to lie down, my heart dropped into my stomach. Oh god…I want him so badly. How is he making me feel like this is our first time all over again? I started to move back onto the bed as I watched him take off his pants. My heart was slamming in my chest. I was lying down just as “Storm” by Lifehouse started to play. I closed my eyes and fought back the tears. Breathe…oh god. Breathe.
I opened my eyes and saw Josh standing there, looking at me. Oh. My. God. He has tears in his eyes.
“I want to lose myself in you…and I pray to God I also find myself in you, princess. ”
He slowly moved onto the bed and over me. He captured my mouth with his and kissed me like I’d never been kissed before. I wasn’t even aware that he was taking off my panties until I felt his hands lift me up. My body shivered under his touch.
“I love you, Josh. I love you so much. Please…please,” was all I could manage to get out.
Josh leaned his forehead on mine. He took in a deep breath and then slowly let it out. “I’ll love you until the day I take my last breath. ” He took his hand and placed it on the side of my face before moving it down my neck, to my chest, and then lower to my stomach. He stopped right on my stomach and smiled.