I wanted so badly to ask if that was the first time he’d ever given a girl oral sex, but I knew better. As much as I wanted to believe it was, I knew it wasn’t. Lynda had made sure of that.
“Was that…” I stopped myself. Why did I even start to ask?
“Yes,” Josh said with a smile.
I shook my head, confused. “Yes? Yes, what?”
“Yes, that was the first time I’ve ever done that,” he said as he blushed.
“That can’t be true!” Why in the world would he lie to me?
“What?” he asked.
“Well…I mean, Victoria said she used to have oral sex with you all the time, and Lynda said you used to—”
Josh pulled back and sat up. “Lynda said what? And when the fuck did she talk to you about us?”
Oh shit. “Josh, you know…none of that matters now. It’s you and me forever, so whatever you did before me isn’t important. ”
“It’s important to me, Heather. I just told you I’ve never given a girl oral sex, and you’re basically calling me a liar. ”
“No, I’m not!”
“Then, tell me what Lynda said. ”
Oh god! How did this perfect moment turn into a disaster? Oh yeah, when you opened your big mouth, Heather! I smiled and leaned over toward him. “Josh, I don’t want to ruin this moment by talking about Lynda or anyone else. ”
As he turned away from me, he grabbed part of the blanket, covered himself up, and looked out at the river.
Fuck me. I took a deep breath. “Lynda used to send me text messages or sometimes emails. She would describe how y’all would have sex in the car, bathtub, at a park one time…” I started to shake my head. I really don’t want to think about this. “She told me your favorite thing to do was…was…”
Josh snapped his head back to look at me. The expression on his face was pure horror, like someone had just told him the worst news of his life.
“Um…she said it was you giving her oral sex. She said you first did it at Jeff and Ari’s wedding. ” I felt tears stinging my eyes.
Josh’s jaw dropped. “When?”
I felt a tear slide down my face. “I just fucking told you when!” I got up and started to reach for my clothes to get dressed.
He grabbed my hand and pulled me back down. “When did she tell you all this? When was she sending you these texts?”
“Ever since we’ve been together,” I said in between sobs.
“Oh. My. God. Heather, why didn’t you ever tell me?”
He moved me onto this lap, and he began stroking my hair as I cried harder. All those months of holding it in and not telling him, all the built-up anger and jealousy…it was finally being released.
“As God as my witness, Heather, none of what she said is true. None of it. I never did anything like that with her. ”
“You didn’t give her oral sex at Jeff and Ari’s wedding?”
“You’re the first girl I’ve ever done that to! I never had sex with her in a bathtub or in a park. None of what you just told me is the truth. Heather, she was just lying to you, princess. Oh fuck! I’d like to go break her fucking neck for hurting you all those months. ”
I buried my face into his neck. For some odd reason, I was so relieved. I knew Josh had been with lots of girls in the past, but to hear details from one was just pure hell.
“If she ever calls or texts you again, please tell me, Heather. I want us to be one hundred percent honest with each other. Promise me?”
I pulled back and looked into his eyes. I love him so much. “I love you…more than I love anything in this world. ”