The Squad
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I opened my mouth to refute his words, to yell at him that they were all alike, but I never got the first word out. “Shut up! If you don’t have anything sensible to say to me, don’t say a fucking word.” I felt him pull out of my body with none of the care he’s been showing me, and when he rolled out of bed, I felt a dreadful panic rise up inside me.
“Where are you going?” I actually reached out to grab him. He sighed long and hard, and I could tell from the tick in his jaw that he was pissed. But when he looked back at me, all I saw was tenderness. “I’m going to run you a bath like I said.” He just stared at me for what felt like forever without moving, and when he finally did leave the bed, I felt like I’d tarnished something somehow.
When he came back a few minutes later, that look of disappointment was gone, and there was no anger when he lifted me in his arms and walked into the bathroom with me. “I’m sorry!” Why the hell am I apologizing? Too late, it’s already done. It seems that was the right thing to do because all the tension left his body, and he kissed the top of my head.
“Apology accepted, but I’m not the one you should be apologizing to.” I looked up at him, confused when he put me down to stand in front of him.
“Who should I apologize to then?”
“You, you should apologize to you for thinking that you’re not worth loving. It’s okay. It’s my job to prove it to you; I just have to get better at it.”
Don’t make me love you; please don’t knock at the walls I’ve built around my heart. Some walls they’ve turned out to be if he can chip away at them this soon. “Stop worrying, baby. All your worries are over; I’m here now.” Once again, he cupped my cheek in the warmth of his palm, and I was lost for words by the look in his eyes.
“Come on, let’s get you cleaned up.” With that, he lifted me into the steaming water and knelt beside the tub before taking the washcloth in his hands.
“What’re you…?” I grabbed his wrist beneath the water. “I told you, I’m going to take care of you.” He freed his wrist and did just that while my face heated up. No one has ever done this before, and I didn’t know what to do with myself.
I wanted so badly to relax and enjoy, but for the first few seconds, I remained tense. Until his gentleness penetrated, until the way he touched my body as if it were something special, broke through one of the barriers of my mind, and I started to accept that this was for real.
Jason
After her bath, she was beat, so I pulled another one of my old tee-shirts on over her head and put her to bed. I climbed in and held her close until her breathing evened out and then waited for another five minutes, which I spent just watching her face in sleep.
It was some time before I, too, fell asleep, the night’s actions finally catching up with me. I’ll tell her about the kid in the morning when she was more cognizant. It was the last thought I had before giving into slumber. I didn’t spare the asshole I’d tossed a second thought because he wasn’t worth it. If only all the others who’d hurt her could be that easy to get rid of. But she still hadn’t given up the name of the town where she’d been held captive.
I woke sometime later in the middle of the night with a raging hard-on and a need for her that ran deep. She was still fast asleep when I turned her from my arms onto her back and made my way down her middle to between her warm thighs. I pushed my shirt, which is the only thing she was wearing, out of the way and kicked off my pajama bottoms to give my cock some space to breathe.
I had her mouth on her and her scent in my nostrils before she came awake. In fact, my tongue had been playing around inside her hot cunt for a while before she blinked herself awake. I slid up her body to say hello with a kiss, “Hi, baby.” Then slid back down her body to finish the job.
Her pussy’s taste went right through me, filling my head and senses with her essence. I knew she was hiding her sounds from me, could hear the stifled moans that she kept hush behind her hand, but I wasn’t about to let her keep anything from me, not here, not in my bed. So I set about making her lose her mind enough to let her guard down and release her inhibitions.