“What are you—?”
“Don’t bother lying, Ethan. I know what you and your library partner were doing outside Exile.” The voice in my head was sharp and bitter.
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nbsp; I heard you. You were Kelting. “Blue eyes and blond hair”? Sound familiar?
She was right. I was Kelting, and she’d heard every word.
Nothing happened.
The chandelier crashed onto her bed, missing me by inches. The floor seemed to drop out from under me. She’d heard me.
Nothing happened? Did you think I wouldn’t know? Did you think I wouldn’t feel it?
It was worse than looking Reece in the eye. Lena could see everything, and she didn’t need her powers to do it.
“I lost it when I saw you with that guy John, and I wasn’t thinking.”
“You can tell yourself that, but everything happens for a reason. You almost kissed her, and you did it because you wanted to.”
Maybe I just wanted to piss you off, because I saw you with another guy.
Be careful what you wish for.
I searched her face, the dark circles around her eyes, the sadness.
The green eyes I loved so much were gone—changed into the golden eyes of a Dark Caster.
What are you doing with me, Ethan?
I don’t know anymore.
Lena’s face fell for a second, but she caught herself. “You’ve been dying to get that out, haven’t you? Now you can run off with your little Mortal girlfriend guilt-free.” She said Mortal as if she could hardly stand to say the word. “I bet you can’t wait to hang out at the lake with her.” Lena was seething. Whole sections of ceiling were beginning to cave, where the chandelier had fallen.
Whatever pain she might have been feeling was totally eclipsed by her anger. “You’ll be back on the basketball team by the time school starts, and she can join the cheer squad. Emily and Savannah will love her.”
I heard a cracking sound, and another stretch of drywall smashed to the ground next to me.
My chest tightened. Lena was wrong, but I couldn’t help but think about how easy it would be to date a regular girl, a Mortal girl.
I always knew that’s what you wanted. Now you can have it.
Another crash. Now I was covered with the fine white dust of her fallen ceiling, broken chunks scattered on the floor around me.
She was fighting back tears.
That’s not what I meant, and you know it.
Do I? All I know is that it shouldn’t be so hard. Loving someone shouldn’t be so hard.
I never cared about that.
I felt her fading away, pushing me out of her mind and out of her heart. “You belong with someone like you, and I belong with someone like me, someone who understands what I’m going through. I’m not the same person I was a few months ago, but I guess we both know that.”
Why can’t you stop punishing yourself, Lena? It wasn’t your fault. You couldn’t have saved him.
You don’t know what you’re talking about.