“You won’t see past your own judgements.” I stand. I leave because if I stay, I will say something I’ll regret. Let her see too much of what matters to me.
I hear the splash of water as she climbs out. “You never tell me anything! What am I supposed to think?” she calls after me.
The protective part of me wants to turn around, pick up the towel and wrap it around her. Make sure she doesn’t slip on the surface in her bare feet. But no. I was walking away.
“Ravil, if you refuse to tell me the nature of your plans or the nature of your business, I must surmise it’s because they are illegal or incriminating. Am I wrong?”
I stop to make sure she has her robe on. She doesn’t.
I stride back, pick it up and hand it to her.
“What is your business, Ravil?” she demands.
“I told you, Lucy. Imports.”
“Smuggling.”
“Yes.”
“Smuggling what? Sex slaves?”
I draw back as if she slapped me. “What in the fuck would make you think that?”
She loses steam in the face of my anger. “I heard something.”
“About me?” I thunder. “My organization?” As if we’d ever be as low as fucking Leon Poval.
She swallows. “About the sofa factory.”
“Ah.” I can’t stand the bitter taste in my mouth. “Yes. That’s Adrian’s story to tell not mine.”
Her eyes widen.
Despite my piss-off, I’m still the fucking gentleman, so I escort her in and leave her in our room before I bark orders at Oleg to guard her door, and I head out of the building for a walk.
Lucy
Either I got everything wrong or Ravil is a really good gaslighter. He’s distant the next day although he still ensures all my needs are met, sending Valentina with my to-order breakfast.
He definitely made me feel like shit for suggesting he had anything to do with the sex trafficking. But he does know what it’s about. And apparently, so does Adrian.
I need to unravel the puzzle. I’ve scheduled the preliminary hearing for Adrian this week, so I’ll see him in court if not sooner.
To make matters worse, Gretchen calls and, feeling like I really need a friend, I pick up.
“Lucy! You’re on bed rest? Why didn’t you tell me? I’m flying out there tomorrow.”
Oh shit.
“No, no, no, no. I’m fine. Who told you about the bedrest?”
“I called your office since you’ve been so hard to reach lately.”
“Trust me, I’m totally fine. I feel great. I’m still working. I just have to do it from home. I don’t need you to come out. In fact, it would be a huge hassle if you did because I have a bunch of trials coming up, and I need to keep my nose to the grindstone.”
I guess I made my decision. No secret messages. No grand rescue from my best friend. Apparently, I’m sticking around willingly. Or semi-willingly.
“Well, so what happened?”
“I have preeclampsia. But it’s not serious. The doctor just wanted me to stay off my feet for the rest of the pregnancy.”
“She probably also wanted you to cut down on the stress. So why are you still working?”
“Ugh. Taking off time is not even close to an option. The partners are talking about opening a new slot for partner, and with me being out of the office, I feel like I have to work twice as hard to prove I’m still worth considering.”
“Let me just ask you this—devil’s advocate.”
I sigh. Lawyers are very big on playing devil’s advocate. “Okay.”
“If something happens to this baby because of your stress, will you really care whether you made partner or not?”
My neck tightens, and I try to rub the stiffness away. Thank God for Natasha and her daily visits. She’s going to earn her money today.
I consider Gretchen’s question. “Honestly? It’s hard to care about anything I used to care about right now.”
“Well, that’s understandable. A baby changes everything.”
A baby...and Ravil.
“Yeah, I suppose. What I don’t know is after I’ve given birth and my brain isn’t hormone-addled, if I’ll regret the choices I’m making now.”
“What choices?” Gretchen doesn’t miss my slip.
“I just mean, if I decide not to go for partner.” Or even...not to go back to work. As a single mother, that wouldn’t be an option, but Ravil’s loaded. Not that he’s offered for me to be a stay-at-home mom. But I suspect it’s on the table. Whenever we finally sit down and come to an arrangement.
Whenever I convince him to set me free.
“Well, let’s talk this through,” Gretchen says. “Being partner would mean more money, but it would also mean more pressure and longer hours. Is that what you want when you’re single-parenting a newborn?”
I rub my baby bump, and Benjamin kicks as if answering my touch.
“Maybe it’s time to coast a bit. Back off the hamster wheel of success.”
I close my eyes. “Maybe it is,” I admit.