Alphahole (Alphahole Roommates 1)

“Carly?”

She’s still thrashing.

“Carly?” I repeat, louder. It does nothing. I move closer. She’s got a face of agony and she’s whipping her head from side to side.

“No!”

I grab her by the shoulders. “Carly, baby, wake up.”

She gasps and bolts upright. Our foreheads crack together. I hiss.

She cries out and grabs her forehead. “Ow.”

“Fuck.” I’m rubbing my head. “You had a bad dream. You were havin’ a freak-out. You okay?”

The light in the ensuite bathroom is on, the door open a crack, so I can make out her face well enough, and she’s looking at me with her chest rising and falling. “Sorry. S-sorry.” She rubs her forehead some more.

“You were calling for me. What was the dream?” I reach out and rub my thumb along her forehead. She flinches so I let go and get off the bed, standing over it. I’m putting distance between us, because it’s obvious that’s what she wants.

“I… I don’t know.”

I stand there and stare at her for a minute. She’s bullshitting me.

“You freaked out about the stuff going missing?”

She nods, not looking at me.

“I’ll get to the bottom of it. Do my best to get your grandmother’s jewelry back.”

She nods. “I know. Thank you.”

“Okay, well, it’s four a.m., so … you okay?”

She nods yet again, still not making eye contact. “Sorry I woke you.”

She readjusts the blankets to cover up. I hesitate a second, thinking about apologizing for the bullshit I’ve put her through. Thinking maybe of telling her she makes me feel guilty after I act like a dick and I’m not used to that. I don’t know what the fuck I wanna say. I need to fuckin’ sleep some more. So, I go back to my room, leaving her door open, thinking it might make her feel less afraid. I leave my bedroom door open, too, and then I crawl back into bed.

33

CARLY

Yeah, Kieran definitely hates me. Kieran is also hot. And he’s an alpha male… an eyeroll-worthy combination at this stage of my life. More alpha males are definitely not what I need right now.

Though, Aiden? I can’t wrap my head around it, but he’s kind of…alpha without the hole right now. I’m sure the hole part will be back…I won’t get comfortable with this.

We got up and breakfast was made less awkward by the presence of Jada, Aiden’s very cute petite blonde haired and blue-eyed housekeeper who is about my age and has a raging crush on him. She’s shy and a little timid while being naturally pretty, though her clothes are sort of a-sexual and aren’t doing much for her. She seems efficient.

We ate bagels and fruit while she asked me what I want for dinner. I told her I was all about the exact type of food that was here last night.

She smiled. I can tell she wants to hate me. And I think she’s looking for reasons to do so, yet struggling. Probably because she’s not a bitch-faced cunt, just a little jealous that her boss has a woman in his apartment that’s not her.

She’s wondering if I’m into him. She’s looked for a ring on my finger. She’s also made it a point to go into the room I slept in, likely to see if the bed had been slept in. I’d already made the bed, but my stuff is all in there and it’s obvious I’ve used that bathroom too, with my stuff out on the vanity.

Aiden is distracted today so far. He’s texting a lot and then at eight o’clock we head down to Joshua’s black car. Kieran is already there in the back seat, eyeing me judgmentally. He’s got an Irish accent and he’s pompous AF, giving me total attitude

. He thinks I’m insignificant. He wants to be the significant one, so he’s trying to exude that air about himself, so I feel insignificant. I’m just gonna be me.

I’m excited about the conference and last night with Aiden was not as bad as it could have been, even if he did look at me funny this morning, asking me how I slept.