I told you! Kenny only thinks of me as a friend!
Right. You go right on telling yourself that. I’m just glad you finally stuck up for yourself where Michael is concerned. I like Michael, but it was wrong of him to lie to you about his sexual history. I think honesty is the most important thing in a relationship. And if Michael couldn’t be honest with you about something as basic as who he has been with before you, what chance did you two really have at anything long-term?
Wow! FINALLY someone who gets it! Maybe J.P. isn’t that bad after all. I mean, it’s true he dumped Lilly—and at SCHOOL, of all places.
But he seems to really have his priorities straight.
I just hope that you and I can still be friends. I wouldn’t want you to hold my breaking up with Lilly against me. I would hate for that to affect OUR friendship. Because I do consider you a close friend, Mia…one of the best I’ve ever had.
Oh my gosh! That is so sweet!
Thanks, J.P.! I think of you that way, as well. I can’t tell you how much it means to me that you’re on my side in all of this, and not Michael’s. So many boys WOULD take his side, I think. They just don’t seem to understand that your virginity is the most precious gift you have to give to your one true love. If you waste it on someone you don’t even care about, then you have nothing to give the person you DO care about when the time comes.
Exactly. That’s why I’ve hung on to mine.
!!!! J.P. is a virgin!!!!!
Wow. He and I really DO have a lot in common.
Also…this means that Tina is wrong: He and Lilly never Did It!!!!!!!!!!
I’m not going to tell Lilly I know the truth, though. She’s had enough disappointments for one day. I’ll let her have the fun of stringing me along for a bit longer. It’s the least I can do, considering it’s MY fault she and J.P. broke up.
I just really hope she never realizes this.
Friday, September 10, Precalc
Oh my God, oh my God, oh my God. Did what just happened really happen? Or did I just imagine it?
It CAN’T have happened. Because it’s too weird to actually have taken place.
Except…except I think it really did!
I’m going to throw up. I really am. Why did I eat that bacon cheeseburger for lunch?
My fingers are trembling so much I can barely write this…but I have to get it down somehow…okay, here goes:
Now I know what Michael meant when he said he was going to come by and try to explain. He meant he was going to come to ALBERT EINSTEIN HIGH SCHOOL.
And walk up to the door to seventh period Chemistry just as I was coming out with J.P. Only at first I didn’t notice him. Michael, I mean.
At least, not until after J.P.—who I’m sure hadn’t noticed Michael either—went, “Friends?” to me, and I said, “Of course!” and then he said, “Hug?”
And I was like, “Why not?” And gave him one.
And I was so—I don’t know. MOVED by how sad J.P. was, on account of breaking up with Lilly, and all—that the next thing I knew, I was KISSING J.P.
I only meant to kiss him on the cheek. But he moved his head. And so I ended up kissing him on the lips.
Not like French, or anything. And only for a second.
Still. I kissed him. On the lips.
It wouldn’t have been any big deal—I’m sure it wouldn’t—if it hadn’t been for the fact that when I took my arms down from around his neck and turned around—all embarrassed, because I HADN’T meant to kiss him. Or at least, not exactly—there was Michael.
Just standing there in the middle of the crowded hallway, looking stunned.
So many things went through my head when I turned around and saw Michael standing there, staring at me. Happiness, at first, because I’m always happy when I see Michael. Then pain, when I remembered what he did to me, and how we’re broken up now. Then bewilderment, over what on earth he was doing at a school he already graduated from.