“My man, don’t give this here another thought. It’ll all be waiting when you return, you know,” Jeremy told him.
“Yes. Thank you, sir. I am grateful for the time.” Paulson lowered his eyes, and the silence grew awkward. He shifted on his feet and spoke again. “I’ll be back to the office by the end of the week,” he said finally, lifting his eyes.
Jeremy could see the worry in them as plain as day. The ache of a man watching his wife slip away and helpless to stop the slide. The pain and fear of losing his mate. Love was such a cock-up, so cruel at times, he thought.
Jeremy rose from his desk abruptly and walked over to the coat rack. He took Paulson’s coat and hat down and walked them over to him. “Yes, yes, of course you will,” he said dismissively.
Paulson took his coat and hat, his head bent again.
“Now here, please take yourself home to Mrs. Paulson at once, and give her my very best wishes for a good outcome this trip,” Jeremy said more gently.
“I’ll tell her you said so, sir. She hasn’t forgot
ten your kindness from the last time.” Paulson hesitated just before he went out, pausing at the doorway to say something maybe, but then thought better of it. He dipped his head, donned his hat, and took his leave.
Gloom descended, cloaking the room instantly behind Paulson’s closing of the door. Jeremy sat back down at his desk and took stock of himself. He sat there in his office for a long time. He wasn’t feeling much joy at the moment, but his true troubles were scant compared to Paulson’s, and being sorry for oneself was disgustingly pathetic.
Making a decision, he got his own coat and made ready to go out. Dinner at his club would be a good place to start. And later? He’d just have to see how he felt then.
* * * *
Jeremy’s mood complemented the cold drizzle. London was comforting in its familiarity, and he hoped his activities tonight could help him to stop thinking about her.
The past month had been utter hell for him. And he couldn’t forget. Her face, her eyes, her scent, even visions of what had happened to her swam through his head constantly. Those visions were the worst of all. Imagining some beast violating her and then abandoning her injured on the heath, like a scrap of unwanted cloth, stained and ravaged. Ruining her for me.
What was she doing right now? Does she ever think of me? He certainly thought about her. Thoughts of Georgina Russell occupied all of Jeremy’s idle time. And much of the time he was supposed to devote to work or business. Tom told him that Georgina had always spoken fondly of him and that she liked him. I’d bet she doesn’t like me now.
The look of Georgina when she told him was something he would never forget as long as he lived. So beautiful and yet so ashamed. You left her behind, and she doesn’t want you.
In his suffering, Jeremy felt dreadful, but as a man, still had the baser needs to satisfy. Needs that he intended to meet this night with a real flesh-and-blood woman. It was time to move on without her, and this was the first step in making that happen.
His imagination and his hand around his cock could only take him so far, and were about as gratifying as thin gruel set down before a starved man.
The Velvet Swan, a high-class bordello in Covent Garden, would be his salvation. Jeremy didn’t come here often, but tonight when he’d left his club after dining, he had given the address to his driver. For no good reason it had seemed like the only place for him to go. As soon as Jeremy stepped in through the red door, he found himself greeted warmly by the abbess. Heavy perfumes and the smoke of tobacco pipes mixed with the earthy scents of all the swiving going on. Swiving, tupping, docking, shagging. By whatever term, it all meant the same—fucking. Plenty of souls were busy fucking in this house tonight, and Jeremy was here to do the same.
The abbess, Therese Blufette, was a woman to be admired for her beauty as much as for her skills in business. She had always treated him with a certain fondness that went beyond the typical client relationship, and he’d never understood why. He couldn’t be any different from the thousand others who spent their coin on flesh.
As he followed her into the salon, she looked pale and thin to him. Being French, she had that lovely darker complexion many European women favored and a fine figure still, for a woman of her more mature years. After he settled in with a drink, she approached him.
“Mr. Greymont, I am pleased you have come to see us. It’s been a long time.”
He tilted his head in acknowledgement. To be honest, he felt dead inside and wasn’t up for chatting nonsense with the abbess tonight, regardless of his admiration.
She seemed to sense his reticence though and got quickly to the point. “I wish to speak with you about a private matter, one I think you will have an interest. If you would be so kind to call for me once you’ve enjoyed the company of your companion, I would be ever grateful, sir.”
He raised an eyebrow and nodded once. She had piqued his interest, and he figured whatever she wished to tell him couldn’t be too ridiculous. She seemed an intelligent woman after all. “As you wish, Madame.”
Madame Blufette looked very relieved, some color suffusing her pale cheeks at his agreement. She thanked him graciously and left the room.
After she’d gone, Jeremy viewed the merchandise pragmatically, finding what he liked right away—that being hazel eyes paired with blonde hair. Bloody perfect…
Jeremy followed his alluring companion, who called herself Marguerite and spoke English with a sultry French accent, up the stairs.
Upon reaching the landing, he knew surprise to see a face he recognized, but had hoped never to see again. Off to the right with his back to him, Lord Pellton and another man, younger, but clearly sharing a physical likeness, were engaged in negotiation with Therese Blufette. Jeremy seized the opportunity to slip by unobtrusively and unnoticed.
A huge guard stood his post at the very end of the hallway. Thick, muscular arms folded over a wide chest the size of a tree trunk—a very old tree. Bordellos had to employ sergeant-at-arms sorts such as him in order to function. The merchandise was valuable and deserving of protection when badly behaved clientele got out of hand, which was often when strong drink mixed with stiff cods and a houseful of quim.
The guard eyed Jeremy directly, giving him the once-over as was his job. Jeremy offered a sharp nod, and the big man responded in kind.