Moses chuckles.
I wouldn’t worry about it.
Abraham is quiet for a while. He picks his teeth with the wood splinter and looks thoughtfully at the beams running across the roof of the stable.
What’re we doin this for, Mose? he asks. Really now.
It’s a mission, Moses says. We wanted a mission and we got one.
Abraham nods.
But let’s be clear on this, Abraham says. You were the one that wanted a mission. It was never me.
Moses nods.
Fair enough, he says. My mission, then.
Abraham considers a while longer.
All right then, he says finally. I’ll come along with you on your mission. It’s a brother’s duty, ain’t it?
*
And later, well past midnight when Moses cannot sleep, he rises from the crib and steals out of the stable to stand under the coal-black sky and listen to the shrill cricket-song stretched taut and incontrovertible over the desert.
He sits heavily on one of the picnic tables and folds his hands as though waiting politely for someone to bring him sustenance. His beard is dark and heavy.
Soon someone does come. It is the Vestal Amata, still dressed in her white robes, and she sits down across from him and looks into his eyes.
He has not been, for many years, the kind of man whom a woman approaches. It used to be different, long ago, before things changed. Then he was cleanshaven, tall but still lithe. He knew how to be playful. He knew how to juggle oranges found underneath a laden orange tree. Now he has forgotten much of who he was before. Now he stomps and rages and draws lines he dares people not to cross. He is a man of hard laws and hard action, a man sharpened on the grit of constant violence. He is a barbarian, he knows.
So he does not know what to make of a woman who approaches him alone in the middle of the night. He suspects again this Vestal – her slightly sneering mouth, her red hair, her eyes that do not look away in fright at the world and its barbaric things.
We’re taking you, he says to her. My brother and me. We’re settin out tomorrow.
Ignatius told me, says the Vestal.
She confronts him with her obstinate silence. He does not know whether he seeks refusal or gratefulness, but he finds that he has no gambit against the woman who does not reveal her game.
Sunrise, he says. Just after sunrise.
That’s fine, she says.
Colorado, he says. That’s where we’re goin. I don’t know if the friar told you. It’s a citadel.
He told me.
It’s in the mountains. It’ll be cold. Bring what you have. We’ll make room.
Fine.
We’ll keep you out of harm.
That’s fine.
She deflects his words easily and looks at him as though she is the one trying to unlock his secrets, as opposed to the other way around.
He stands and begins to walk away, but he can feel her eyes on his back – and large as he is, he feels delicate and frail.
Hey, she calls to him.
He stops and turns to face her but says nothing.
You and your brother, she says. Are you holy men too? Or just hired guns?
He is no expert of locution, but her words seem different now than they were earlier in the day. Perhaps she is a phantasm – her night form and her day form not the same.
But her question unsettles him. He does not know how to answer it. So he replies in kind.
How bout you? he asks. You an authentic miracle of God’s holy grace – or just a hoax?
She smiles at him now – and now all pretence of purity is gone. What replaces it in her expression is something conspiring and downright lascivious.
All right, Mosey, she says. Let’s get out of here and play for a while on the big checkerboard. Maybe we’ll both find out what’s what.
So he leaves her there, clad in her white robes, her red hair spilling lurid on her shoulders, her eyes like false gemstones – and, too, like a fluid and perverse treachery, her curving lips.
*
Though the sun is not yet risen before the commotion begins.
There is a man’s voice, loud – spitting and thick, as though the tongue were too big for the mouth.
We’ll burn it! the voice calls. We’ll burn the whole goddamn place to the ground!
Moses rises, kicks his brother awake and moves to the stable door to look out. There’s nothing to see except the parishioners gathering in fearful huddles around the courtyard. The voice, he realizes when he hears it again, is coming from outside the perimeter wall – at the front gate.
Open the goddamn doors! If she’s in there, we’re takin her. If she ain’t, we got no truck with you all. It can go quiet, or it can go rough. Your choice.
Then Ignatius is there, dashing around the corner of the building with the Vestal Amata in tow. The expression on the woman’s face is equal parts fear and anger.
I ain’t goin back with them, she says under her breath. Ignatius doesn’t seem to hear her, and the words are directed to no one in particular. It is a personal vow to herself and nothing more.
It’s the man Fletcher, Ignatius says to Moses. He’s back. The whole carnival of them. You have to go now. Leave by the back.
Abe, let’s go, Moses says, gathering his satchel and weapons. Show us where to go, he says to Ignatius.
The monk gestures for them to follow and leads them around the chapel itself to a place where barrels are stacked against the back wall and can be climbed upon. Moses goes up first until he can see over the top of the wall. It’s clear.
Don’t worry about us, Ignatius says to reassure them. They won’t bother us if she’s not here.
It did not occur to him, until the monk Ignatius uttered this last, that he should be concerned about defending the residents of the mission. He did not think of it at all.
And so it is that he is no hero by nature. And for what cause, then, is he a warrior?
Hand her up, Moses says to his brother. His brother lifts the Vestal Amata into his arms, and Moses hoists her to the top of the wall. Then he tosses his satchel over the back and turns to leap down himself. But before he goes, he looks back over the mission. On the opposite side there’s a glow against the sky, the front of the structure illuminated by the headlights of Fletcher’s convoy. It is eerie, the blaze and fracas at the intersection of people’s lives.
He turns and looks down on Ignatius.
I’ll protect her, he says to the monk. But I ain’t a good man. You understand that?
It doesn’t matter, the monk replies. Partly strong, partly broken. It’s the same with everything. Just go.
And they do.
*
Moses drops down on the other side of the wall then helps the Vestal Amata to the ground. Abraham comes last, leaping down with a yee-ha like a cowboy and tumbling in the weeds. He wears a mad smile on his face, as though there is no difference in his economy between fear and frolic. He stands and dusts off his hands.