As I cleaned up the kitchen, I thought about Shirley Chan trying to make sense of her late husband’s behavior, wondering what he had done and why he had done it, and what would become of her family now.
I was having some of those feelings, but my husband was alive. He could speak to me. And he would.
While the dishwasher did the dirty work, I booted up my laptop and downloaded the camera van’s street view to my PC. I had to see Joe staring into the camera’s eye again.
And there he was.
Big, handsome, looking into the lens like he was a movie star and this was his close-up. After he moved on, I sped through the rest of the footage and saw nothing out of the ordinary. No one slunk through the bushes. Apart from Joe’s Mercedes, no one slowed down in front of the Chan house or sped past it. Not even a stray cat raced across the road.
I calmed myself, and then I called Joe. I imagined his voice nearly drowned out by the sounds of an airliner taking off behind him, and my tremendous relief that I’d been wrong.
But no. I got a digital voice saying that Joe’s mailbox was full, good-bye.
I took a therapeutic shower, toweled off hard, and slipped into a nightgown. I went to Julie’s room. Her diaper was dry and she was sleeping soundly, so I sat in the rocker and stared out the window onto Lake Street.
When I next saw Joe, I would just ask him, Why were you in Palo Alto? Why did you lie to me?
I went to bed, and when Julie’s cries woke me, it was 6:15. I turned my head, absolutely sure that Joe would be sleeping next to me.
But the spot on my left was empty and cold.
I touched that empty place anyway and felt my resolve shatter and tears leap out of my eyes.
Where was Joe?
Why wasn’t he home?
CHAPTER 16
MRS. ROSE ARRIVED at 7 a.m., cheerful and rosy.
While I made breakfast for Julie and fed her, Mrs. Rose scrambled some eggs for me. She talked about her grandchildren in North Carolina while I combed Julie’s hair and played patty-cake with her, and once the baby was laughing, I handed her off, strapped on my gun, pulled on my Windbreaker, and said good-bye.
As I made my twenty-minute drive to work, I was in the grip of ugly feelings. My lying liar of a husband had lied. And yet, as furious as I was, I was even more terrified, because he hadn’t called me and hadn’t come home. Was he hurt? Was he dead?
I didn’t even know the names of the people Joe worked for, that’s how wrapped up I’d been in the Job over the last crazy months.
And that made me mad at myself.
Roaring mad.
By the time I parked my car, I was more of a mess than I wanted anyone to see. I entered the Hall from the rear and immediately ran into Jacobi in the lobby. My old partner, friend, and now chief of police knew the workings of my mind almost better than I knew them myself.
“What is it, Boxer? What’s eating you?”
“Just deep in thought. The Four Seasons case.” That was the half of the story I was willing to tell him.
Jacobi said he was assigning a couple of teams to work with me on the hotel murders.
I said thanks, gave him a weak wave, then headed up the stairs to Homicide.
Conklin was at his desk.
When he looked up, I said, “I screened the video from our van on the street.”
“And?”
“I hope you’re going to tell me I’m crazy.”