Good-bye, my love.
Fang
P.S. Tell everyone I sure will miss them.
We were all silent. The letter was wet with my tears, making some of the words run. Fang was usually, well, reserved is a nice word for it. But this letter had poured out a lifetime’s worth of love. I felt numb, like someone had just whapped my head hard.
“I can’t believe it,” said Gazzy. “That butthead,” said Iggy.
“This is my fault,” said Angel, her shoulders hunching with sobs.
“No,” I told her. “You’ve done a lot of asinine things, but this is not your fault.”
I felt very old and very tired. Total and Akila’s wedding seemed as if it had happened a year ago. Nudge put her head on my shoulder. I set the letter down and put my arms around her.
Tears were dripping onto my dress, but I wasn’t making any sound. There was no sound that could express this kind of pain.
I didn’t want to move, didn’t want to do anything. Fang was not waiting for me out in the living room. Tomorrow morning, when I woke up, Fang would still be gone.
I feel like I’m going to HURL. Which, even if I wanted to do, I couldn’t do, because I haven’t eaten. I can’t even drag myself out of my room. And while I’d be able to muster the strength to roundhouse Fang until he begged for MERCY, I’d be mush around an Eraser. In fact, all I want to flipping do is lie on this bed with
our old laptop and catch up on my Hulu. Apparently, being heartbroken is not leverage enough to get Nudge to give up the NEW computer, so I’m stuck with the old laptop.
But what to my wondering eyes should appear, the very moment I turn the thing on?
What did that stupid deserting crap-bag ex-boyfriend, ex-best friend with the most perfect stupid hair do? He DIDN’T delete his crap off the desktop before he fled my life and left me all alone. That’s what he did.
Do I open it?
Do I open it?
Of course I freaking open it!!!!!!
MaxProCon.doc
MAX
Pro
Con
Good leader
Drill sergeant
Could possibly kill anyone/thing with bare hands
Could possibly kill me with bare hands
Can save the world
Has to save the world
Pretty
Doesn’t shower
Smart