couldn’t even be thankful
enough to look after you
right. They took you away….
I want to shout, “No, you
shoved me away!” Instead
I say, “You’re selfish, Dad.”
He shakes his head, smoke
escaping side to side from
the corners of his mouth.
Not always. Nope. At first
it was all about your mother.
I loved her. God. Never love
someone that much, because
you’re sure to end up hurt.
I would have married her.
Would have raised up your
sister like my own. Would
have raised you better….
This is the most he’s ever
spoken to me at one time.
Ever. “So what happened?”
When she got pregnant with
you, I told her all that, begged
her to give up the crystal.
To be fair, she tried to clean
up. For you. Tried and mostly
failed. Meth is a mean mother
monster. But even if she could
have given it up, the fact is
she loved Trey more than she