Fallout (Crank 3)

Hair appointment. Studio

portrait. More shopping.

I wish I could be excited

about it. But all I want to do

is hole up in my room with a little

borrowed liquor and think

about ways to be with Bryce.

It wasn’t so hard when school

was still in. But this week

will offer many challenges

as far as spending time

together. Sneaking out

when Grandfather passes

out is the only way I know.

PILFERING BOOZE

Sneaking out.

Hooking up with

Bryce for sex.

I can’t believe this

is me I’m talking

about. It’s like I’m

on a runaway train.

I want to jump off

but it’s not slowing

down and taking

that leap would

kill me for sure.

And the wonderful

irony is I used to

think about dying.