myself, try and figure out why
I would so willingly sabotage
a relationship that means everything
to me. What am I, fucking stupid?
Okay, I am totally fricking stupid.
Here I thought I was using Leah, and
she totally used me. Set me up
completely. When she programmed
her number into my phone, she also
called herself, so she’d have my
number too. Like I said. Stupid.
And now I’m mad all over again.
At her. At myself. I get up, kiss
Mom on the forehead. “Let’s finish
those cookies.” Mindless activity,
that’s what I need. Maybe by not
thinking at all, my brain will come up
with a way to get Nikki to forgive me.
COOKIES IN THE OVEN
>
Mindless
activity finished for now,
my brain has failed me completely.
Dad and Donald are in the front
hall, shaking snow off their boots,
hats. Almost unbelievably, Donald
is laughing. A new wall goes up.
Jealousy.
Weird. Really, really weird. Why
do I feel that way? Maybe because