And the biggest
of them all: No
“Who are you really,
and do I love
that person too?”
I KNEW HE WAS USING
He never tried to hide it. In fact,
offered to share. But even if he
hadn’t been honest about it,
his mood swings were obvious.
I just never realized how big
a part of his life it was. Not
sure why I didn’t see it. Guess
when you choose to be blind,
you really are. Don’t think it
would have changed a thing,
had I known. And now, seeing
him fight his demons for me,
I love him all the more. Even
if he is a complete grouch.
It’s the nature of the crash.
Better now than years down
the line. I never got into
it that much, he swore.
But without you, who knows
where I might be tomorrow?
HOPEFULLY, BY TOMORROW
We’ll be in a hotel room
in Mammoth, reward enough for
a week sleeping cold in a pickup truck.