Fallout (Crank 3)

And the biggest

of them all: No

“Who are you really,

and do I love

that person too?”

I KNEW HE WAS USING

He never tried to hide it. In fact,

offered to share. But even if he

hadn’t been honest about it,

his mood swings were obvious.

I just never realized how big

a part of his life it was. Not

sure why I didn’t see it. Guess

when you choose to be blind,

you really are. Don’t think it

would have changed a thing,

had I known. And now, seeing

him fight his demons for me,

I love him all the more. Even

if he is a complete grouch.

It’s the nature of the crash.

Better now than years down

the line. I never got into

it that much, he swore.

But without you, who knows

where I might be tomorrow?

HOPEFULLY, BY TOMORROW

We’ll be in a hotel room

in Mammoth, reward enough for

a week sleeping cold in a pickup truck.