Friend-Zoned (Friend-Zoned 1)

I want his kisses. I want it to happen again and again. I want more with Nik. I want his love. I don’t think I’d ever get enough of him. Or maybe I just think that because I wanted him to be the one for me. The one who helps me get passed my fears.

Let it go.

“So, are we still invited to Poker night?” I ask and wiggle my brows at him in a fake display of composure.

He smiles softly, “Yeah. Wouldn’t be the same without you. ”

Huzzah! Friends are we!

***

Wednesday night I invited the girls over for a girl’s night at my apartment.

I baked caramel mud cupcakes with fudge sauce in the middle. These are Mimi’s all-time favorite.

I only have the one sofa so we spend it under the covers of my king sized bed.

Me and Nat on one side of the mattress, Lola and Meems on the other with Bear accepting cuddles and pats from all sides smack dab in the middle.

Mimi starts the questioning as soon as we’re in bed. “Okay. I’m bringing something up that I know we are all curious about. ” She looks right at me. “What’s the deal with you and Nik?”

I chew my tongue for a second. I don’t know what to tell them. I decide honesty is the best choice. I scratch the side of my neck, look down and tell them, “I thought Nik might be the one. ”

I hear multiple gasps. I look up and see three pairs of wide eyes and open mouths gaping like fishes out of water.

I giggle.

Lola chides, “How can you laugh at a time like this?!”

Nat speaks softly, “That’s great, babe. He’s totally into you. Go for it. ” She smiles.

When I make a scoffing sound she scowls at me and says, “What’s that all about?”

I play with the cover of my quilt and assure them, “He’s not into me. Not even a little. ”

The girls all look at each other and burst into hysterical laughter.

I feel myself becoming flushed. I like people laughing with me but I don’t like being laughed at.

I steel my voice and growl, “Don’t laugh at me. ”

Nat immediately stops laughing and responds, “I’m sorry honey, we aren’t laughing at you. You’re just so sweet you can’t even see Nik is head over heels for you. ”

Lola smiles and confirms, “He is Tina. You should see him. When you’re in a room he doesn’t even pay attention to anyone else. ”

Mimi nudges my foot with hers and swears, “Yeah, doll, he loves being wrapped up in all that is Tina. In a big way. ”

I throw my head back on my pillow and blurt, “Oh yeah, so into me he kisses me then tries to escape. Then avoids me for three days? Then re-appears sweeter than ever! God, Nik, you suck!”

The silence goes on a long while before I hear someone clear their throat.

Mimi whispers, “He kissed you on Saturday night?”

Lola squeals ,“I knew it! See, he likes you Teeny!”

Nat squawks, “Where the hell was I?”

I sigh deeply, “Yes. He kissed me in his office. He backed me up into a wall and kissed the heck out of me. And grabbed my ass. And my boob. And I really liked it. ” I end on a whine.