I’m confused.
I ask, “What do you mean, honey?”
He answers on a squeeze. “Omarr. He’s my problem, not yours. I’ll fix it. I promise. ”
Sweet Lincoln’s Mullet!
Nik blames himself for yesterday. I know Bear’s death is Omarr’s doing. No one needed to tell me that. But still, no one will tell me how and, quite frankly, I’m okay with that. Some things are better left not knowing.
I pull back a little and hold his face in my hands. I say, “It’s not your fault, honey. Don’t think that, not for a second. Omarr killed Bear. Not you. He is a psychopath. Again, not your fault. He can spend his life blaming the way he is on his brother’s death but that only makes him a weak person. Not. Your. Fault. Got it?”
I see emotion flicker over his face. He puts his lips on mine and whispers against them, “God, I love you. ” Then he kisses me deeply. I wrap my arms around his neck and stand on my tiptoes.
I pull away from the kiss and bury my face in his neck. I breathe him in.
As long as I have Nik, nothing will ever seem that bad.
I whisper into his neck, “You make life better. ”
His body stills a moment before he squeezes me.
I turn and walk without looking back.
Time for work.
***
You make life better.
Whoa.
If there ever was a compliment to beat all compliments, it would be that.
Sneaking into Tina’s apartment last night was a dumb idea. I didn’t think it through. But I spent most of the night tossing and turning. I couldn’t stop thinking about her. I kept wondering if she was okay or what if she felt uncomfortable sleeping there after what happened.
I made the quick decision to call a cab and head on over. I used my spare key and typed in the security code. It went haywire when I kissed Nat’s forehead thinking she was Tina.
All hell breaks loose.
Nat starts screaming. Tina jumps up onto the bed like she’s Bruce Lee then throws herself on my back and starts choking me.
Yeah, not good.
Thank god Nat turned on the light otherwise I might’ve passed out. I could feel Tina shaking against me but she had me in a tight grip. Adrenaline gives people strength they didn’t know they had. I didn’t want to hurt her so I just let her choke me. I’m surprised I’m not purple this morning.
Then Nat refuses to leave and we had some weird sleepover in Tina’s bed which is luckily a king. Just when I’m about to fall asleep, Tina bursts out laughing.
I couldn’t help but laugh, too. Then Nat joined in. The whole thing was pretty amusing, though.
Weird sleepover aside, I’m glad I was close to Tina last night. As soon as we settled in bed, I felt calm wash over me. If I’m being completely truthful, I’m glad Nat was there too. Because if I were Tina, having two people I love in bed with me after a bad night would have made me feel a whole lot better.
I’ve decided not to do anything stupid regarding Omarr. Killing him will bring up a bunch of questions by the Sixes and I’m sure Tina would know. I don’t want her to ever feel unsafe around me. I’m her protector.
I’ll have to set up a meet with Uncle Jerm and work this out the right way. But I swear to god, if that asshole comes near my girl again I don’t know if I’ll be able to control myself.
I think I’ll have to talk to Tina about her kamikaze defense methods.
And that damn clown car. One day, she’ll start to open the door and it’ll take off without her.