“You’ve got three,” I corrected. She was dating—a very bland term for what she had going—Porter’s cousin, Gus Duke, as well as two other guys, Kemp and Poe.
“You’ve been up front with them all along that you were interested in both of them. It’s not like anyone can get away with dating two men at the same time on the sly in a town the size of Raines without them hearing about it.”
I was dating Porter Duke and Liam Hogan, the new sheriff of Raines County. Right from the start, I’d told them I wanted to keep things casual. Not exclusive. Well, I was exclusively dating the two of them, but not together. I’d been interested in being with both of them all along, together, but had no idea how to tell them that. I still didn’t, but tonight I was doing it anyway.
I really liked them. No, I’d fallen. Hard. Not just for Porter or Liam, but for Porter and Liam.
“I work too much to do anything but take it slow,” I told her. I was a nurse and worked full-time at the hospital. Three twelve-hour shifts in the recovery room at the beginning of the week, then I co-shared a job at a doctor’s office with a woman who’d just had a baby and wanted to cut back to part-time. It worked for both of us to split the full-time position, so I worked there Thursdays and Fridays. Dr. Metzger was a sweetheart and had talked to me about continuing my nursing education, but that wasn’t going to happen. I didn’t have time for that, not much free time for anything beyond sleeping in, doing laundry and errands. Especially not tons of time for a boyfriend… or two.
I had the hots for Porter and Liam—to put the feelings I had mildly—and I’d wanted to get to know both of them. They’d been receptive to fun, easy dates and the fact that I was going out with the other. Over the past few months, we’d gone, separately, to dinner, hiking, even bowling. Both were charming, smart, successful men—sexy, too—and I wanted both. Everything we did only confirmed that. Parker and her men proved that I could have both Porter and Liam, that my heart didn’t have to settle. And she wasn’t the only one. Ava, who ran the Seed and Feed, was engaged to Colton Ridge and Tucker Duke, another one of Porter’s cousins. Two men.
“Honey, glaciers move faster than you do,” Parker added.
I frowned at her words, although she couldn’t see me. We’d been friends growing up, but had lost touch over the years. She’d moved back to town a few months ago to be the temporary sheriff and we’d reconnected. The fact that she’d been Liam’s boss for a few months before he was elected into the position, and the fact that she was also dating a Duke herself, made her think she was an expert on my love life.
“It’s one thing to casually date two guys at once, but I draw the line at sleeping with them at the same time,” I replied.
“Unless it literally is at the same time.”
My body heated at the idea of being the filling
of a Liam and Porter sandwich. I’d fantasized about it, touched myself and climaxed at the mental picture of being in bed with the two virile men. Even did some discreet online shopping for some butt plugs to see what it would be like. What would it be like fucking two men at the same time, one in my pussy, the other in my ass? One dark, the other fair. Big hands meant big dicks, and I squirmed in my seat hoping I’d get to confirm that with them. Hopefully tonight.
“Exactly. So that’s why we’re meeting at Cassidy’s, to tell them that I want to be with them. Together. Enough with casual dating.”
“Good, because there’s no doubt those two have blue balls.”
“You’re worried about them? What about me? Have you seen those guys? I’ve been dating two hotties and haven’t gotten more than kissed.”
“That’s your own making,” she countered. “If you’d talked to them about this weeks ago, there’s no doubt in my mind you’d have gotten both of them in your bed by now.”
I made a funny whimpering sound. A mixture of worry, horniness and agreement. But I still doubted, still worried they’d laugh when I told them the truth. I wasn’t used to men committing. My dad had bolted when I was a kid, leaving my mom high and dry to raise two kids on her own in a small town with limited job opportunities. My brother was turning out to be just like him: selfish and irresponsible. Relying on men wasn’t something I did. Perhaps that was why it had taken me this long to even attempt to tell Porter and Liam what I wanted. It was easier not to have them in my life, but they weren’t anything like men I knew. They were… good. Gentlemen through and through.
But if they left like my dad… it would destroy me.
Parker laughed. “Fix it. I’ve seen the way they look at you. They are into you. Seriously. Give your vibrator a break and go for the real thing. Times two.”
Times two sounded fabulous. I’d never been with two guys before. My technique in bed was pretty much limited to missionary and a few other non-Kama Sutra positions. And orgasms? I might have been with a guy or two, but it took a little clit play on my part to get off. Taking on two dicks at once was well beyond my experience level. Just because I hadn’t tons of experience didn’t mean I didn’t fantasize about more… didn’t read about it in steamy books. But I wanted to go for it anyway. With Porter Duke and Liam Hogan. I wanted it all with them.
With the engine off, it was getting cold fast, but thoughts of being with those two kept me warm. Kissing them had been thrilling enough. And that had been on the mouth. What could they do to other places on my body? At the same time?
Glancing out the window again, I saw Porter walking toward me down the sidewalk. My heart skipped a beat at the sight of him. Big, like block-out-the-sun kind of big. Unlike his cousin, Duke, who was similarly sized and went into the pro rodeo circuit, Porter had gotten a football scholarship to college. He might have left those linebacker days behind him when he graduated and went to law school, but he hadn’t lost the size. He didn’t wear a coat, even on the coldest of nights, saying he was built like a furnace and never needed one.
His dark hair peeked out from beneath his cowboy hat. He saw me and smiled and even from a distance, I could see his dimple.
God, I had it bad. Really bad. I’d never felt like this for anyone else… besides Liam. I’d never been in love before, but it felt a whole lot like it. I had a feeling he was right there with me because the way he looked at me, the way he talked to me… I just wanted to lean into him and hold on, let him take care of me. He wanted more of a commitment than I’d been willing to give, until now. Not that I was a wait-for-marriage kind of gal, because I wasn’t, but I’d needed to be sure.
Glancing in the rearview mirror, I saw Liam Hogan coming down the sidewalk from the other direction. God, my heart clenched at the sight of him as well. Laid back and easygoing, the blond had a quick smile and a generous nature. Protective as could be. And he was horrible at bowling. He also had pale eyes that looked at me with such heat that it ruined my panties. And a man in uniform? I was a goner. I loved him, too. God, I did. I wanted to climb in his lap and never get up.
But since I’d been dating both men, I refused to do more than kiss either of them, but when the chemistry was off the charts, it had been soooo hard. It wouldn’t be fair to do more with either one and it would feel like cheating. I didn’t want to string them along, but I wanted both of them. And tonight, things had to change. No more dating. No more casual.
The men stopped in front of my car, stood shoulder to shoulder and looked at me. I gulped. This was the first time I’d seen them together. They were big, strong guys and they both wanted me. Hopefully, after our little chat, they would continue to do so. I pushed all thoughts of my pain-in-the-ass brother out of my mind.
This was it. I bit my bottom lip to stifle a silly giggle. Two men. I wanted both of them. At the same time. And it was time to tell them.
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