"Good. I'm listening."
He listened for hours that day. And more hours, more days. Peter poured out everything. The political struggles. The wars. The negotiations. The essays on the nets. Building up intelligence networks. Seizing opportunities. Finding worthwhile allies.
It wasn't until near the end of their last session that Peter dredged up memories of when Ender was a baby. "I really loved you. Kept begging Mom to let me feed you. Change you. Play with you. I thought you were the best thing that ever existed. But then I noticed. I'd be playing with you and have you laughing and then Valentine would walk into the room and you'd just rivet on her. I didn't exist anymore.
"She was luminous, of course you reacted that way. Everybody did. I did. But at the same time, I was just a kid. I saw it as, Ender loves Valentine more than me. And when I realized you were born because they regarded me as a failure--the Battle School people, I mean--it was just one more resentment. That doesn't excuse anything. I didn't have to be a bastard about it. I'm just telling you, I realize now that's where it started."
"OK," said Ender.
"I'm sorry," said Peter. "That I wasn't better to you as a kid. Because, see, my whole life, all the things I've told you about in all these incredibly expensive conversations, I would find myself thinking, that was OK. I did OK that time. Ender would like that I did that."
"Please don't tell me you did it all for me."
"Are you kidding? I did it because I'm
as competitive a marubo as ever was born on this planet. But my standard of judgment was: Ender would like that I did that."
Ender didn't answer.
"Aw, hell, kid. It's way simpler than that. What you did by the time you were twelve made my whole life's work possible."
"Well, Peter, what you did while I was voyaging, that's what made my...victory worth winning."
"What a family Mr. and Mrs. Wiggin had."
"I'm glad we talked, Peter."
"Me too."
"I think I can write about you."
"I hope so."
"Even if I can't, though, it doesn't mean I wasn't glad. To find out who you grew up to be."
"Wish I could be there," said Peter, "to see who you grow up to be."
"I'm never going to grow up, Peter," said Ender. "I'm frozen in history. Forever twelve. You had a good life, Peter. Give Petra my love. Tell her I miss her. And the others. But especially her. You got the best of us, Peter."
At that moment, Peter almost told him about Bean and his three children, flying through space somewhere, waiting for a cure that didn't look very promising now.
But then he realized that he couldn't. The story wasn't his to tell. If Ender wrote about it, then people would start looking for Bean. Somebody might try to contact him. Someone might call him home. And then his voyage would have been for nothing. His sacrifice. His Satyagraha.
They never spoke again.
Peter lived for some time after that, despite his weak heart. Hoping the whole time that Ender might write the book he wanted. But when he died, the book was still unwritten.
So it was Petra who read the short biography called, simply, The Hegemon, and signed Speaker for the Dead.
She wept all day after reading it.
She read it aloud at Peter's grave, stopping whenever any passersby came near. Until she realized that they were coming in order to hear her reading. So she invited them over and read it aloud again, from the beginning.
The book wasn't long, but there was power in it. To Petra, it was everything Peter had wanted it to be. It put a period on his life. The harm and the good. The wars and the peace. The lies and the truth. The manipulation and the liberty.
The Hegemon was a companion piece, really, to The Hive Queen. The one book was the story of an entire species; and so was the other.
But to Petra, it was the story of the man who had shaped her life more than any other.