Dissipate

Why didn’t this thing come with a manual?

If I got it wrong, I’d die of embarrassment, but I’d live. My face heated at what I was doing. It would be obvious I wanted more. Maybe that was the point. I took off my bra, slipping it underneath the spaghetti straps. The green enriched my pale skin.

There was a knock.

“Is everything okay in there, sweetheart?”

The pulse of my heart reverberated through my entire body. I swallowed hard, trying to squelch the excited nervousness that overtook me when I heard Aiden’s voice. “Yes, yes, I’m okay. I’ll be right out.”

Taking a brush through my hair, I tried to make myself look presentable. I changed out my cotton panties for green elegant matching ones. With a fortifying breath, I opened the door and took a step outside. In case Aiden didn’t like it, I kept my eyes cast slightly downward. Coming out here, like this, took courage. But, it also helped give me confidence.

I heard his breath catch and I glanced toward Aiden. Wearing a white cotton T-shirt and black lounge pants, he muttered, “Oh, fuck. I—you—”

Not being able to finish, Aiden came up to me. He brought his hands to my face and kissed me. I pressed myself against him as the need to be with him—in every possible way—intensified. Between my legs, a quiver began.

As the kiss slowed, Aiden’s tongue languorously explored my mouth. He pulled back. “You’re beautiful. I couldn’t think and had to touch you.”

“Aiden.” My voice came out breathless, needy, wanting.

His thumb stroked my lower lip. “Yes, sweetheart?”

Here I go. I was about to put it all out there. “I want more. I’m ready for more.”

“How much more?”

Not breaking eye contact and grabbing both of his hands, I answered, “I want to give myself to you—completely.”

He crushed his mouth to mine again as we walked backward. Reaching the bed, Aiden picked me up and laid me down. The covers had already been turned down upon our arrival. The mattress wrapped around my body as if I was on a cloud. As he trailed a finger down the middle of my body, I arched my back.

“I’ll be right back.”

Frustration wanted to bubble to the surface as I fought the urge to scream for him to come back, but I remained outwardly calm. I was about to have him inside me. It terrified and electrified me at the same time.

Lying on the bed, I watched Aiden ruffle through his bag. He produced a condom. With deliberate slow steps, Aiden came back to me. “Kenzie, before we start, know that you can stop this at any time. I don’t care what we’re doing. You say stop, it stops.”

“I know. I want this, Aiden. I—” I’d nearly slipped and told him how I truly felt about him.

I’d read online that confessing your love too soon could spook a guy off. It felt right to say it, but I was in uncharted waters. Love was something that I knew little about, but I felt it within me. Like any emotion, it wasn’t tied to an age. Maturity gave us perspective. But raw feelings knew when to make themselves known.

Making it back to the bed, Aiden hovered on top of me and teased me with his mouth. With one hand, he inched up my dress and touched my damp panties. “You’re going to kill me, Kenzie. I want you so bad.”

“I want you too. Touch me.”

My core was used to feeling Aiden’s expert fingers as he dipped inside me. Each and every time it was amazing as he touched a spot that had my insides clenching with anticipation. The massaging became quicker and I felt the familiar build I had become accustomed to.

Aiden continued to trail kisses down my neck. When he made it to the top of the dress, he nudged the cup covering my breast aside. As he took my nipple into his mouth, my body lifted off the mattress as I let the orgasm overtake me. Continuing to stretch me farther than I had been before, I laid boneless on the bed at his mercy. I felt his fingers trace the top part of my panties, then they slid down my legs, achingly slow. More desire bloomed within me. Our eyes locked. It was like a fire crackling between us as my panties came off completely.

I’d never been bare to him before. “You are absolutely perfect, Kenzie.”

His words had me sitting up and taking off the dress, discarding it to the side. Here I was, naked, before him. Aiden’s hands roamed over my flesh, leaving goose bumps in their wake. Taking off his shirt, I ran my hands along his abs. Any time I touched him there, his muscles would quiver.

I swallowed as I watched Aiden take off his lounge pants and boxers. He sprang free. The anatomy pictures did not do him justice and I was still in awe after seeing him several times. Per my research, despite his dick’s size, I knew it would fit. I hoped my research was right. I reached out, my thumb stroking the tip of him and was rewarded with a quick intake of breath.

Repeating his words, but meaning it to him this time, I said, “You are absolutely perfect.”

Aiden laid me back down. Our bare skin touched each other. My body was alive and aware of every touch Aiden gave me. “Kenzie, when I push inside, it’s going to hurt. I’ll take it slow. If it gets to be too much, tell me. I’ll stop. You’re tight and my dick is going to stretch you more.”

“Please, Aiden.”