The whole goddamn house could fall on me.
“Mom!”
But wait…she’s not here. She’s away, remember? Relief flooded me as I reached the second floor landing. She’s not here.
I dived into my bedroom, the pungent stench of the smoke filling my lungs as I went straight for my walk-in closet. I fell to my knees, coughing, as I rummaged in the corner for a box.
Water dripped on my back from the doused clothes hanging above me. The fire had been in here, too. Please, no.
I flipped off the top of a box and dug in, my hand wrapping around another hard wooden box, this one smaller. I pulled it out.
Water immediately spilled out of its corner.
My heart broke. No.
Wrapping my arms around it, I hugged it to my chest and hunched over, sobbing. It was ruined.
“Stand up.”
I heard Michael’s voice behind me, but I didn’t want to move.
“Rika,” he urged again.
I raised my head again, trying to force in deep breaths, but all of a sudden dizz
iness wracked though me, and I couldn’t breathe. The air was too thick.
I should’ve taken the box with me. It was stupid to leave it here. I thought I was trying to be strong, letting the past go and leaving it behind. I should never have left without it.
I opened my eyes, barely seeing anything through the blur.
Why was Michael here? He’d been here when I got here, which meant he’d found out about the fire before I had.
Slowly, all the control I’d fought to assume over my life was getting taken away from me. Being duped into living at Delcour, finding Will and Damon in my class, the constant threat of his friends hanging over my head, and then there was Michael. I had no control around him.
And now my house?
A weight sat on my chest, and I drew in hard, shallow breaths as I looked up at him. “Where is my mother? Why can’t I reach her?”
Holding his eyes, I started coughing again, the air like poison every time I tried to take a breath.
“We need to get out of here.” He reached down and pulled me up, knowing that the smoke was getting to me. “We’ll come back tomorrow after the fire department’s assessed the damage and made sure it’s safe. We’ll stay at my parents’ house tonight.”
A lump stretched my throat, but I didn’t even have the energy to swallow it down. I squeezed the box to my chest, wanting to sink away.
I didn’t fight as we left the room. I didn’t fight when he put me in his car or when I saw him pass his parents’ house and take me into town.
I couldn’t fight him tonight.
“ARE THOSE THE MATCHES YOU TOLD ME ABOUT?” he asked, gesturing with his chin to the box on the table. “The ones your father collected from his trips?”
I dropped my eyes, seeing the damp wood of the cigar box and nodded. I was still too deflated to say anything.
After we’d left the firefighters to keep working at the house, he hadn’t taken us back to his parents’ place. He’d driven into town and stopped at Sticks, and even though I didn’t want to see anybody, I welcomed a drink.
I followed him in, and thankfully, he hid us in a booth and ordered us a couple of beers. The waitress gave me a quick glance, knowing I wasn’t twenty-one, but she wouldn’t argue with him.
No one ever did.