Sink my teeth into my lower lip.
I've never.
I mean, I've thought about it. Fuck, how I've thought about it.
But I've never...
What if I can't...
His hand comes down hard on my ass. It stings. I feel the slap in my sex. In my nipples. In my fingers and toes.
Fuck, that hurts so good.
He does it again.
Again.
I cry out. It's not a word. It's a yes and a no. A please and please make this stop. And then just a please.
He spanks me again.
"Brendon," I breathe. "Please."
"Tell me you need this, angel."
"I do. Please."
"Tell me why."
"I ruined everything. Us. Em. Just... everything."
"No."
"No?" Anything but no.
He traces the line of my thong over my ass, my sex, my clit, my pelvis, then back again. "Tell me exactly."
"You told me no. That this couldn't happen. But I begged you."
He brings his hand into the air then brings it down hard on my ass. "No, Kay. Tell me how it really happened."
"But it did. You did, and I did, and—"
He spanks me again. Harder this time. Hard enough it hurts as much as it feels good.
"I..." I'm not sure what I'm asking for. Only that he'll give it to me.
"I wanted you. I was desperate for you. I still am. This is on me too."
"Oh. But I... I lied to Em."
He brings his hand down hard on my ass. "What else?"
"I... I don't know. I kept so many things from everyone. All this time, and I... I'm here and not in New Jersey, and—"
He spanks me again. Hard.
Fuck, that hurts.