"Did the definition of discuss change recently? 'Cause last time I checked, it involves two people exchanging opinions, not one person sitting down and listening."
"Meg."
"Miles." I do sit down, but I'm not necessarily going to listen. "You better make this good. I have to study."
He sighs. "I knew this would happen."
"You mean that lying would blow up in your face? How the hell did you guess that one?"
"That you'd overreact to my recovery."
Acid churns in my stomach. "Fuck you."
"I almost told you that night in Malibu, but I couldn't bring myself to add to your anger."
I stare at the window. There's nothing to see except the dark blue sky. "Take responsibility for your decisions. You didn't tell me because you wanted to fuck me again."
"I could have fucked you right there."
"Fine. Because you wanted this, whatever you call it, to continue."
"Meg."
"No lies, no secrets. That was our deal. But you still kept this a secret."
"I didn't want to upset you."
I try to stay calm. He's smarter than this. He must know he's full of shit.
I stare back at Miles. "You fucked that up. I'm upset."
He has no smart-ass response.
"You don't even respect me enough to admit you lied."
"It's not like that."
"Then look me in the eyes and apologize for keeping this from me."
"You would've ended things."
"That's not an apology." I turn away from him. "You should go."
"Meg—"
"You don't trust me. I don't trust you." My heart is in my throat. I take a deep breath, anything to keep my voice steady. "What the hell are we doing this for?"
His eyes turn towards mine. "I couldn't tell you. It still hurt too much." He slides his hands into his pockets.
"I'm sorry, Miles, but you were so clear yesterday. Today, too. I'm 'some girl' to you. And you want to deal with everything alone. Where the hell is there room for me in that?"
He sighs. "I guess you're right."
My stomach drops. He's not fighting this. Not at all. That's how little I mean to him.
Miles lowers his voice. "We should have ended this earlier. Now, feelings are getting involved."
"Excuse you?"