My heart thuds against my chest. For a split second, I'm face to face with that awful feeling—hope.
I push it away. There's no way it's Miles.
I get up and open the door. It's Kara.
She brandishes a takeout bag. "I brought sushi. I know it's not as good as a hot, rock star boyfriend, but there are about four orders of salmon sashimi." She sets the bag on the counter and fixes two plates.
"What are you doing here?" I ask.
"You're my best friend. I need a break. You're moping. Adds up to us going out." She looks at me. "Did you eat dinner?"
"It's still early."
"It's almost ten." She sets a can of green tea on the counter and motions to it. "You have soy sauce?"
"In the fridge. But you know I eat my sashimi plain."
"Yes, but I'm not as hardcore as you are." She grabs soy sauce and drowns her sushi in it.
"Shouldn't we talk or something?"
"You want to talk about Miles?"
I pick up a piece of salmon sashimi with my chopsticks. "Not really."
"Do you want to think about him?"
"Never again."
She smiles. "I was hoping you'd say that." She grabs a fork and stabs a California roll. "Because I have the perfect way to turn off your brain cells. Alcohol optional."
"I'm terrified."
"You'll like it. Promise."
"Are you going to tell me?"
"Agree to do it first." She stares me right in the eyes. "You need to feel better."
I take a deep breath. I really do trust Kara, and I really don't want to think about Miles. "Okay."
Her eyes light up. "We're going dancing."
"I hate dancing."
"You think you hate dancing because you sit in the corner by yourself." She takes a long sip of her tea. "But tonight, you're going to grab the hottest guy you can find, and you're going to get back in touch with what your body wants."
"I'm not screwing some random guy."
"Just dancing. It's a great release."
"I don't know." A release sounds amazing. And I love the idea of house music drowning out every thought in my head. But I'm not keen on random guys in clubs. "I don't want a stranger touching me."
"Then dance with me." She scoops sashimi on my plate and motions eat. "But I'm not leaving you alone tonight. You need to let off some steam, and I need to make sure my best friend is okay."
"Drew didn't take my place?"
"In his dreams."