I rub my eyes and tell her, “Thanks for patching me up.”
“Same to you.” She smiles, and I find myself smiling back.
“You know, we still need to make our trade.”
“We need to find some food first,” she says. “Aren’t you starving?”
I’m not, but I nod anyway. Ever since the accident, my appetite hasn’t been the same. I think the feeding tube messed it up. My shrink at NVIR thought it was a nervous reaction.
“Do you think there’s food here?”
“I know there is,” she says. “Food and wine. Ammo. Jesus had this place well-stocked.”
I frown down at the table. It's weird the way she talks about Jesus. So...neutrally. Like she's talking about her cousin or something. It makes more sense now that I know he never fucked her, but it’s still weird. Dude committed horrible crimes, and she doesn’t even sound like she dislikes him.
“You up for some wine?” she asks.
I haven’t had any alcohol since the night I crashed. It used to conflict with the meds, and then I guess I just never had a reason. But right now I feel like I could really use a drink.
“You gonna pop the cork?” I ask her.
I lean over my shoulder to see what she’s doing, and my neck zings a little.
She’s got a loaf of homemade-looking bread out, and she’s spreading something on it that looks like jelly.
“If I still remember how,” she says. “I haven’t had a drink in more than a year.”
She looks so pretty right now, seems so normal, it's hard to imagine her with Jesus.
She finishes the bread and pulls out something else—beef jerky—which she sits on the table. Then she disappears, returning a moment later with a bottle of merlot and two jewel-encrusted wine glasses.
“The bread and jam are homemade. The merlot is local, too.”
I snort. “What a hostess.”
“Hey, I don’t have to share.” With some difficulty she pulls the cork, and my vision doubles as I watch her pour. She takes a small sip and sighs. “I'm just trying to be informative. It's my go-to, stressed-out mode, I guess.”
“Is stressed all you’re feeling?”
She laughs, but it’s strained. “It’s a good bit more than stressed. Honestly, it’s too much for me to even begin deal with.” She takes another sip of her wine. “So I feel pretty good at this moment. The wine…could be crap and it would still be good.”
“Is that true for the company?” I joke, and she pretends to consider.
“It’s not the worst thing about this situation,” she says.
“Nice.” I take a large drink of the wine. It’s velvety, with a hint of molasses and a taste of plum, but like she said, it’s been a while.
I rub my eyes, take the bread she hands me, and say, “I shot a lot of people you knew.”
She purses her lips and just sits there, staring at her plate. I can tell she’s fighting tears, and I think to myself, what the hell is wrong with me? Impulsively, I touch her arm. “I'm sorry. I shouldn't have asked. This whole thing is fucking weird—”
“Can you say frack please?”
“Huh?”
“Say frack.” She wipes her eyes and speaks from behind the shield of her hand. “I really hate the F-word.”
“Sorry,” I say quickly. “My mom’s Catholic, so I should know better.”
She shakes her head. “It’s not for anything like that. My aunt taught me it was tacky.”
“Taaaaaccky.” I say it with what I think is a convincing drawl, and she shrugs.
“Ooooookay. You can make fuuun of myyyy aceeeeent all you wannnnt.”
I swallow back some of my wine and watch her eat. I'm like a fracking cat. Curiosity is killing me. I need to know more about this woman—now.
“I was in a motorcycle accident.” There. I said it. I shift in my seat, automatically searching for a position that will lessen the painful zinging of the damaged nerve endings in my neck. “Fallout was pretty bad and I was laid up for a while.”
She considers me over the rim of her glass. I can feel her eyes urging me to go on. I take a long sip of my wine, hoping it will take the edge off my zings. “What do you want to know, Mer?”
“What happened to your neck?”
“I fu— fracked up the posterior joint, like pretty bad. Fractured C3, C5, and C6. Those are vertebrae near the top of the spine but you probably know that.” She nods. “Couple of herniated discs around that area and a facet fracture.”
Her eyes are wide, but to her credit, she doesn't bust out with something asinine or overly pitying. She bites her lip and says, “That sucks.”
“I was in a coma for a little while after.”
Again, her green eyes pop. “Really? But you look so...good.”
That gets a laugh out of me. “Good genes.”
“Good luck,” she says, chewing some bread. “Really, though, it's a wonder you're alive.”